Going for it tonight. Need support!

[RealHumanBean]

Hello!

I am going to try to ctb tonight if I can fight off the survival instinct. It's challenging, but I don't think it will be as difficult as continuing to endure the indescribable suffering I am experiencing. There is no end in sight; the pain is immense. I want to escape it.

I've begun fasting for SN, so my approximate time to ctb will be tonight around 10-11pm EST.

Is there anyone who would be willing to chat me with later on when it gets close? I would prefer a woman since I have an easier time communicating emotions with them.

Thank you for tolerating me while I've been here

 

[Meretlein]

I'm sorry it has come to this for you. I would be happy to chat with you.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

We not only tolerate you, we are here together, together with you. You definitely won't be alone tonight.

 

[RealHumanBean]

I'm sorry it has come to this for you. I would be happy to chat with you.

Thank you! Will you be available near the time I mentioned?

 

[Meretlein]

Thank you! Will you be available near the time I mentioned?

Yes.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Hey! I'm female, and always willing to listen

 

[RealHumanBean]

Thank you thank you for volunteering to be with me while I prepare. I will return tonight and get in contact. What is a good way for a couple of us to chat? Also, I know I am asking for a huge favor and I will understand if you choose not to be there. It is okay

 

[Meretlein]

Thank you thank you for volunteering to be with me while I prepare. I will return tonight and get in contact. What is a good way for a couple of us to chat? Also, I know I am asking for a huge favor and I will understand if you choose not to be there. It is okay

Discord might work.

 

[miguel6565]

i hope you find peace

 

[Ghost2211]

You will be missed. I hope you find peace and relief

 

[glitchgirl]

Would you consider voice chat? I feel like that's what I'd need when I go. I don't know for some that can be overwhelming, and I understand. Anyway I'm here for you as well. Even though we've never talked

 

[Deleted member 14177]

Wishing you so much peace

 

[RealHumanBean]

My family found out. I didn't hide what was happening well enough and now they're monitoring me on the clock so I won't be able to check out tonight. Maybe that's a good thing. I don't even know. I'm either numb or in pain. I am sorry for the drama; i am so appreciative of everyone here who reaches out. I know we're all in pain, but the fact that we have solidarity in suffering does lessen it slightly. Thank you

 

[glitchgirl]

My family found out. I didn't hide what was happening well enough and now they're monitoring me on the clock so I won't be able to check out tonight. Maybe that's a good thing. I don't even know. I'm either numb or in pain. I am sorry for the drama; i am so appreciative of everyone here who reaches out. I know we're all in pain, but the fact that we have solidarity in suffering does lessen it slightly. Thank you

You have nothing to be sorry about okay.We're all in this together. It might not be your time right now and that is okay.

 

[Ghost2211]

My family found out. I didn't hide what was happening well enough and now they're monitoring me on the clock so I won't be able to check out tonight. Maybe that's a good thing. I don't even know. I'm either numb or in pain. I am sorry for the drama; i am so appreciative of everyone here who reaches out. I know we're all in pain, but the fact that we have solidarity in suffering does lessen it slightly. Thank you

I'm sorry they're controlling your choices. I'm glad you're with us another day. Sending you love, hang in there friend

 

[LifeSucks39]

we are here for you

 

[Sinai Silence]

I'm sorry to hear you were found and can't find the peace youre looking for. I hope your family is atleast trying to be supportive even in this situation. You haven't caused any drama at all, you are in pain and we are here for you in this difficult time. Wishing you all the best