i haven't lost everything yet... i am trying to leave now because i see the trajectory of being like unable to afford anything and in an even worse situation. i have depleted my savings, i could wind up losing my job... i need to do this before it gets even worse, but the truth is it's awful, and i am very sad about this
@whywere, i'm so sorry you went through that, the world is evil sometimes
i had mixed feelings about the place. the building was broke down in some ways, mold, old, always breaking, neighbors all on drugs... but... i liked the area... it was mine... I unexpectedly loved the area in a way. i'm hoping i am not making a terrible mistake.
a large part of the reason i am fucked like this is the mental health industry. when i was hospitalized in a locked facility, they violated my privacy, were emotionally cruel, treated me like garbage, and wouldn't let me leave until I made them feel I was doing better, which meant having to pretend to be happy because it was a shithole and they were mean so of course i was sad. Being there damaged my financial stability so much, and then after the period of time in which I didn't work was much bigger and it damaged me financially in so many ways.
I so so so wish I had never gotten involved in seeking help from the mental health industry. The medications can sometimes offer symptom relief but it is all so expensive and it is a quicksand trap for the unweary because hospitalizations are so expensive and you often will not have a choice. And once you are in the trap, they absolutely do not care about financial wellness and if you even focus on that they say it's uninsightful and wellness has to be the priority.
I am not a Scientologist, and have never been one, and I used to view Scientology as cultish and strange, but after experiencing the abuses of the mental health industry, I see the value in having religious beliefs that absolutely forbid contact with that parasitic industry. They are so exploitative and vile and I see why people seek out religious protection from it. I still don't agree with all that Scientology does, especially to those who want to leave, but I get the visceral total fear of psychiatry now. Holy shit, that cult was absolutely right.
I would probably be living in a nice house right now if I had never waded into that cesspool of psychiatry and psychology. They extract and extract and extract. Worst of all, both psychiatry and psychology don't tell people what to do but instead want people to discover their own "insights." It would be better if they did give more explicit advice: you need to do this, start doing that. They never do it, only offering medication and listening, and I truly believe it is to prolong the con.
