KleinerWolf
Account Wipe.
- Apr 30, 2020
- 2,700
I've decided that suicide is hard,
So I've somehow swallowed my pride,
and decided to go back to fucking China.
At this stage I plan on working as a cook in hotel chains and make a modest living.
I don't know what's the next time I'll ever be able to get out and go to Europe or somewhere.
I take comfort in knowing I will be learning German and french, and working as a cook in European cuisine to keep myself busy.
I'll also order and renew my SN every two years in China,
in case I need a reliable way to kill myself.
This should help me feel a little bit better.
(I don't know.
I don't know if I will kill myself in China.
I don't know what's the next time I will see multiculturalism, good grocery selections and availability of european cooking ingredients, browsing youtube without proxy, clean air, people speaking my preferred language aka English)
I will lose a big part of me,
but I will have to try not having myself become depressed, right?
I'm alive but it's still so sad.
Feels like going back to prison.
Goodbye europeans&every other ethnicity,
goodbye turkish kebab,
goodbye new zealand alcohol that are decent,
goodbye freedom and all the good things,
"Home" sweet "home",
Hello darkness my old "friend".
Background thread:
So I've somehow swallowed my pride,
and decided to go back to fucking China.
At this stage I plan on working as a cook in hotel chains and make a modest living.
I don't know what's the next time I'll ever be able to get out and go to Europe or somewhere.
I take comfort in knowing I will be learning German and french, and working as a cook in European cuisine to keep myself busy.
I'll also order and renew my SN every two years in China,
in case I need a reliable way to kill myself.
This should help me feel a little bit better.
(I don't know.
I don't know if I will kill myself in China.
I don't know what's the next time I will see multiculturalism, good grocery selections and availability of european cooking ingredients, browsing youtube without proxy, clean air, people speaking my preferred language aka English)
I will lose a big part of me,
but I will have to try not having myself become depressed, right?
I'm alive but it's still so sad.
Feels like going back to prison.
Goodbye europeans&every other ethnicity,
goodbye turkish kebab,
goodbye new zealand alcohol that are decent,
goodbye freedom and all the good things,
"Home" sweet "home",
Hello darkness my old "friend".
Background thread:
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...china-synchronicity-signs-angel-number.58119/
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