Goodbye. Love you all

[fox_wannabe]

I am still waiting for some little things in life, but it overall is just not worth it, and it would be better to end It here, I felt mostly pain in last few days, months, and years. Not talking about my childhood and teenage years where suffering was just my life. I never thought something like depression is something not normal. Lately I found my life sucks and It's not worth living.
People might say: you are cool guy/son/lover but they do not see the pain (ok nobody ever called me good lover, they would probably lie). If I stay it will be because my SI uses my attachments to keep me here. With each day I stay I get worse. I did not plan to make it this far, I wanted to die 9th of September, and month before that I was counting each day before this day. I stayed for family and drugs, but non of this things stop underlying problem: my life and me.

I will listen to some crane wives and say goodbye to life and you people. I wrote my note summing everything up. I have my method ready (argon exit bag). I need to clean a kitchen and throw out trash and clean my pc from all data, at which point I will loose contact with everybody here. But until that point I will be here.
So thank you, goodbye

 

[Jumping_realms]

I'm sorry it has come to this..

Wishing you a peaceful passing if that's what you so desire.

 

[stilldreaming]

I'm so sorry you hurt so much :(

I wish so much things could be different. I wish you nothing but peace and contentment

(also, I'd never heard of the crane wives before, but I'm listening now, they sound fantastic, thank you for sharing x)

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Goodbye friend. I wish you peace in the afterlife

 

[AQUA]

It's not too late to turn back, you only die once, are you sure this is your time?

After whatever happens, I hope you find peace

 

[Molded foundation]

Love ya man. Seen you in some posts since I was lurking for months before this account. O7

 

[littlelungs]

I'm so sorry that it's come to this for you. I wish you absolute peace, no matter where you get it. Big hugs.

 

[Conker]

May you escape their blurry cave and find a much better neighborhood free from amnesia. <3

 

[Midgardsorm]

I'm sorry. You might be suffering a lot.

I hope this place were pleasant for you as you were for us.

If you change your mind, know that your method will go nowhere. Don't feel pressured to go. Maybe you could stay a while longer, maybe even recovery is still an option for you, but only you will know for sure, of course.

Either way, I wish you peace.

Be well.

 

[fox_wannabe]

Ok I will now factory reset pc, I don't want this forum to be found in my search history somehow and blacklisted in my country. I wish you all peace. Thank you

bye

 

[Midgardsorm]

Ok I will now factory reset pc, I don't want this forum to be found in my search history somehow and blacklisted in my country. I wish you all peace. Thank you

Bye foxie

 

[stilldreaming]

I'm still listening to the crane wives, I was really looking for some fresh music recently to clean and cook to, thank you seriously for introducing me to them x

I wish it had been under better circumstances.... :( Sleep well friend, I'll be joining you soon

edit: I thought I hit submit like half an hour ago on this post...oh I'm so sorry. Just wanted you to know it was enjoyed, thank you again. I'm sorry for everything, please find peace, however that is

 

[ClownMe]

Rest easy sweet fox, I hope you find peace.

 

[deadverysoon]

its hard to see people go...
but i can understand that in so many ways.

all the best :-(

 

[hʚll]

i hope you peace and that you feel not too alone when you reset your pc. you are in our thoughts...

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I hope that you have found peace.

 

[LifeQuitter2018]

Rest in peace my friend.

 

[MrOptions]

Peaceful transitions to you.

 

[fox_wannabe]

I am back, and alive.
I couldn't bring myself to do idle gas, I was to afraid to. I attempted hanging like 4 times and last one I almost went uncoscious. Yet I am here. I feel stupid right now but it seams I do not have enough conviction just yet. It was weird experience. Maybe I needed to feel on the verge of death. I do not know. I didn't know how hard It would be to die.

But partial hanging... It felt good. Not in any sexual way. I do not talk about autoerotic hanging. It was something about slipping into unconscious that felt kinda freeing. Like falling asleep. It was very peaceful. If I ever decide to go I will do partial, Idle gas seams peaceful but It is very dounting, loud scary. Partial is calm, personal.

Thank you all for kind words, I didn't mean to use them as push for death, I wanted not to feel alone in my transition to other side.

 

[phoenixx]

I'm so sorry, I hope you find peace my friend

 

[fox_wannabe]

I'm so sorry, I hope you find peace my friend

Dude I am alive

 

[OnlyTheWind]

I am back, and alive.
I couldn't bring myself to do idle gas, I was to afraid to. I attempted hanging like 4 times and last one I almost went uncoscious. Yet I am here. I feel stupid right now but it seams I do not have enough conviction just yet. It was weird experience. Maybe I needed to feel on the verge of death. I do not know. I didn't know how hard It would be to die.

But partial hanging... It felt good. Not in any sexual way. I do not talk about autoerotic hanging. It was something about slipping into unconscious that felt kinda freeing. Like falling asleep. It was very peaceful. If I ever decide to go I will do partial, Idle gas seams peaceful but It is very dounting, loud scary. Partial is calm, personal.

Thank you all for kind words, I didn't mean to use them as push for death, I wanted not to feel alone in my transition to other side.

Welcome back

 

[insanedoomer]

R.I.P

 

[stilldreaming]

These things happen (or don't). We're all so glad to see you :)

I hope you can do something kind to yourself today, even something little x

 

[phoenixx]

Dude I am alive

shoot, I'm sorry I didn't see your post! I'm glad you're still here

 

[ClownMe]

I am back, and alive.
I couldn't bring myself to do idle gas, I was to afraid to. I attempted hanging like 4 times and last one I almost went uncoscious. Yet I am here. I feel stupid right now but it seams I do not have enough conviction just yet. It was weird experience. Maybe I needed to feel on the verge of death. I do not know. I didn't know how hard It would be to die.

But partial hanging... It felt good. Not in any sexual way. I do not talk about autoerotic hanging. It was something about slipping into unconscious that felt kinda freeing. Like falling asleep. It was very peaceful. If I ever decide to go I will do partial, Idle gas seams peaceful but It is very dounting, loud scary. Partial is calm, personal.

Thank you all for kind words, I didn't mean to use them as push for death, I wanted not to feel alone in my transition to other side.

I'm sorry it didn't go as planned for you, I hope you one day find eternal peace, but for now it's good to have you back on the forum, Mr Fox.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really is hard to die as we are programmed to survive after all. I'm sorry things did not go the way you wanted them to go. I wish you the best.

 

[fox_wannabe]

It really is hard to die as we are programmed to survive after all. I'm sorry things did not go the way you wanted them to go. I wish you the best.

Well from one hand I didn't go into final rest, from other side it was quite an experience. I will write post about this

 

[Sittichmutter]

I am back, and alive.
I couldn't bring myself to do idle gas, I was to afraid to. I attempted hanging like 4 times and last one I almost went uncoscious. Yet I am here. I feel stupid right now but it seams I do not have enough conviction just yet. It was weird experience. Maybe I needed to feel on the verge of death. I do not know. I didn't know how hard It would be to die.

But partial hanging... It felt good. Not in any sexual way. I do not talk about autoerotic hanging. It was something about slipping into unconscious that felt kinda freeing. Like falling asleep. It was very peaceful. If I ever decide to go I will do partial, Idle gas seams peaceful but It is very dounting, loud scary. Partial is calm, personal.

Thank you all for kind words, I didn't mean to use them as push for death, I wanted not to feel alone in my transition to other side.

I am happy you are back. Stay with Us a little longer. Good things may happen to you.

 

[fox_wannabe]

I am happy you are back. Stay with Us a little longer. Good things may happen to you.

Yeah... but I will not change who I am. I explained it in my post about this attempt.