Goodbye SS

[AnestheticVoid]

I just want to say that I am appreciative that this community exists. Being able converse with like minded people who have has been my saving saving grace. I know when with anything thing in this world there are genuine people and people who whish to seek the demise of individuals. This post isn't for those wishing wishing the destruction of life for their their entertainment. However this posts cannot tip the sides either way. Just the fact of life

my 10 yearr old cousin died of lekumka and for 19 years Ive surprised survivors guilt. He was was purely innocent. Unlike me which was nothing but a selfish and empty shell. I should of died. With a father with a father oho didtn't care. A mother who who didn't care unless there was witness tell her she's was. Good mom. Babysat by drug addicts. Learned later that my grandmother allowed me to sleep to in the same bed as a convicted child rapist. Swore up and down nothing happened but when your eye witness is under the influence her testimony should be taken with a grain of salt.

Ended up in a trailer which I burned down. No therapy be because that would comprise your about ability to be a good mother.

Allowed to be to raised about addicts that choice their vices rather than show love and compassion.

Being a missed child black/white. I wouldn't win. I was either a n-word ot a mistake.

By no means am a portraying I am a good person far from. Love I'd something that doesn't compute.
I am not too proud to beg but on knees
I beg the universe to release me of bondage.
Sorry for the Grammer
I am an addict with no cure living cure in site. The cut cute un sight

 

[Insomniac]

sounds like you went through hell. not fair.

Be well fam.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

USA sucks

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds awful what you have been through. It really is such a cruel world we live in. I wish you the best.

 

[CommitSudoku]

I'm really sorry for how much you've been through and how much you've suffered. I hope whatever you decide to do going forward is what you feel is best. Thank you for your contributions to this forum. Best wishes and I hope you can find peace.

 

[AnestheticVoid]

I'd like to apologize for my rambling.

However is my day. Im. Unwilling to put it off.

If anyone would like to converse with me in my final moments it would be purely appreciated.

I've fasted for over 24 hours, I have a lot of Xanax, risperidone and zofran.. if you would like like to company I just ask you to not ask tell me things get better and try to talk me off the ledge. I love you all please find it in your hearts to liove me too.

Thank you all.

 

[rationaltake]

I'm sorry it's come to this. Life is stacked against some people. It's totally unfair.

 

[Sunset Limited]

I like to read your posts. I wish the best for you.

 

[GentleJerk]

I'm so very sorry it's come to this, I really like your posts and I was hoping it was just the beginning of seeing you around here. To lose a cousin at such a young age is awful, my heart burns for all the children in the world who have suffered in such a horrible way, It's not fair. Living with that memory would be so tough. How can I feel so hard done by when these things happen to kids?

No matter where you go or what you do from here, I'll be wishing you all the very best, forever and always. Take care.

 

[bad luck]

Good trip. I hope it works for you. A hug

 

[Cathy Ames]

I wish for you to be safe and free of suffering, but I am sad to see you go.

 

[Of The Universe]

USA sucks

There are so many stories here of A) bad parents,guardians and B) sexual abuse !! Its terrible. People need to get their act together,have morals,live A good life of hard work,kindness to your kids.
This shit is increasing daily. Were in trouble...for a lot of reasons.

Sometimes people criticize interracial sex,and others foam at the mouth,and bitterly hate them. But this poor fellow says maybe...just fucking maybe...people should think twice before they do that. My rant is over. Don't hate me!

 

[Cathy Ames]

If you're still here, now that you've gotten everything you need to CTB whenever you want to, perhaps you can stick around for a while?

 

[StarryStarry]

I am overwhelmed with sorrow that you had to endure such pain. I don't think you are a bad person - on the contrary, you are someone who has reacted in life with how you were brought up. I appreciate your posts and want you to know I care.

 

[Crazy4u]

Sorry to see you go. I wish you the best

 

[Cathy Ames]

If you changed your mind and are still with us, that's okay!!! You can come back on the forum and tell us how things are going for you right now.

 

[ColorlessTrees]

Haven't been around recently, so dammit, I'm late. Your posts were ones I genuinely enjoyed and will sincerely miss. Rest in peace; I hope you found yours.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I hope you have found peace, if that's what you chose to do.