sivvie
Wanderer
- Aug 23, 2021
- 84
My ex/best friend asked to cut contact with me yesterday because he said it was too hard staying friends when he has feelings for me. He was the only one I stayed in consistent contact with for the entirety of 2021. I woke up from a nightmare about what happened with him and I still feel horrible because of it.
My other ex/friend just said he can't be around me anymore because my suicidal tendencies/ideation affects his mental health. (I don't even talk to him anymore, but he said my statuses on discord make him feel anxious)
I have no one to talk to now, I'm scared of ruining things with the only friend who I talk to sometimes who knows about my mental health issues. Everyone seemed to abandon me when I finally have a solid plan. I guess it was meant to be?
But god. This fucking hurts. I always knew I am poison to be around, but why this timing? Incredible. You win, life.
My other ex/friend just said he can't be around me anymore because my suicidal tendencies/ideation affects his mental health. (I don't even talk to him anymore, but he said my statuses on discord make him feel anxious)
I have no one to talk to now, I'm scared of ruining things with the only friend who I talk to sometimes who knows about my mental health issues. Everyone seemed to abandon me when I finally have a solid plan. I guess it was meant to be?
But god. This fucking hurts. I always knew I am poison to be around, but why this timing? Incredible. You win, life.