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feels_like_rain

Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
Sep 29, 2021
74
I wish you peace 💜
 
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IntelligentLeg

Member
Nov 6, 2022
76
See you on the other side soon.
 
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DreamSurfer

DreamSurfer

Beyond this reality the waves of peace await
Apr 8, 2022
110
Hope that you found peace and all of your suffering has been washed away.
 
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Regen

I stay in my power
Aug 20, 2020
522
I read your posts and I am very sad how cruel your mother was. I understand that you cant stand it any longer. Maybe you could recover, but I know the way is very long. I understand your decision.

I wish you eternal love and deep peace!

You know, If you want to wait a little longer you are every time welcome!
 
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purplehearted

SN re ordered! 🥲
Nov 21, 2022
116
Just an update, i got caught and hospitalised bc my mum found out from my bank statements that i was in a hotel and called and said she thought i was going to harm myself. The ambulance came, my SN got taken away and i just got out of the hospital, they wanted me to go to inpatient and i said i'll go to a different hospital with my mum bc i have private healthcare. But i didn't go i just ran away and now i'm really scared that i'll be taken away by force 💔 I'm sad this happened… I wanted to be gone by now
 
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İnilerim

Member
Dec 28, 2018
66
Oof, this really sucks =(
Do you think you'll be able to aquire SN again?
I don't know in which country you're based, but as long as you don't openly admit to having concrete plans to CTB they shouldn't be able to forcefully take you away.
 
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Regen

I stay in my power
Aug 20, 2020
522
Oh fuck. I am very sorry. It's difficult for me to say something because english ist not my first language. Do you have a friend where you can go? They cant Lock you for a longer time. But I know every day in hospital can be horror. I think you have to go away from your mother. Into another city, far far away, it seems she is toxic. You cant survive with toxic people around you. If you want to ctb as soon as possible, make sure your method is safe. Bei aware that they can find you with your handy. I hope ans wish you can find a safe place for you. Maybe suicide. Maybe a good hospital far away from your toxic mother. I am thinking of you!
 
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purplehearted

SN re ordered! 🥲
Nov 21, 2022
116
Oof, this really sucks =(
Do you think you'll be able to aquire SN again?
I don't know in which country you're based, but as long as you don't openly admit to having concrete plans to CTB they shouldn't be able to forcefully take you away.
My SN source is sold out till January :( I got the last of it. I'm in australia so it's very hard to acquire you need a license for it. I told them that i don't have plans but they found out abt my SN and said i'm hiding stuff and lying which made them more cautious
 
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Snatsbats

Student
Jan 9, 2021
182
How old are you if your mom is still able to see yoir bank account?
 
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Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
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Oh boy, you poor thing!

I was thinking about you yesterday and had some ideas, but didn't want to disrupt your thread. Since you're still here I might as well pass on my thoughts.

Your mother's comments asking you to CTB are illegal and you should have rights in this situation. It also should count as domestic violence and you should be able to access a women's shelter or something. I can research this further if it's of interest.

I know the situation is a mess right now but there are ways to at least tide you over for the coming weeks. You deserve support.
 
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DreamSurfer

Beyond this reality the waves of peace await
Apr 8, 2022
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I am very sorry to hear about the horrible situation that has happened to you! I hope that you can somehow find some support so that life doesn't have to be worse for you than it already is. Hoping for the best outcome for you!
 
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EndlessDespair

Lonely
Nov 6, 2022
114
How old are you if your mom is still able to see yoir bank account?
They alrdy said they're 21 in the main post.
Just an update, i got caught and hospitalised bc my mum found out from my bank statements that i was in a hotel and called and said she thought i was going to harm myself. The ambulance came, my SN got taken away and i just got out of the hospital, they wanted me to go to inpatient and i said i'll go to a different hospital with my mum bc i have private healthcare. But i didn't go i just ran away and now i'm really scared that i'll be taken away by force 💔 I'm sad this happened… I wanted to be gone by now
I'm so sorry it didn't turn out the way you wanted😞 maybe the universe still has something you need to do.

I hope that you'll get another chance to be at peace❤️😢
 
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SpiroSundae

She/Her
Dec 1, 2022
47
Just an update, i got caught and hospitalised bc my mum found out from my bank statements that i was in a hotel and called and said she thought i was going to harm myself. The ambulance came, my SN got taken away and i just got out of the hospital, they wanted me to go to inpatient and i said i'll go to a different hospital with my mum bc i have private healthcare. But i didn't go i just ran away and now i'm really scared that i'll be taken away by force 💔 I'm sad this happened… I wanted to be gone by now
oh sweetheart, I'm so so sorry. I'm sending all the love your way. I hope you're able to find peace.
 
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IntelligentLeg

IntelligentLeg

Member
Nov 6, 2022
76
Sorry you got 5150'd. Wait until your of age to do it. That way your mother won't have access to your bank account
 
Challu

Challu

Life boat
Aug 29, 2022
258
I wonder how it must feel to burden our families with our choice to CTB. It really must be the beginning of their hell on Earth.
 
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WaitingForMyRide

Order out of chaos
Sep 6, 2022
115
I wonder how it must feel to burden our families with our choice to CTB. It really must be the beginning of their hell on Earth.
I count on that shit!
 
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