Goodbye , Tonight I will be Going.

[silvermoon]

Hi, everyone. As I said tonight i will be ctbing. I am not alone there are many people who are ctbing tonight. Wish them luck. I going to cut my throat with all the power . I hope it's successfull. It will be painful but life is more painful. I think i can handle pain . I will faint early if cut is on the mark. Wish me luck. Goodbye. 15 hours left.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

If you want/need to talk, am available. No judgement, just will listen.

 

[S1mpleme]

You don't want to try other methods?

 

[theguineapigking]

I'm so sorry that it's come to this. I'm also sorry about not replying in the other thread. I didn't notice you replied back.


I think I told you before in your other post about partial suspension. It's way less painful and gruesome. But I completely understand your want to die ASAP. Just know that there are other less painful methods so at least you won't suffer as much. The rope can be bought on amazon for like $10. You generally use 8-10 mm non stretch static rope(some places call it climbing rope which means it's truly reliable or they wouldn't advertise it as such) and use a simple noose slip knot with 2 loops instead of one(one is always shown in videos),and usually use a bow hitch knot on the structure you're tying it to.


I know you said in the other post you're sure you want to die. I understand. But just know I'm here for you. Just like avoid_slow_death said, If you want to talk,I won't judge you :) We're here for you dude.


Whatever you decide,please be careful and I hope it goes well for you. I hope you find the peace you're looking for.

 

[silvermoon]

I am not alone . My brother is at home. Parents are out of town. I hope they don't came back in the evening. If they came back they are more chances i will be caught. Everything will be ruined. If they came back should i cancel CTB ? Need some suggestions

 

[S1mpleme]

Are you going to cut your throat when your brother is home? Don't ruin his life please.

 

[theguineapigking]

If you're caught bleeding out,you could be "saved". It's generally risky to do so with others home. Especially if you make pained noises from cutting. It's best to do it when nobody is home. If others are home,you have to make sure you're not disturbed which can be risky,especially if you make noises.

Did you write a note at all so your family knows why it came to this?

Have you talked to your brother or parents about how you feel?

 

[one4all]

I am not alone . My brother is at home. Parents are out of town. I hope they don't came back in the evening. If they came back they are more chances i will be caught. Everything will be ruined. If they came back should i cancel CTB ? Need some suggestions

If you feel you will be caught.. is it worth it at this time? Your brother is home with you too,

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Sounds like you're not only having doubts, but you did not plan and prepare enough for this decision. If you are terribly worried about getting caught, you should postpone it at the very least. In the meantime, strongly suggest you talk to someone. Either here or lRL, your choice.

 

[Broken Chimera]

You should rethink your plan. There's no way that's gonna work. You're only going to hurt yourself that way and end up in worst shape than you are now. I'm not judging, it's just that there are much better methods than that, ones that are less painful.

 

[Lostandfound7]

Hello Love..I'm so sorry..plz don't do that while ur brother is home..that will b so traumatic for him n that image will never leave him for the rest of his life..plz take some more time n reconsider other options n another time when no one is around..plz I beg u..we r here for u if u need to talk..

 

[WhyamIstillhere]

I really think you should reconsider this method.

 

[reapandsow918]

Ouch

 

[xBrialesana]

Sounds like you're not only having doubts, but you did not plan and prepare enough for this decision. If you are terribly worried about getting caught, you should postpone it at the very least. In the meantime, strongly suggest you talk to someone. Either here or lRL, your choice.

Just repeating this. ^^^

You don't want to end up in a worse situation then you obviously are in, as well.

 

[jgm63]

Are you sure you don't want to plan out a more peaceful method ?

However, we support you in whatever you wish to do....

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I hope you don't die in pain. I wish for you peace in whatever you decide.

 

[MsMaudlin]

Please have a rethink of your method, I'm not sure that you could do that quietly with your brother there.

If you do decide to go ahead with it, good luck, I'm sending you strength.

❤

 

[valentine]

I wish you peace

 

[imdone23]

Best of luck friend, you are more courageous than most. <3

 

[Yaalya]

pls dont... the pain... there are other reliable methods like SN... pls dont

 

[LastRide]

It does sound extremely painful...don't you have another option? We really do not want to have you suffer so much....

 

[Soul]

@silvermoon, I'm sorry about everything that's led you to contemplate this.

Yes, you need to postpone this until you can be sure you'll be alone. And please bear in mind that while your conscious self can endure a lot, your body is under prehistoric orders to stay alive, and it's a tough mother. There are other methods that leave less margin for error. Please be careful, and please think this through.

I hope your decisions will work out the right way for you. x

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

Are you still with us, @silvermoon?

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry to hear that things have come down to this. The method that you chose is a tough one and SI may kick in when you least expect it, so if you are still going through with it, then I wish you luck and peace.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Are you sure of your method? Please consider not taking too much risk

 

[Sk1n1M1n]

But remember think about how can make it painlesss for others as well, don't leave paper trail

 

[jgm63]

I would like you to consider the possibility of planning a more peaceful method.

However, if you decide to proceed then I wish you a safe journey onwards.....

 

[jgm63]

update from OP :

Spoiler: i-am-still-alive-couldnt-do-it

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/i-am-still-alive-couldnt-do-it.31688/