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lifewasawillow

You’re losing me
Nov 12, 2023
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My favourite singer once said "you know in your soul when it's time to go, so then you go, you just go". My soul is saying yes but my head is still 50/50. But I wanna go. I hope I don't fu**ing chicken out and/or half ass it this time. This time I want to try properly. At least try properly if not succeed.
 
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jessisme

Specialist
Dec 3, 2022
386
I think we all feel certain about wanting to go at times if not most of the time but uncertainty can sometimes creep in too. Do you have a choice method that you think might work?
 
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SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
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Best wishes, whether you go with your soul or your head.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I wish you the best.
 
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lifewasawillow

You’re losing me
Nov 12, 2023
232
I think we all feel certain about wanting to go at times if not most of the time but uncertainty can sometimes creep in too. Do you have a choice method that you think might work?
Trying partial again but I wish there were guns or an easy way to obtain SN in my country
 
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Lost cherry

Student
Oct 21, 2023
144
My favourite singer once said "you know in your soul when it's time to go, so then you go, you just go". My soul is saying yes but my head is still 50/50. But I wanna go. I hope I don't fu**ing chicken out and/or half ass it this time. This time I want to try properly. At least try properly if not succeed.
❤️
 
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hellispink

poisonous
May 26, 2022
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Thats true. When the soul knows, it knows. Mine knows. I just need to be courageous. Good luck on your decisions.
 
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lifewasawillow

You’re losing me
Nov 12, 2023
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lifewasawillow

You’re losing me
Nov 12, 2023
232
Me too. Do know it is normal and valid to be scared. We here for you whatever you decide we will be accompanying you virtually
I'm terrified and feel so guilty about leaving my rabbit he's the only good thing I have left in this hellhole. But I want to join his sister in death. I'm so conflicted. I wanted to get this off my chest before I decide to go through with it. Thank you for your kind words it means a lot.
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
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Wishing you peace and freedom from this horrible world if you decide to go through with it. :heart::hug::heart::hug::heart:
 
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BIGMIKE

Member
Oct 23, 2023
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I understand. Practiced partial before deciding on gunshot. I totally get it. Partial sucks. It's so uncomfortable and so much time to change your mind. It made me switch to helium. That didn't work because those aholes cut it with 20% oxygen. Sat there breathing till the tank ran out. So thankful to have access to guns.
 
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brighter_in_tupelo

New Member
Dec 10, 2023
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"I've got nothing but well wishes for ya" (Dorothea). I hope you find peace from your decision. ❤
 
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lifewasawillow

You’re losing me
Nov 12, 2023
232
"I've got nothing but well wishes for ya" (Dorothea). I hope you find peace from your decision. ❤
Omg cus I saw ur username and was like waitttt a minute lol. Thanks ❤️. I decided to wait a couple weeks longer before I do it but I defo want it done before xmas.
 
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Oguzok

Oguzok

forever young...i want to be forever young
Nov 24, 2023
46
Best wishes for you
 

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