goodbye thread

[Kittzuni]

Most of you probably don't know me as I've always been more of a lurker, but regardless of that I've always worn my issues on my sleeves and since I posted about my life on here in the past you can read up on it of you want to.

To sum it up, I've experienced true love about 2 years ago when I first met my husband. I've been in long relationships in the past, much longer ones in fact.. but with him it was different. I've never experienced anything like it and seeing it slowly fading away has destroyed me. He managed to heal most of my childhood trauma (cause by my half brother who sexually assaulted me) but my husband simply doesn't look at me with the same eyes anymore. I think he still loves me but it's just not the same and I know it will never be the same. On top of that I've realized that neither of us would be good parents and even if we would manage to work through our issues and traumas we wouldn't have enough money to raise kids anyway. So I've given up on that "dream". It's weird to call it a dream as I've never wanted to have kids before I met him. I hate children. But it has been a dream of mine, even if it was just for a few months.

I'm currently wearing my wedding dress and watching clannad, my favorite anime. I already took my pain killers, meto and some alpras that I have been saving up for some months. I'll be taking SN now.

I know it's silly but I still wanted to play animal crossing with a few members on here.. sadly I couldn't find the time, so if you guys see this, I'd love to show you my island in a dream. My dream address is:
DA-2329-9028-3268
Anyone else is welcome to visit as well.

Also, I'd really appreciate it if you'd give my favorite artist a listen. His name is Jake Hill and he's also one of the reasons why I'm (still) here today. This artist is also sole reason why I met my husband.

I wouldn't want to change anything that happened in my life as I enjoyed some parts of it immensely and I'm grateful for that. Through all the suffering I'm still grateful for the people I've met and the love I've received. I've had wonderful friends, parents and a lovely cat. Please wish them well, I know it's gonna be hard for them to manage.

Goodbye.
@noonipie
@UsagiDrop
@EmpathyMinded
@Never Alive
@jessicaX

sorry i cant remember anyone else's names, I'm really bad with names

 

[DavideKals]

Hope it's painless and see you on the other side. Also I will give the artist a go, pretty sure I will like the music.

 

[Jule_from_Germany]

Best wishes for your journey. May you find peace

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I hope all goes well for you and you get to the peace you deserve.

 

[lonelyflyinginsect]

I hope you achieve what you are/were expecting to.

Thank you for sharing your story with us.

I'm 30 myself. Been alone since eternity, not only romantically but in normal life too. No life, no friends, nothing at all.
I have been collecting courage to do the same. Already have SN. Just can't get myself to kill myself in the house because of members here.

I pray that your final journey is quick & relatively painless. and your dearest one doesn't blame your soul and they forgive.

Love.

 

[Iva]

Most of you probably don't know me as I've always been more of a lurker, but regardless of that I've always worn my issues on my sleeves and since I posted about my life on here in the past you can read up on it of you want to.

To sum it up, I've experienced true love about 2 years ago when I first met my husband. I've been in long relationships in the past, much longer ones in fact.. but with him it was different. I've never experienced anything like it and seeing it slowly fading away has destroyed me. He managed to heal most of my childhood trauma (cause by my half brother who sexually assaulted me) but my husband simply doesn't look at me with the same eyes anymore. I think he still loves me but it's just not the same and I know it will never be the same. On top of that I've realized that neither of us would be good parents and even if we would manage to work through our issues and traumas we wouldn't have enough money to raise kids anyway. So I've given up on that "dream". It's weird to call it a dream as I've never wanted to have kids before I met him. I hate children. But it has been a dream of mine, even if it was just for a few months.

I'm currently wearing my wedding dress and watching clannad, my favorite anime. I already took my pain killers, meto and some alpras that I have been saving up for some months. I'll be taking SN now.

I know it's silly but I still wanted to play animal crossing with a few members on here.. sadly I couldn't find the time, so if you guys see this, I'd love to show you my island in a dream. My dream address is:
DA-2329-9028-3268
Anyone else is welcome to visit as well.

Also, I'd really appreciate it if you'd give my favorite artist a listen. His name is Jake Hill and he's also one of the reasons why I'm (still) here today. This artist is also sole reason why I met my husband.

I wouldn't want to change anything that happened in my life as I enjoyed some parts of it immensely and I'm grateful for that. Through all the suffering I'm still grateful for the people I've met and the love I've received. I've had wonderful friends, parents and a lovely cat. Please wish them well, I know it's gonna be hard for them to manage.

Goodbye.
@noonipie
@UsagiDrop
@EmpathyMinded
@Never Alive
@jessicaX

sorry i cant remember anyone else's names, I'm really bad with names

It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. I hope you find the peace that you so desperately seek. I'm entering your code to visit your island as soon as I finish typing this. I'm glad I got to share this earth with you for a little bit, at least. See you on the other side. <3

 

[Deleted member 65988]

I hope it all goes smoothly for you and you find peace in the end.

 

[angel31]

It is so sad life has led you to this point and I am truly sorry…
Hope you have a painless transition and find peace
Sending hugs

 

[FuneralCry]

Goodbye, I hope that you find the freedom you wish for.

 

[Unwr!tten]

I'm hoping your journey was peaceful and you are happy and safe.

 

[Fktw0rld]

I'm very sorry for all the trials you've endured and painful memories you're forced to carry. I truly do hope you're able to find peace. We've all arrived at the same destination by way of different roads. Although it may feel like it, you're not alone in your suffering and decision to make an exit.

Love and respect @Kittzuni

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope all goes well for and may you find peace on the other side!

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

May you find peace and freedom from this horrible world.

 

[Readytogo246]

My reason for cbt is my husband falling out of love with me too. It is a subtle thing and also so apparent that there are things hidden he won't talk about. After 17 years of matrimony I am on my out also. It just isn't worth it and hurts too much trying to pretend. I value your courage to end what isn't working and send blessings for quick passage. Mine will be soon.

 

[MrDarkness]

I hope you find peace, god speed. I'll see you soon

 

[not_actually_human]

Most of you probably don't know me as I've always been more of a lurker, but regardless of that I've always worn my issues on my sleeves and since I posted about my life on here in the past you can read up on it of you want to.

To sum it up, I've experienced true love about 2 years ago when I first met my husband. I've been in long relationships in the past, much longer ones in fact.. but with him it was different. I've never experienced anything like it and seeing it slowly fading away has destroyed me. He managed to heal most of my childhood trauma (cause by my half brother who sexually assaulted me) but my husband simply doesn't look at me with the same eyes anymore. I think he still loves me but it's just not the same and I know it will never be the same. On top of that I've realized that neither of us would be good parents and even if we would manage to work through our issues and traumas we wouldn't have enough money to raise kids anyway. So I've given up on that "dream". It's weird to call it a dream as I've never wanted to have kids before I met him. I hate children. But it has been a dream of mine, even if it was just for a few months.

I'm currently wearing my wedding dress and watching clannad, my favorite anime. I already took my pain killers, meto and some alpras that I have been saving up for some months. I'll be taking SN now.

I know it's silly but I still wanted to play animal crossing with a few members on here.. sadly I couldn't find the time, so if you guys see this, I'd love to show you my island in a dream. My dream address is:
DA-2329-9028-3268
Anyone else is welcome to visit as well.

Also, I'd really appreciate it if you'd give my favorite artist a listen. His name is Jake Hill and he's also one of the reasons why I'm (still) here today. This artist is also sole reason why I met my husband.

I wouldn't want to change anything that happened in my life as I enjoyed some parts of it immensely and I'm grateful for that. Through all the suffering I'm still grateful for the people I've met and the love I've received. I've had wonderful friends, parents and a lovely cat. Please wish them well, I know it's gonna be hard for them to manage.

Goodbye.
@noonipie
@UsagiDrop
@EmpathyMinded
@Never Alive
@jessicaX

sorry i cant remember anyone else's names, I'm really bad with names

I'm shocked, I'm too heart-broken to read beyond the title, I will, but all I have to say is I'm just so sorry

 

[90starve]

have a peaceful journey <3

 

[Snake9111]

I hope you find peace.

 

[Never Alive]

You were the only one left I knew from my city. Everyone either ctb, left or are inactive now :c. Farewell Kittzuni

 

[glossble]

You play Animal Crossing too (*´∇｀*) I'll definitely make sure to visit your island!

I hope I can leave soon too, so see you on the other side? Best wishes ♡

 

[The anhedonic one]

I haven't seen many of your posts, but I was tearful reading this one.
It's so sad what has happened to you.
I hope that your exit from this cruel world goes smoothly and peacefully.

 

[Mortadelo]

Farewell, good luck

 

[soontobedone]

Life is so hard for some of us. I hope it was peaceful.

 

[lokabe82]

Rest easy, my friend

 

[UsagiDrop]

I am really sad to have seen this later than I should even though I was tagged. I'm wishing that I had logged on sooner to see it. I know that you can't read this now but I want you to know that even though I'm shedding tears, I find myself feeling so much relief and happiness for you right now. I hope that your journey to the other side was peaceful and successful, perhaps I'll be meeting you there soon.

Thank you for sharing your opinions, your thoughts, your kind words, your story, and your Animal Crossing island with us! I'm sad we didn't end up finding the time to play, but I will definitely be purchasing the online membership just to view your beautiful and hard work. I'll make a day out of it tomorrow, while I give Jake Hill a few listens.

Wishing your loved ones the best in their grieving process, I hope they can come to understand and accept your decision. Farewell Kittzuni, we're very happy to have known you for the short time that we have.