Discussion Girlfriend stole my SN

[NorthAmericanQc]

She knew about the bottle. She brought me back home. She confronted me to get the bottle. I said no. We argued for around 30min (calmly, my parents were upstairs), she threatened to check my room to find it. And she found it. I tried to take it back mwe fighter (not violently) , I got it back, my parents noticed and my gf revealed everything to them. Shit happened.
Now I'm at my gf home.
I need another solution. I don't what. I'm so fucking pissed and angry and I feel trapped. I'm so angry at her for trying to save me. Help.

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

Edit: while fighted at 3 vs 1. My parents and my gf against me, I was desperate and tried to chew the bottle to get the SN in my mouth. It was still sealed. I tried to open it discreetly inside my winter coat while they were talking to me. Didn't work. So last resort I tried to chew it. My dad took the bottle of SN and hided it inside a Safe. Fml

 

[Jake.123]

Edit: while fighted at 3 vs 1. My parents and my gf against me, I was desperate and tried to chew the bottle to get the SN in my mouth. It was still sealed. I tried to open it discreetly inside my winter coat while they were talking to me. Didn't work. So last resort I tried to chew it. My dad took the bottle of SN and hided it inside a Safe. Fml

Damn cruel and selfish for them to do that. Best thing to do, as hard as it sounds is to wait it out let things calm down then get more. Idk ur situation if life is really bad maybe attempt another method
Co or hanging?

 

[brighter]

First thing is to stop panicking because you won't be able to formulate a plan like this.
I think you're going to have to wait until things have calmed down because
a. you won't be able to take it back even if you know where she's put it because she'll probably notice
b. they're worried and it's too early to attempt again now

It might be that you might need to wait and order it again and do it when they've relaxed and aren't watching you so closely, when you have a good opportunity.

Please update us about what happens to you because I'm worried and I care x

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

Damn cruel and selfish for them to do that. Best thing to do, as hard as it sounds is to wait it out let things calm down then get more. Idk ur situation if life is really bad maybe attempt another method
Co or hanging?

I don't have access to co and hanging scare me.

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

I've cried so much today. I feel like an empty shell. I'm with her. I love her. But I'm angry at her as well. I'm so disappointed. I feel like everyone is trying to control my life, telling me what to do or not, what's best for me or not, I feel like I can't take my own decisions, I always end up disappointing people when I'm just trying to help and being generous, giving from my own time. I wish I could die.

I should've followed my first idea.. Doing it on Friday when my neighbor brought me the bottle (Post delivered at wrong adress).

 

[AnnihilatedAnna]

I get where they are comming from but i also get where you are comming from. They love you, they want you to live and personally while i understand it, i also think it is kinda selfish. They should now that even when they take it from you, and you really wanna die youll find another way.

I agree with what brighter said, attempting now is to early they are probably still watching you closely. You can always order more sn.

I wish you the best! If there is anything i can do for you let me know.

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

I get where they are comming from but i also get where you are comming from. They love you, they want you to live and personally while i understand it, i also think it is kinda selfish. They should now that even when they take it from you, and you really wanna die youll find another way.

I agree with what brighter said, attempting now is to early they are probably still watching you closely. You can always order more sn.

I wish you the best! If there is anything i can do for you let me know.

I could. But they will surely open the packages before me.

 

[Vaughn]

Here is an idea...
a small hotel room, some strong liquor ....and hang from the closet - ANTHONY BOURDAIN and Robin Williams did it that way...

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

I'm really contemplating going back home and force ask my mom to give me back the SN. And tell her I'll go do it somewhere else.

I'm so fucking mad and filled with anger and sadness.
Everything flipped in my life in less than 24 hours.

I.Wanna.Die
I'm not even scared, I wanna chug that dmso sn.

I feel like robbed, and lost dignity. I feel like I don't have anything to lose anymore.

I think I'll go take the metro (I won't jump in front, no worries. That shit is scary.) and bus, to go back home. I want that fucking SN. I paid 80$ for it.

Ugh. I feel so alone now.

 

[Cookiedough8956]

She knew about the bottle. She brought me back home. She confronted me to get the bottle. I said no. We argued for around 30min (calmly, my parents were upstairs), she threatened to check my room to find it. And she found it. I tried to take it back mwe fighter (not violently) , I got it back, my parents noticed and my gf revealed everything to them. Shit happened.
Now I'm at my gf home.
I need another solution. I don't what. I'm so fucking pissed and angry and I feel trapped. I'm so angry at her for trying to save me. Help.

Tbh, if you still wanna go ahead with it, pretend all is okay and that you've understood you're "wrong". Basically do some acting.
Once their calm down a bit, you can do what you wanted.

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

Ugh. It needs to happen. This week. I can still go get my DMSO. Idk with what else I could mix it.

Butcher market are selling curing salt. But it's only 6.25% would that be do-able somehow?

 

[Struggling]

I think your parents be anticipating you wanting to retrieve it so it will be closely guarded.

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

I think they'd be anticipating you wanting to retrieve it so it will be closely guarded.

Oh I know very well. It's locked in a safe with a password. Or they trashed it last night while I wasn't there. My girlfriend made them promise (my parents) to keep it in the safe. And then when I'll feel better, we will take it back and mold resin around it, like a memories of what happened, and won't be accessible. But I don't trust them. I know them too well. They probably trashed it. But I don't know for sure.

 

[Struggling]

That's ok was thinking you were still in a state. Another method might be best option if nothing else

 

[Marc]

I'm really contemplating going back home and force ask my mom to give me back the SN. And tell her I'll go do it somewhere else.

I'm so fucking mad and filled with anger and sadness.
Everything flipped in my life in less than 24 hours.

I.Wanna.Die
I'm not even scared, I wanna chug that dmso sn.

I feel like robbed, and lost dignity. I feel like I don't have anything to lose anymore.

I think I'll go take the metro (I won't jump in front, no worries. That shit is scary.) and bus, to go back home. I want that fucking SN. I paid 80$ for it.

Ugh. I feel so alone now.

I feel so alone too. Maybe this helps you. hugs

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

It can be mixed with methanol and applied on skin!

6g/kg for the LD50

Omg. Methanol is easy to get.

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

I feel so alone too. Maybe this helps you. hugs

Thank you!

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

Decided to go back home and claim my SN.

I'm in metro. Might turn into a shit show.

 

[throwaway777]

Decided to go back home and claim my SN.

I'm in metro. Might turn into a shit show.

gud luck !!

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

I plan getting it and going somewhere else to do it. So they won't have to deal with finding me.

Rest of the day will be rough. I can sense it.

 

[Philip]

I plan getting it and going somewhere else to do it. So they won't have to deal with finding me.

Rest of the day will be rough. I can sense it.

Good luck, sorry all this has happened to you

 

[Trulysorry]

What are the chances of them calling the authorities on you, stating your a harm to yourself? You may end up being sectioned..