I'm pretty shocked to read this right now and I feel bad. I'm so sorry that I wasn't around much yesterday, maybe I could have seen this thread sooner if I was. I wish I could have been here for you when you CTB the way you offered to be here for me during the final moments of my CTB. If you didn't leave yet, know that we are here for you, you don't have to feel alone and as if nobody cares for you, I care and I will be here for you if you return. I'm sorry that I didn't get to reply to your last messages, I had a very hard time with heart breaks and abuse IRL and it was so difficult for me to reply to anyone, I feel terrible for it, I just wanted to isolate myself.
You are a caring and sweet person and I will always be thankful for your check ups and your kind words. It really saddens me to know that you might be gone.
With whatever ended up happening, I hope you are more at peace now. If there really is an afterlife or a world beyond this one after death, I hope you can read this and know that you meant something you had meaning and value.