goodbye

[tora]

this is it. today is my last day. I'm going to wait until tonight to drive to my local park, go sit out under the stars with my shotgun, and when I'm ready, I'll shoot myself.
I just finished my note, and there's just a few more things I have to do today before I'll be ready. it honestly doesn't feel real. I didn't think I'd ever go through with this, but here we are.
I'm gonna spent the day with my dog, I'll take him out for a nice walk and then hang out at home with him and get some yummy food for us.
thank you everyone for being so supportive. this forum has really helped me come to peace with death. good luck to you all with your plans, maybe I'll see you soon.
mods, please wait a couple days before deactivating my account, in case I don't go through with it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Farewell, I wish you the best with your plans and I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for.

 

[Amidaa]

well guess this goodbye, hope you enjoy your last moment with your dog. best wishes with your plan. let all the suffering be gone and who knows we might meet each other again somewhere. have a save journey to peace

 

[アホペンギン]

Goodbye, hopefully you enjoy the last moments with your dog and under the stars.
When the time comes, sleep well.

 

[Unattainable666]

Tora - I am so sorry that life has brought you to this point. I'm sending you all the love I can.

 

[Ruma]

Goodbye & Goodluck. May you find peace x

 

[F&Inside]

Farewell tora. Good luck.

 

[LuckyAutumn]

Good luck, I wish you the best in finding your peace <3

 

[jessisme]

I hope things go as well as they can for you and that you do not suffer. Sending wishes of peace to you. xo, j

 

[nothingboy]

i'm sorry it's come to this. i hope you enjoy your last day and you find peace

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Godspeed.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry that life brought you to this point. I wish you all the best. I hope you find peace. Safe travels. Enjoy your time with your dog!! Good luck!

 

[SnowWhite]

I wish you nothing but my best wishes, whether you choose to go through with it or not. I'm sorry that your life has lead you to ctb, and I hope your journey to the otherside is as painless as it is quick.

 

[tora]

thank you everyone for the kind words I've had a good day, I finished up some final errands and chores, walked at the park with my dog, and just got back from the dog park with my sister and her dog. I feel awful that she has no idea that was the last time she'll see me :( now I'm going to watch the office and eat a lot of chips and candy until 2am when I'll be ready to go.
here she is, this is the gun I'm using. it's a Mossberg Maverick 88 Security 12 Gauge, with buckshot ammo. never shot it before, this'll be my first and last time. hopefully I don't fuck it up!

 

[rosegoldmoon]

I am so sorry that you are hurting this much. This world is so unfair to people like you and me.

But if you ever think about changing your mind, please stay. I am here for you if you want to talk. I really mean it. :(

 

[zamzas]

Please make sure your dog has enough food and water before you leave. Other than that, I hope you can reach the end you're aiming for.

 

[not_telling]

I'm sorry it has come to that. I hope you can find a peaceful end, at last. Your name has come up in a few posts I read, you look decided and ready for what is to come now. Have a relaxing ride, your presence in this website will be missed.

 

[undecided]

This is a SCARY method!
I concur with zamzas, please make sure your beloved dog will be ok, no stress please.

I wish you a peaceful exit.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

You're very brave and I hope that whatever kind of peace you seek finds you and keeps you.

 

[Touhou]

Farewell, I hope you're able to find what you're searching for postmortem. Nice gun, by the way; Mossbergs're very reliable and a 12-gauge's very strong.

 

[absolutelyyou]

I'm so sorry you're feeling this deep pain, but what a joy to get to spend your final day with your, I'm sure absolulty lovely, dog. May you fine peace <3

 

[waRmblanket]

good luck, i hope you find your peace. safe travels<3

 

[Cloud Busting]

Wishing you in peace in whatever you choose, and if you are still here, we will stand behind you

 

[tora]

ugh, it's almost time and I'm getting really nervous I want to just get it over with now but I have to wait until my sister (who lives right next to me) is asleep so she can't see me carrying a shotgun to my car through her window. gonna take some more propranolol and maybe a shot of vodka to calm me down
I was going to factory reset my phone before I die, but I want to listen to music as I do it. is it easy to hack into a phone? I need to make sure my family won't be able to get into my phone once I'm gone because I don't want them to see SaSu or my search history lol
just scheduled a text and email to send to my local police at 4:30am so my body will be found quickly, and not by any innocent kids. it all feels so real now. and very scary. but I can do this.

 

[didntmeantohauntyou]

Just delete everything you dont want your family to see. No one is going to go digging into uncovering all the things you deleted in the case of ctb, thats only in the case of like an ongoing investigation. I hope you find peace bro

 

[Cloud Busting]

ugh, it's almost time and I'm getting really nervous I want to just get it over with now but I have to wait until my sister (who lives right next to me) is asleep so she can't see me carrying a shotgun to my car through her window. gonna take some more propranolol and maybe a shot of vodka to calm me down
I was going to factory reset my phone before I die, but I want to listen to music as I do it. is it easy to hack into a phone? I need to make sure my family won't be able to get into my phone once I'm gone because I don't want them to see SaSu or my search history lol
just scheduled a text and email to send to my local police at 4:30am so my body will be found quickly, and not by any innocent kids. it all feels so real now. and very scary. but I can do this.

This is so crazy. You are taking the same steps I did before I attempted to ctb

What I did was I just played one last song before the factory reset, then did it (I mean it failed).

You are a very caring person to send an email so kids don't find you. I did the same.

It's fucking scary. Always remember this is it and there is no going back if this is what you do, and the more fear you have, the easier it is to botch this.

I don't know your story or why you have this gun, and wish I could know. But it's not my business. Either way it breaks my heart it led to this for you.

I'm going to bed after this American dad ep and finishing this bowl, but goodbye in case you're no longer with us and I fall asleep before it happens

 

[Maeve]

I hope all goes well.
<3
If there was enough time you maby could like factory reset and log in to your music app again, or yt 4 listening.
Or just delete the history I don't think they will go through you phone.

Best of luck to you

 

[Captive_Mind515]

Good luck tora. I hope you find peace!

 

[tora]

thank you everyone I'm finally finished with everything at home, there's a few dishes I didn't clean but I don't have the energy to do anything else
I'm going to make sure my sister's lights are off before I leave. I took like 7 pills of propranolol so I'm feeling mostly calm and kinda fuzzy

 

[Cloud Busting]

thank you everyone I'm finally finished with everything at home, there's a few dishes I didn't clean but I don't have the energy to do anything else
I'm going to make sure my sister's lights are off before I leave. I took like 7 pills of propranolol so I'm feeling mostly calm and kinda fuzzy

This is so eerie. I too took propranolol and drank vodka. I also didn't get everything wrapped up entirely.

Wishing you a safe journey. My heart aches for you and I don't even know you. Goodbye friend.