
SadLoser
Member
- Jul 31, 2021
- 83
And i'm terrified.
Basically I have the symptoms of bipolar disorder, where I feel ecstatic for a period of time like i'm on some drugs, to the point of having narcissistic tendencies and feeling better than everyone, followed by a day or more of not even being able to leave my bed because I don't have the energy for it.
I'm scared that i'm making it up though. I don't even know what to say. All I know is I need to do something. I can't focus on college or really anything that isn't mindlessly scrolling through social media because it reminds me of how dull and empty my life is. I have no real friends, never had a girlfriend. That's all my mind can really focus on.
I simply can't do anything productive with my time if I know that by the end of the day i'll be going to bed lonely and unfulfilled. I want some medication that will make me numb to all this. Is that even a thing?
Honestly I don't know if i'll go through with it. I cringe at the mere thought of talking about anything mental-related with a doctor. How would I even start the conversation?
Basically I have the symptoms of bipolar disorder, where I feel ecstatic for a period of time like i'm on some drugs, to the point of having narcissistic tendencies and feeling better than everyone, followed by a day or more of not even being able to leave my bed because I don't have the energy for it.
I'm scared that i'm making it up though. I don't even know what to say. All I know is I need to do something. I can't focus on college or really anything that isn't mindlessly scrolling through social media because it reminds me of how dull and empty my life is. I have no real friends, never had a girlfriend. That's all my mind can really focus on.
I simply can't do anything productive with my time if I know that by the end of the day i'll be going to bed lonely and unfulfilled. I want some medication that will make me numb to all this. Is that even a thing?
Honestly I don't know if i'll go through with it. I cringe at the mere thought of talking about anything mental-related with a doctor. How would I even start the conversation?