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WaitingForTheBus

WaitingForTheBus

Student
Oct 27, 2018
136
I never had one either.
I have social anxiety and so only dated a few times but it didn't develop.


It's one of the reasons I want to ctb.
Because of my social anxiety I will never have one.
Yet you have been on dates with girls you spoke to online. Don't be so hard on yourself mate, lot's of us would never have the courage to do that.
 
WaitingForTheBus

WaitingForTheBus

Student
Oct 27, 2018
136
Ok, I'll say this straight : I have a gf and I truly love her from the bottom of my heart. Yet, we never had a "love affair" and she is the primary reason i'll ctb
Can kind of relate to this. :(
 
WaitingForTheBus

WaitingForTheBus

Student
Oct 27, 2018
136
Married twice, both ended in failure. Been a single parent for the last 8 years, focusing purely on my children's well being.

Finally, after all that time I met a girl. She said all the right things, made all the right moves, that I fell absolutely head over heals for her. Played me like a violin unfortunately and now I am struggling to let her go. one of many reasons why I have had enough.
 
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VincentValentine

VincentValentine

Student
Sep 27, 2018
145
Yet you have been on dates with girls you spoke to online. Don't be so hard on yourself mate, lot's of us would never have the courage to do that.

Or the luck to do that.
 
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TooLate2582

Experienced
May 6, 2018
269
I have them. I always ruin things, though.
 
Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

Visionary
Sep 9, 2018
2,985
Twice divorced, and about 10 other failed relationships prior to that. Now engaged. Judging by this, I can only conclude I am a studly psycho with no redeeming long- term qualities. I kid. I'm not studly.
 
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The Blackangel

The Blackangel

Nyiach des uti nesi deh ahy.
Nov 3, 2018
212
Partially joking but - what about lgbt?


I'm a transgender woman (m2f) and have been married since 2008. Even though I didn't officially come out until about 3 or so years ago, she knew beforehand. Since coming out, she still stands by me. Our relationship is stronger than ever. But due to comments that have been made without realizing it, and other things, I'm sitting here at the bus stop eagerly. I know she would be happier and better off afterward, but for some reason that is beyond me, she argues with me on that..
 
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Lil_Intro_Vert

Lil_Intro_Vert

she/they
Oct 15, 2018
195
I got a gf recently and she makes me happy, but my anxiety levels are also up 100% because I'm worried I'll somehow say the wrong thing or she'll get bored or tired of me. Being with her has eased my suicidal thoughts a lot though, although she doesn't know I'm actually suicidal ha. I'm so used to being sad all the time it has me questioning my identity cause I've let my identity essentialy become that I'm depressed, and now that things kinda look better and I'm happier idk how to feel about anything, like if I'm happy does that invalidate me being depressed all these years, and if I'm depressed aren't I supposed to happy now that I'm with her? I honestly overthink things too much and I do plan to try to talk to her about this stuff eventually, but in the meantime this forum is a good place to vent
 
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Finallyhere

Student
Oct 30, 2018
139
Had a gf of 2 and a half years who broke up with me over the phone on Halloween after basically ignoring me all month.

Pretty sure she was ignoring me so she could move onto someone younger, rich and fit. What sucks is I did soooo much for her, aside from buying her a bunch of things...only to be tossed aside like nothing.
 
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Pointlesslife

I'm feel dead and lifeless already so why live
Nov 7, 2018
102
I've never had a girlfriend, but have always wanted to have a deep romance with a woman so much so that I sometimes want to have a bdsm relation with a women who femdomizes me lol.
 
VincentValentine

VincentValentine

Student
Sep 27, 2018
145
I've never had a girlfriend, but have always wanted to have a deep romance with a woman so much so that I sometimes want to have a bdsm relation with a women who femdomizes me lol.

Personally I don't like aggression or to be dominated though, so if I ever did that with a woman it would have to be extremely light dom.
 
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2211264

Member
Sep 7, 2018
160
Growing up, when I got to the age of understanding what a relationship would mean. I did not want one. I tried anyway, because its silly to cast something out without even trying it. I enjoyed some things, but mostly just couldn't do it, I felt nothing really. I tried with 3 women. I also discovered im pretty much asexual.
 
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Pointlesslife

I'm feel dead and lifeless already so why live
Nov 7, 2018
102
Personally I don't like aggression or to be dominated though, so if I ever did that with a woman it would have to be extremely light dom.

That's fine. Everyone has their preferences, likes, and dislikes, but I'm the type that finds it extremely attractive.
 
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Dani Paradox

Dani Paradox

Permanently Banned
Aug 17, 2018
981
I was with a beautiful and amazing girl for four years before my life became destroyed. And I have been single for 7 years now. But, alas, tis' better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all.
 
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The Blackangel

The Blackangel

Nyiach des uti nesi deh ahy.
Nov 3, 2018
212
I was in a BDSM relationship when I was 18. I was a personal slave to a professional dominatrix. When I was good and did what I was told, she would beat the shit out of me. I was only disobedient once, and to be honest I was high so I don't remember the punishment. FYI, being high was the disobedience.
 
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worldexploder

worldexploder

Visionary
Sep 19, 2018
2,821
Divorced and done with relationships. I destroyed myself even further just trying to look for love and stability.
 
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Aesthler

Aesthler

Death is the only God who comes when you call
Sep 25, 2018
416
Single, had a gf but things don't always work out.
 
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