DesperateOne

DesperateOne

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So, my time is almost here. I already have an approximate date set to CTB (should be between March and April). Now, before that date arrives I want to do as much things as I possible can. If you guys have any recommendations please shoot them in the replies.

I lived in a small village as a mentally ill screen addicted loner/hikikomori for pretty much majority of my life, which you could say made me a teeny tiny bit disconnected from the real world and overall made me just a little bit weird haha, so please give me recommendations that don't require that much social interaction. I think I can pass the small talk stage, but as a soon as it gets a bit more in depth people will see the weirdness.

So far here is my small bucket list:
- Go watch all the new big movies dropping in IMAX (never been to an IMAX)
- Experience the thrill of ziplining
- Play through Elden Ring Shadow of the Erdtree along with some other games like Metro Exodus
- Try out Japanese and Indian food
 
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hikikomorizombie

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I'm not a good person nor a good influence, feel like I should clearly state this b4 dropping my recs, lol.

u should try drugs. I've done acid, shrooms, molly, some benzos & some opioids, if u have any questions abt those. u should drive 135 mph, or as fast as ur car allows (135 is max for mine). those are my fav things abt being alive.
 
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BeautyWSaveTheWorld

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Hope you are at peace with your decision. If not, consider all the options.
You should go watch some quality movies or shows. Just finished Battlestar Galactica. Show seemed goofy and outdated at first, but believe me, it's amazing!
 
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DesperateOne

DesperateOne

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I'm not a good person nor a good influence, feel like I should clearly state this b4 dropping my recs, lol.

u should do drugs. I've done acid, shrooms, molly, some benzos & some opioids, if u have any questions abt those. u should drive 135 mph, or as fast as ur car allows (135 is max for mine). those are my fav things abt being alive.
My brain is super messed up already, I don't want to aggravate it with drugs like LSD and shrooms which will bring up years of trauma and other weird repressed shit.

I'm a total failure or worse than a failure actually lol... so I don't have a car nor a drivers license.
 
hikikomorizombie

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My brain is super messed up already, I don't want to aggrivate it with drugs like LSD and shrooms which will bring up years of trauma and other weird repressed shit.

I'm a total failure, worse than a failure actually lol, so I don't have a car nor a drivers license.
hmmmm, then u should play rdr2 & Mirror's Edge. & u should watch Dorohedoro, Afro Samurai, & Violet Evergarden.
 
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BeautyWSaveTheWorld

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My brain is super messed up already, I don't want to aggravate it with drugs like LSD and shrooms which will bring up years of trauma and other weird repressed shit.

I'm a total failure or worse than a failure actually lol... so I don't have a car nor a drivers license.
Try cycling in nature. Some of the best moments I ever had was from those trips, both from going alone and with my friends. Consider doing this with a good friend of yours.
 
DesperateOne

DesperateOne

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Try cycling in nature. Some of the best moments I ever had was from those trips, both from going alone and with my friends. Consider doing this with a good friend of yours.
Will give it a shot. As for friends, I never had any and at this point I'm not comfortable around people.
 
Slow_Farewell

Slow_Farewell

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Dec 19, 2023
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1) snorkel, it doesnt have to be an exotic beach or anything like that.
2) Hike up a mountain
3) cook some food/buy some food, give it to homeless people. dont post it on social media or anything. just go around randomly giving the less fortunate the food.
4) learn a new language, and watch a movie in that language. heck, try talking to people from the country you're learning the language from (twitch? maybe? i honestly dont know). You can do youtube tutorials or something, then listen to music from that country. doesnt cost much.
5) learn a musical instrument
6) travel by yourself to some far off destination that you've always been curious about (this one is a bit pricey)
7) i know you said as little social interaction as possible but im still going to list this - try and..connect with someone you think is way out of your league. I'd use the word "pick up" but i'd be crucified with angry emojis. but you get my drift. If you're a girl, try to connect with a guy, and vice versa. point of this exercise is you're going to CTB anyway, why not just go it? (nothing to lose thing)
 
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Dutch1986

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Maybe paint something you really like about where you live
 
carnivalforone

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listen to music on a vinyl, try alice in chains, nirvana, loathe or pink floyd, sekiro is my favorite game of all time and i would definetely reccomend u play it at least once. if u like reading manga try chainsaw man or fire punch, and like someone else said acid and molly are two drugs u just have to experience once yk. code geass is my favorite anime or death note if u havent watched that yet. as for experiences again like someone else said go fast in a car, try go karting, go to an aquarium on a edible, lay in the grass while feeling the warmth of the sun, go to a public water fountain spray show and jump around, go to a pool in the early morning while no one is there, hike a mountain and feel the breeze,
 
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DesperateOne

DesperateOne

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Maybe paint something you really like about where you live
Sounds super boring, but I'll give it a try, why tf not haha.

listen to music on a vinyl, try alice in chains, nirvana, loathe or pink floyd, sekiro is my favorite game of all time and i would definetely reccomend u play it at least once. if u like reading manga try chainsaw man or fire punch, and like someone else said acid and molly are two drugs u just have to experience once yk. code geass is my favorite anime or death note if u havent watched that yet. as for experiences again like someone else said go fast in a car, try go karting, go to an aquarium on a edible, lay in the grass while feeling the warmth of the sun, go to a public water fountain spray show and jump around, go to a pool in the early morning while no one is there, hike a mountain and feel the breeze,
I looooove Sekiro as well, its pure perfection. Not super into manga (the only thing I've read is Junji Ito). Is the chainsaw man anime worth watching that recently came out? The pool idea sounds pretty good as well! I might get myself into swimming.
 
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OICU812

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Aug 31, 2023
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I didn't have a bucket list per se, but I had a week of celebration before my suicide attempt. I wanted to see my closest friends one last time but I passed on that because they might detect something different in me. Each night I went to my favorite restaurants, including the most expensive steak restaurant in town. I went to a bar and ordered the most expensive shot of LOUIS XIII Cognac. Every night I enjoyed 3-4 marijuana edibles (10MG THC each) while watching stupid, funny shit on Netflix or listening to my favorite music through headphones. And finally towards the end of the week I checked into a Hilton hotel (which I'm probably on their banned guest list after my failed attempt). I HIGHLY recommend marijuana edibles (no pun intended ;)
 
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RollingGiant

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Jan 25, 2024
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Learn Toki Pona. It's one of the simplest languages in the world, with under 150 words. It might be fun to pick up a new language so quickly.
 
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no-name9859472882

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May 16, 2021
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Apply for credit cards max them out live it up
 
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mtoro998

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Feb 29, 2024
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Travel to a cheap country get a bunch of hookers for not much money. You might have so much fun that you decide that you want to live for a few more years. Thats exactly what happened to me. I planned on killing myself on the trip but ended up coming back happy for some time. I recommend Thailand or the Phillipines.
 
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tbroken

tbroken

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Feb 22, 2024
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Go into a big city and hangout with the app 'Couchsurfing', you'll meet travelers from all around the world and you can even host or be the guest of many people around the world. And it is all free.
 

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