LonelyPrince
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- Dec 12, 2025
- 4
Would going to the ER be a stupid idea? I'm italian and I don't really know how they would handle me there. I'm thinking of going out tommorrow, overdose on a bunch of meds and then call an ambulance. I know that I don't necessarily have to OD in order to go to the er: I'd just need to say I'm having suicidal thoughts and might act on them. Still, I feel like I wouldn't actually be taken seriously. I feel like i need to fucking prove that i'm willing to damage myself willingly.
Do I want to actually die? Not really. But if that were to happen I'd gladly accept it. I'm fucking tired. I just wanna be saved from my abusive household, my psychotic, controlling father and stop suffering. Everytime he speaks to me or looks at me I feel the suicidal thoughts getting stronger. I've come to the point I'm no longer functional: I stay in bed all day, avoid any interaction, sleep most of the time, barely shower and overall I just feel like I'm actually rotting from the inside.
There is so much I'd like to say but I can't find the right words. I have no support, no nothing. I only have a psychologist, who my parents don't know about because otherwise they would get fucking mad. I have a psychiatrist but he just had 3 appointments with me, changed my meds, and then never checked up on me again.
Honestly I don't even know anymore. I sound erratic and dramatic. I can't even take myself seriously.
I'm doing all of this just because I can't find an accessible and peaceful method to die.
I've been depressed for years and I feel like my mind is slowly decomposing the longer I go on. I feel hopeless.
I just want to rest..either that or wake up with people actually caring for me
Do I want to actually die? Not really. But if that were to happen I'd gladly accept it. I'm fucking tired. I just wanna be saved from my abusive household, my psychotic, controlling father and stop suffering. Everytime he speaks to me or looks at me I feel the suicidal thoughts getting stronger. I've come to the point I'm no longer functional: I stay in bed all day, avoid any interaction, sleep most of the time, barely shower and overall I just feel like I'm actually rotting from the inside.
There is so much I'd like to say but I can't find the right words. I have no support, no nothing. I only have a psychologist, who my parents don't know about because otherwise they would get fucking mad. I have a psychiatrist but he just had 3 appointments with me, changed my meds, and then never checked up on me again.
Honestly I don't even know anymore. I sound erratic and dramatic. I can't even take myself seriously.
I'm doing all of this just because I can't find an accessible and peaceful method to die.
I've been depressed for years and I feel like my mind is slowly decomposing the longer I go on. I feel hopeless.
I just want to rest..either that or wake up with people actually caring for me
