I am just on Wellbutrin. The other two made me suicidal, and I did try. Just Wellbutrin and I suicidal, yes. Every second of every day. However, it is to a lesser degree that I don't want to go out NOW and kill myself.
I am not trying to stop you. Just giving you my experiences and a med change worked for me.
Another suggestion that worked for me.
When I was getting my master's degree, I had to work to pay for school. I went to one year of school, took time off and then went back to school. I don't know your situation. I also know with the stress of both school and job, (I had to do a residency for my schooling), will not let you get stable from your depression. Another reason why you may be having issues.
Is there a way you can take of (short term disability from your job or something like that) and lower your schooling to stabilize?
I get what you are going through (childhood trauma- I was molested by my brother when I was about 4 and he gave me Herpes, alcoholic father, physical and mental abuse etc.)
That's why I am saying this because I feel you are just like me. Again, I am not trying to stop you. However, I think with some tweaking to your life you may be able to stabilize a little.
The first thing is re-evaluate the meds.
