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umbrellaphone

Member
Nov 24, 2020
52
Score: 0-100

Mine:
Elementary school: 40. There was an annoying bully who made my school life miserable, but otherwise it was still bearable.
Middle and high school: 60. Things began looking up, or so I thought, because the worst was yet to come.
University: 20. Things spiraled down fast. I attempted ctb twice during this period.
Post graduation: 20. This is where I am now. Nothing gets better unfortunately.
Overall: I'll give it around 40.

Note: It's up to you how you'd like to set up the phases. It's also okay if you wanna jump straight to the overall score.
 
self.destractive

self.destractive

ick/icks, they/them
Dec 11, 2020
85
before puberty: 55/100
had no grasp on anything and i was a little shit, but ya know, things were swell enough. nothin bad, nothin good. homelife was chaotic but it was my normal
puberty: 30/100
started feeling like an alien in my own skin and started questioning not only my gender identity but place in the universe as a whole
age 14-15: 20/100
tried to ctb but failed hardcore because my methods were always shit.
16-17: 65/100
felt fine.
now: 20/100
repressed dysphoria caught up to me and OOF not good lemme tell ya


overall 47/100
nothing signifigantly terrible, but nothing id wanna stick around to see through
 
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Disco Biscuit

Specialist
Mar 1, 2020
350
The way I would score it is by:

Physical health/fitness
Quality of relationships
Purpose
Financial security

(Score out of 25 for each)

I'm in good physical shape but score very low on the others due to an autistic personality. I would give myself about 35 - 38. Not enough to stick around.
 
EnnuiCat

EnnuiCat

Completely Catawampus
Nov 20, 2020
57
I have no money. Hate my job. Can find no meaning or purpose. And I'm tethered to familial responsibilities that give me anxiety and make me miserable. But at least I have my health. That's something.

I'll round up to a respectable 30. I'm feeling generous today.
 
demuic

demuic

Life was a mistake
Sep 12, 2020
1,382
Before puberty: 65/100. Things could've been better in the home life but I didn't know that then, ignorance was bliss.
Puberty: 55/100. Starting to go through mental turmoil for the first time, but I still had friends and went to a good school even if was starting to feel isolated and not like the other students.
High school: 30/100. Alone and miserable, no friends and not used to it yet, in a shitty school with idiot kids, constant family drama. First "CTB attempt".
Now: 45/100.

I'm not being horrifically abused or tortured, I have food, water, and shelter, and extra amneities to amuse me, and no debilitating physical illnesses. But no friends, no job, hopeless future, accustomed to being isolated for years, socially stunted, neurological conditions getting worse, no purpose in life. Too exhausted to do anything but stay in the same rut everyday, and utterly exhausted by the world and it's cruelty and idiocy.
 
Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

🚫Safety is a figment of the imagination🚫
Jul 1, 2020
6,360
Physical health/fitness
Quality of relationships
Purpose
Financial security

(Score out of 25 for each)
Using this lol

-0 at the very least I'm in constant discomfort
-0 disorders like to make those difficult
-25 yeah I guess
-25 yeah, my husband takes care of that for me

Although I agree with this I've got to add mental. My problems more inside then it is outside. Relationships are about the only problem I have externally caused by internal problems. My back although yes in pain doesn't really bother me. So 50/100 but my mental state says that number should be lower. Although it does look accurate... Idk
 
muffin222

muffin222

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2020
1,188
Physically, in terms of my physical circumstances, I'd say 70

Emotionally, mentally, and internally, 30 on good days, 10 or less on the worst days, both of which I'd consider very low
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
1,686
Score: 0-100

Mine:
Elementary school: 40. There was an annoying bully who made my school life miserable, but otherwise it was still bearable.
Middle and high school: 60. Things began looking up, or so I thought, because the worst was yet to come.
University: 20. Things spiraled down fast. I attempted ctb twice during this period.
Post graduation: 20. This is where I am now. Nothing gets better unfortunately.
Overall: I'll give it around 40.

Note: It's up to you how you'd like to set up the phases. It's also okay if you wanna jump straight to the overall score.
9 out of 100. but will be a 0 out of 100 if i don't kill myself soon hear that prolifers?
 
Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
1,783
5/100

5 because I'm in mostly good health and physically comfortable, but I think that those should be default anyway, not something to really celebrate.
 
rabbithole

rabbithole

Experienced
Oct 26, 2020
271
Physically...40. Can still walk so there's that.
Mentally a 5.

before 9/16/19 physically 95 and mentally 60.
 
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NodusTollens

NodusTollens

Nov 17, 2020
989
Quality of Life - 25/100

Breakdown


Home/Shelter: 4/10
Housed; Basement, previous homeless

Financial: 2/10
Social Assistance
Debt from Schooling (prior to acquired disability)
Part-Time physical work despite pain, to ensure "comfortable" living bc social assistance isn't enough

Health: 3/10
Disability; Chronic Pain, Chronic headaches/migraines

Access to Food: 3/10
Low quality; difficulties taking care of ADL's

Access to Support: 1/10
Access to MH Team; counsellor denies trauma

Mental Health: 2/10
DX: BPD, ADHD, Depression, Anxiety
(...): ASD, OCD

Social: 3/10
3 close friends
Bullied often from 14 - 26
Estranged from Family (black sheep)
 
SmellyRat

SmellyRat

Arcanist
Nov 5, 2018
479
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Symbiote

Global Mod
Oct 12, 2020
3,102
Quality of Life - 48/100

Breakdown

Home/Shelter: 8/10

Paid off house, just general upkeep is a lot of work at times

Financial: 6/10
Full-time job, no debt, wife is a spender though

Health: 4/10
Heart issues due to previous attempt, mental health is up and down, Psoriasis over 30% of my body

Access to Food: 9/10
I can cook very well, and so can wife.

Access to Support: 1/10
Does SS count as support?

Mental Health: 4/10
Diagnosed with Bipolar, Severe Depression and PTSD.

Social: 0/10
Wife has cut me off from all friends and family

Hobbies: 3/10
I have to ask permission from wife to do activities and it must be with her. I stopped bothering.

Sleep: 8/10
I sleep deeply like the dead

Outlook: 5/10
I'm slightly optimistic about my life after I leave my wife, but recent conversations have brought her back in to it and just confused whether she's faking it or hoovering me in.
 

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