MiseryLovesMyCompany
Arcanist
- Oct 8, 2020
- 482
It's been on my mind for some time, but I have yet to post a thread about it until now.
There were two times when I got close to death with partial. One thing was similiar on both occasions. Actually, exactly two days before.
That is the lamp in my room, which has three lighbulbs. One started blinking so fast when I turned it on two nights before my first attempt. It was like in Stranger Things, maybe even faster. I replaced it and went on with my life.
Another lightbulb completely went out two nights before my second attempt (which was more like an "almost gone wrong" practice).
It was unusual enough the first time it happened, but the second as well? My life's biggest coincidence or there is something unseen.
Third time's the charm, so in case the third lightbulb starts acting strange, I'll know what's about to come for sure.
Also, the other day I took a walk in the cemetery nearby and felt a calming and calling vibe near a relative's grave who killed himself a long time ago. I'm not sure why or how but I felt it the moment I entered the cemetery.
I wandered around but nothing came from anywhere else. Then went back and it was just so nice being there I forgot about all of my problems. It would be a huge risk but I though about drinking the SN next to it. There is just enough space to lie down there, reducing the possibility of being found. Still I can't take that chance, as my luck nowadays isn't the best.
I wonder what others think, anyone else had similiar or other hard to explain rationally experiences?
There were two times when I got close to death with partial. One thing was similiar on both occasions. Actually, exactly two days before.
That is the lamp in my room, which has three lighbulbs. One started blinking so fast when I turned it on two nights before my first attempt. It was like in Stranger Things, maybe even faster. I replaced it and went on with my life.
Another lightbulb completely went out two nights before my second attempt (which was more like an "almost gone wrong" practice).
It was unusual enough the first time it happened, but the second as well? My life's biggest coincidence or there is something unseen.
Third time's the charm, so in case the third lightbulb starts acting strange, I'll know what's about to come for sure.
Also, the other day I took a walk in the cemetery nearby and felt a calming and calling vibe near a relative's grave who killed himself a long time ago. I'm not sure why or how but I felt it the moment I entered the cemetery.
I wandered around but nothing came from anywhere else. Then went back and it was just so nice being there I forgot about all of my problems. It would be a huge risk but I though about drinking the SN next to it. There is just enough space to lie down there, reducing the possibility of being found. Still I can't take that chance, as my luck nowadays isn't the best.
I wonder what others think, anyone else had similiar or other hard to explain rationally experiences?