I got a gf recently and she makes me happy, but my anxiety levels are also up 100% because I'm worried I'll somehow say the wrong thing or she'll get bored or tired of me. Being with her has eased my suicidal thoughts a lot though, although she doesn't know I'm actually suicidal ha. I'm so used to being sad all the time it has me questioning my identity cause I've let my identity essentialy become that I'm depressed, and now that things kinda look better and I'm happier idk how to feel about anything, like if I'm happy does that invalidate me being depressed all these years, and if I'm depressed aren't I supposed to happy now that I'm with her? I honestly overthink things too much and I do plan to try to talk to her about this stuff eventually, but in the meantime this forum is a good place to vent