Venting Going to apply for a job soon

[ceelobling]

I haven't worked since 2022. I quit my job back then, because I couldn't take it anymore and wanted to kill myself. My life wasn't going anywhere, it was just the same thing everyday. I had nothing going on outside of work. I was stuck and the job was only making me feel worse so I got fed up and quit. After I quit, I've been trying to get better, but sometimes I would just give up on life and never leave the house. I feel like I made myself even worse than when I quit. But now, in 2026, I am going to give life a second chance. All these years of struggling and this is what it lead up to. It's crazy, I was thinking of ctb in December and here I am in January wanting to live. I came up with a list of things I want to do and learn so I can have more to my life. I just want to change something, whether that be suicide or improving my life. I have my sn just in case I ever change my mind and want to ctb. I've already prepared my interview answers for a new job and will apply soon. I feel excited that things are going to change, because I've been stuck for so long. I wanted to post this because I have no one to talk to or share this with, so why not here? :)

 

[U. A.]

Way to go.
Hopefully you're applying for a specific job and there's some kind of pathway in,

Spoiler: but if not

be ready that the job search has apparently gotten much worse lately. I haven't looked but I see lots of people write about it here, and I say this to prevent an unpleasant surprise later on that could be discouraging. Apparently lots of fake listings, lots of AI recruiters, lot less callbacks. Don't give up though. You'll figure something out.

 

[woofwag]

Hey that's amazing, I'm so happy for you! The hardest part really is getting over that hump to apply. Unfortunately, it is not an easy process to get a job rn. But you can go through an express employment/temp agency to speed up the process if you find yourself having a lot of trouble with it. Funny, but I'm in a similar situation to you. I haven't started applying yet, but December I was so ready to ctb. And now, idk, I'm considering giving myself another chance if I can get some income. Proud you for making this step

Side note, but your PFP is amazing. Do you happen to know the artist?

 

[ceelobling]

Way to go.
Hopefully you're applying for a specific job and there's some kind of pathway in,

Spoiler: but if not

be ready that the job search has apparently gotten much worse lately. I haven't looked but I see lots of people write about it here, and I say this to prevent an unpleasant surprise later on that could be discouraging. Apparently lots of fake listings, lots of AI recruiters, lot less callbacks. Don't give up though. You'll figure something out.

Thanks, I will keep that in mind. I haven't been paying attention to anything, so your post was my first time hearing that job searching is difficult now. It's gonna be a part time job, so I don't know if that also affects those? I'm gonna keep trying, thank you!

Hey that's amazing, I'm so happy for you! The hardest part really is getting over that hump to apply. Unfortunately, it is not an easy process to get a job rn. But you can go through an express employment/temp agency to speed up the process if you find yourself having a lot of trouble with it. Funny, but I'm in a similar situation to you. I haven't started applying yet, but December I was so ready to ctb. And now, idk, I'm considering giving myself another chance if I can get some income. Proud you for making this step

Side note, but your PFP is amazing. Do you happen to know the artist?

Thank you, and thank you for being happy for me! It means a lot to me that people like you and U.A. cared enough to reply. It took me a while to get over that hump to apply, because I thought I was done with life. I also sometimes felt physically tired with no strength, like what's the point of working if I'm always tired, I'm too tired to work. The express employment/temp agency is another thing I will keep in mind. I didn't know job hunting is this difficult in the current year. I haven't applied yet, but I will see how it goes for me. Seeing that you said you're in a similar situation calms me. Nice to know I'm not the only one in this mess. I don't know anyone irl to think of my life in comparison, so thank you for saying that, cause now I know I'm not alone in my situation. December was my ctb month, but I don't know, I never went through with it.When you said "considering giving myself another chance if I can get some income," it reminds me that applying for a job is the first step in getting my life together. I have to start somewhere and it's here, this is my second chance. If you ever apply, I wish you the best! Reading your entire reply made me smile so much, thank you for your kind and encouraging words!

My pfp is a painting by polish painter, Zdzislaw Beksinski. His paintings are dark and surreal. He never named any of his paintings.

 

[akiyama346]

Good luck

 

[violetforever]

good luck i'm kind of in the same place rn. i hope 2026 will be good to us.

 

[boyafraid]

Wish you the best on your recovery journey, and getting back into the workforce (: