Beautiful Angel

Beautiful Angel

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Jul 2, 2020
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Everyone else has given up even down to the people that are supposed to love me. The ones that are left that have not done. They know better than to be around me every morning makes me feel like I am the worst person ever that I am the most horrible person to ever have to be around, I'm only used for my body it started at all when I was seven into a teenager. It didn't stop there. It became a pattern of self destruction for me after I lost the love of my life, which filled me with the regret that I cannot ever seem to get away from. I have mini heart and dreams that will never change any of them come to be.

I don't want to burden anyone anymore I can't live this way! I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I'm so sorry I failed everyone ( my beautiful children) the only thing in this life that I ever see if that was good! I have dreams of being your MOM I feel like if someone would have supported me better or at all really things might have been different, but no one in my whole life has ever truly loved me but your daddy and I can't wait anymore to be with him. IN PEACE I'm no good for you, You're better off without me I am so sorry. I failed my self. I am home. So glad that it ended with me that you guys didn't get any of my trade. You had great people to look up to so they could guide you. And you turned out to be wonderful Hunter, baby God I pray that your life does it end up like mine please turn it around. If you haven't learned anything baby, do it for me please
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Farewell, I hope that you find freedom from your suffering.
 
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nessun_nome

Student
May 7, 2023
146
Everyone else has given up even down to the people that are supposed to love me. The ones that are left that have not done. They know better than to be around me every morning makes me feel like I am the worst person ever that I am the most horrible person to ever have to be around, I'm only used for my body it started at all when I was seven into a teenager. It didn't stop there. It became a pattern of self destruction for me after I lost the love of my life, which filled me with the regret that I cannot ever seem to get away from. I have mini heart and dreams that will never change any of them come to be.

I don't want to burden anyone anymore I can't live this way! I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I'm so sorry I failed everyone ( my beautiful children) the only thing in this life that I ever see if that was good! I have dreams of being your MOM I feel like if someone would have supported me better or at all really things might have been different, but no one in my whole life has ever truly loved me but your daddy and I can't wait anymore to be with him. IN PEACE I'm no good for you, You're better off without me I am so sorry. I failed my self. I am home. So glad that it ended with me that you guys didn't get any of my trade. You had great people to look up to so they could guide you. And you turned out to be wonderful Hunter, baby God I pray that your life does it end up like mine please turn it around. If you haven't learned anything baby, do it for me please

Have you asked them what they think of you?
 
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HighOctane

EarthRover
Aug 14, 2023
24
Everyone else has given up even down to the people that are supposed to love me. The ones that are left that have not done. They know better than to be around me every morning makes me feel like I am the worst person ever that I am the most horrible person to ever have to be around, I'm only used for my body it started at all when I was seven into a teenager. It didn't stop there. It became a pattern of self destruction for me after I lost the love of my life, which filled me with the regret that I cannot ever seem to get away from. I have mini heart and dreams that will never change any of them come to be.

I don't want to burden anyone anymore I can't live this way! I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I'm so sorry I failed everyone ( my beautiful children) the only thing in this life that I ever see if that was good! I have dreams of being your MOM I feel like if someone would have supported me better or at all really things might have been different, but no one in my whole life has ever truly loved me but your daddy and I can't wait anymore to be with him. IN PEACE I'm no good for you, You're better off without me I am so sorry. I failed my self. I am home. So glad that it ended with me that you guys didn't get any of my trade. You had great people to look up to so they could guide you. And you turned out to be wonderful Hunter, baby God I pray that your life does it end up like mine please turn it around. If you haven't learned anything baby, do it for me please
Here if you need a chat
 
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UKscotty

Doesn't read PMs
May 20, 2021
2,450
Good luck, I hope you make it out of this life.
 
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angel_cries

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Aug 14, 2023
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I feel so sorry for everything you have been trough. I see myself in you. I can relate to almost everything you said. I hope you find peace just like I hope to find it too…
 
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Beautiful Angel

Beautiful Angel

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Jul 2, 2020
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I feel so sorry for everything you have been trough. I see myself in you. I can relate to almost everything you said. I hope you find peace just like I hope to find it too…
Thank you and I'm sorry if we lived in a peaceful place it be different I wanted to live but it the point where I don't even want to see what comes next because I've had enough of people showing me how they really think about me! I will be gone tonight but I'm sure Noone will find me for a while There is nothing else
 
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handel420

Member
Aug 16, 2023
5
Please reach out if you need. The empathy of strangers carries us further than we ever thought possible. All I can do is lend an ear and offer a clean heart. You're not alone, none of us are, this site is evident of that. Go in peace with your choice but here for you xx
 
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chop

Admіnіstrator
Aug 17, 2023
36
Everyone else has given up even down to the people that are supposed to love me. The ones that are left that have not done. They know better than to be around me every morning makes me feel like I am the worst person ever that I am the most horrible person to ever have to be around, I'm only used for my body it started at all when I was seven into a teenager. It didn't stop there. It became a pattern of self destruction for me after I lost the love of my life, which filled me with the regret that I cannot ever seem to get away from. I have mini heart and dreams that will never change any of them come to be.

I don't want to burden anyone anymore I can't live this way! I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I'm so sorry I failed everyone ( my beautiful children) the only thing in this life that I ever see if that was good! I have dreams of being your MOM I feel like if someone would have supported me better or at all really things might have been different, but no one in my whole life has ever truly loved me but your daddy and I can't wait anymore to be with him. IN PEACE I'm no good for you, You're better off without me I am so sorry. I failed my self. I am home. So glad that it ended with me that you guys didn't get any of my trade. You had great people to look up to so they could guide you. And you turned out to be wonderful Hunter, baby God I pray that your life does it end up like mine please turn it around. If you haven't learned anything baby, do it for me please.
You've been through too much man. You will be in a better place we wish you the best and only the best.
 
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Gonnerr

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Mar 12, 2023
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Good luck, i hope you escape peacefully.
 
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SVEN

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Apr 3, 2023
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Best wishes for peace and consolation. Go well.
 
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heavyeyes

heavyeyes

Oct 9, 2022
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I hope you find peace 🤍 I'm so sorry things turned out this way
 
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