Goodbye/CTB thread [SN + dom + ibu]

[OneDayMaybe]

I'm not going to go into detail about why I'm severely depressed but suffice it to say that life has beaten me up a lot and I have nothing to live for anymore, nothing to look forward to and no one to spend my time with (neither friends nor relationship anymore). Every day I see myself getting worse and worse physically and mentally and I cannot bear to watch my gradual decline and metaphorical rotting.

I've decided I want to ctb tomorrow in a hotel room. I will be using SN, domperidone and ibuprofen. I have been reading a lot about this method and based on everything I have learned this is my game plan:

1. 7:30-8 AM Eat breakfast (5 hard boiled eggs with salt, 25g of butter, 1 apple, 1 banana, 1 tablespoon of raw honey). The choice of foods is not really related in any way to the SN regiment, this is just what I usually eat for breakfast.
2. 8:00 AM start my fast, only drinking water
3. 14:00 PM around this time I will check into the hotel
4. Chill, go for a walk, contemplate my life and all the failures that brought me to this moment. They're all irreversible anyway
5. In the afternoon I will try to drink as little water as possible, only small sips if my mouth is dry
6. 19:00 PM take 600mg of ibuprofen
7. 19:25 PM 2x 10mg Motilium (domperidone). I'm still not sure if 2 or 3 pills. SuicideWiki says that 2 pills of dom are the equivalent to 3 meto pills but maybe I will go with 3x dom. I will see if anyone here adds insight
8. 20:00 PM drink 23g of SN dissolved (in a glass) into 50-60ml of bottled water, room temperature or slightly cooled. I will have two more drinks ready on the bedside table
9. After ingesting I will lay on the bed on my right side. My research showed that laying on your left side or back may slow down absorption whereas on the right side you can actually allow for quicker absorption into the small intestine. A trash can or vomit bag will be at my side

If anyone would like to add something to this strategy or correct any mistakes, please feel free to do so. I didn't want to use meto because of the bad side effects it has. I'm not going to use beta blockers or antacids. I feel like the 3 components I have are the necessary ones. User LetzteAusfahrt ctb only with ibuprofen and SN. I have seen many documented cases where only SN is used but still I think that an antiemetic is important. My SN is 99% pure, ordered locally and did not cost much at all. For dom I managed to finesse a perscription. It was also very cheap. Ibuprofen obviously cheap too. For reference I'm from BG. Total cost of everything less than 15EUR

I will be posting until tomorrow when it will be time to leave for the hotel. If I am not back within a week then you know what's up.

 

[Valky]

I am so sorry that life has brought you to this point :(

I wish you all the best, whatever that might be <3

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best with your plans and I hope that you find freedom from all suffering, as I do understand that it really can be so horrible feeling trapped in this hellish world.

 

[GasMonkey]

See you on the Other Side.

 

[Letgo]

I am sorry about your suffering. Pls keep us updated. You will be thought of.

 

[Dominicka]

Are you still with us? If not, I hope it was peaceful.

 

[OneDayMaybe]

Are you still with us? If not, I hope it was peaceful.

I am still here. Today is the day. I woke up and I feel...empty

 

[loadedsubside]

I'm not going to go into detail about why I'm severely depressed but suffice it to say that life has beaten me up a lot and I have nothing to live for anymore, nothing to look forward to and no one to spend my time with (neither friends nor relationship anymore). Every day I see myself getting worse and worse physically and mentally and I cannot bear to watch my gradual decline and metaphorical rotting.

I've decided I want to ctb tomorrow in a hotel room. I will be using SN, domperidone and ibuprofen. I have been reading a lot about this method and based on everything I have learned this is my game plan:

1. 7:30-8 AM Eat breakfast (5 hard boiled eggs with salt, 25g of butter, 1 apple, 1 banana, 1 tablespoon of raw honey). The choice of foods is not really related in any way to the SN regiment, this is just what I usually eat for breakfast.
2. 8:00 AM start my fast, only drinking water
3. 14:00 PM around this time I will check into the hotel
4. Chill, go for a walk, contemplate my life and all the failures that brought me to this moment. They're all irreversible anyway
5. In the afternoon I will try to drink as little water as possible, only small sips if my mouth is dry
6. 19:00 PM take 600mg of ibuprofen
7. 19:25 PM 2x 10mg Motilium (domperidone). I'm still not sure if 2 or 3 pills. SuicideWiki says that 2 pills of dom are the equivalent to 3 meto pills but maybe I will go with 3x dom. I will see if anyone here adds insight
8. 20:00 PM drink 23g of SN dissolved (in a glass) into 50-60ml of bottled water, room temperature or slightly cooled. I will have two more drinks ready on the bedside table
9. After ingesting I will lay on the bed on my right side. My research showed that laying on your left side or back may slow down absorption whereas on the right side you can actually allow for quicker absorption into the small intestine. A trash can or vomit bag will be at my side

If anyone would like to add something to this strategy or correct any mistakes, please feel free to do so. I didn't want to use meto because of the bad side effects it has. I'm not going to use beta blockers or antacids. I feel like the 3 components I have are the necessary ones. User LetzteAusfahrt ctb only with ibuprofen and SN. I have seen many documented cases where only SN is used but still I think that an antiemetic is important. My SN is 99% pure, ordered locally and did not cost much at all. For dom I managed to finesse a perscription. It was also very cheap. Ibuprofen obviously cheap too. For reference I'm from BG. Total cost of everything less than 15EUR

I will be posting until tomorrow when it will be time to leave for the hotel. If I am not back within a week then you know what's up.

I wish you all the best! Hope your passing goes smoothly and everything goes well.

I am still here. Today is the day. I woke up and I feel...empty

Goodluck on your passing! wish you all the best. Pease reconsider, if not then it's understandable. I do not know your situation, but hopefully you pass without regrets. Wishing you all the best. Hopefully everything goes smoothly and you will be passed in better hands.

 

[Dominicka]

I am still here. Today is the day. I woke up and I feel...empty

Oh sorry I read your initial post wrong. Damn time zones and different countries.

I hope it goes smoothly and you find much deserved peace.

 

[Eschaton]

I'm not going to go into detail about why I'm severely depressed but suffice it to say that life has beaten me up a lot and I have nothing to live for anymore, nothing to look forward to and no one to spend my time with (neither friends nor relationship anymore). Every day I see myself getting worse and worse physically and mentally and I cannot bear to watch my gradual decline and metaphorical rotting.

I've decided I want to ctb tomorrow in a hotel room. I will be using SN, domperidone and ibuprofen. I have been reading a lot about this method and based on everything I have learned this is my game plan:

1. 7:30-8 AM Eat breakfast (5 hard boiled eggs with salt, 25g of butter, 1 apple, 1 banana, 1 tablespoon of raw honey). The choice of foods is not really related in any way to the SN regiment, this is just what I usually eat for breakfast.
2. 8:00 AM start my fast, only drinking water
3. 14:00 PM around this time I will check into the hotel
4. Chill, go for a walk, contemplate my life and all the failures that brought me to this moment. They're all irreversible anyway
5. In the afternoon I will try to drink as little water as possible, only small sips if my mouth is dry
6. 19:00 PM take 600mg of ibuprofen
7. 19:25 PM 2x 10mg Motilium (domperidone). I'm still not sure if 2 or 3 pills. SuicideWiki says that 2 pills of dom are the equivalent to 3 meto pills but maybe I will go with 3x dom. I will see if anyone here adds insight
8. 20:00 PM drink 23g of SN dissolved (in a glass) into 50-60ml of bottled water, room temperature or slightly cooled. I will have two more drinks ready on the bedside table
9. After ingesting I will lay on the bed on my right side. My research showed that laying on your left side or back may slow down absorption whereas on the right side you can actually allow for quicker absorption into the small intestine. A trash can or vomit bag will be at my side

If anyone would like to add something to this strategy or correct any mistakes, please feel free to do so. I didn't want to use meto because of the bad side effects it has. I'm not going to use beta blockers or antacids. I feel like the 3 components I have are the necessary ones. User LetzteAusfahrt ctb only with ibuprofen and SN. I have seen many documented cases where only SN is used but still I think that an antiemetic is important. My SN is 99% pure, ordered locally and did not cost much at all. For dom I managed to finesse a perscription. It was also very cheap. Ibuprofen obviously cheap too. For reference I'm from BG. Total cost of everything less than 15EUR

I will be posting until tomorrow when it will be time to leave for the hotel. If I am not back within a week then you know what's up.

I wish you a peaceful transition to the happy hunting ground, my friend.

 

[dimstar]

I am still here. Today is the day. I woke up and I feel...empty

I truly believe you'll know when the time is right. If your not at peace with it I dont believe the time is right, also lower chance of success and not always a blissful exit. We support your decision but please make sure it's the right time. We'll be here for you. If you go through safe travels and my you find peace

 

[Aisley]

I hope this goes smooth for you. And it wouldn't cost more than pocket change to bring a packet of tums or whatever with you. Heartburn can be quite the inconvenience when you're in it, and you'll have enough on your mind.

 

[Valky]

Thinking of you <3

 

[OneDayMaybe]

Thank you everyone for the kind words. For the last few months I've really understood why people take their lives. Sometimes the weight of certain things in life becomes unbearable, even for a strong person.

 

[RedDoor]

Im sorry you got to this point, im especially saddened because you sound to be exceptionally smart and strategical

 

[FrostedHoax]

Sorry that life beat you down to cause you to resort to this. I hope that you are able to find the peace that this world didn't grant you.

 

[OneDayMaybe]

I won't be writing any updates after an hour or so since I'm leaving for the hotel. Mods, don't cross my name out just yet, maybe give it a week or so

Much love to everyone here and I hope you all find a solution to your struggles.

 

[soontobedone]

I wish you comfort and peace.

 

[Raven2]

I'm sorry that life has brought you the this point, I understand the struggle of loneliness and not having anything to look forward to.
I hope you find your peace and it goes smoothly for you.

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Per ardua ad astra

 

[milk is sweet]

wish you luck<3, I'll join you in a few days

 

[Teikoku]

Wishing you a peaceful journey...

 

[OneDayMaybe]

Thank you everyone once again for your kindness. This is my last message. Time will tell if I will be back or not...

 

[Valky]

I am thinking of you, safe travels <3.

And remember, whatever choice you make, it is valid.

 

[ThisIsGoodbye]

May you find peace. I hope it goes smoothly. I wish this world had been kinder to you. Sweet Dreams

Requiescat in Pace

 

[Shivali]

 

[Kookidook]

Thank you everyone once again for your kindness. This is my last message. Time will tell if I will be back or not...

Rest in peace, lovely. Hope you finally found your peace that you've been longing for.

 

[headcase95]

I wish you'd stick around long enough to get your post count up so you can DM the source to us. We can always use more sources.

 

[Gonnerr]

Hope you'll have a peacefully escape.

 

[Synrelia]

rest in peace. i'm sorry to see you go. fuck the people asking for the source, not the place to do it in a goodbye thread. i'm sorry life treated you so harshly, and i wish i could've heard your story before you went