Getting ready/two-hour countdown! Tips for combatting survival instinct?

[RealHumanBean]

I'm getting ready to ctb tonight; I'm in good spirits and just trying to keep my nerves calm. I had breakfast this morning and I have been fasting the rest of the day. I am having some sleepytime tea right now and will stop drinking fluids in one hour.

I am not looking for anything here aside from a distraction for the next couple hours to go by quicker. I am looking forward to no longer living in a state of constant mental agony.

Does anyone have any tips or advice for overcoming survival instinct if/when it kicks in? I've been here and messed up the timing with my fasting, then survival instinct ruined the whole thing. How about ways to keep calm and relax for the next couple hours?

Thank you and.. I don't know, I don't have anything profound to say. I just empathize and feel for everyone here. I hope we all can find relief one way or another.

 

[iwanttodie000]

I wish I had advice for you, I don't unfortunately. But I do wish you a peaceful journey if you decide to go. Many of us hope to not be far behind.

 

[Meretlein]

I am sorry it has come to this for you. I hope you find peace.

 

[Ihavenofriends]

Try drugs, alcohol, sleeping pills.

 

[RealHumanBean]

Try drugs, alcohol, sleeping pills.

I have xanax that should help abate some of the anxiety, but I don't want to add in any drugs/alcohol because I think they may interfere with the regimen. I guess I should have practiced meditating before now, but I doubt any of us here like to be alone with our own thoughts.

 

[Ihavenofriends]

I have xanax that should help abate some of the anxiety, but I don't want to add in any drugs/alcohol because I think they may interfere with the regimen. I guess I should have practiced meditating before now, but I doubt any of us here like to be alone with our own thoughts.

Listening to music, watching stuff on the internet, playing video games? If you have a computer, you can probably distract yourself fairly well. Obviously, sometimes when you're trying to distract yourself, you can't get into the groove; my advice if that happens is to try looking at something entirely different. Like videos of monster trucks doing backflips or something.

 

[RealHumanBean]

Listening to music, watching stuff on the internet, playing video games? If you have a computer, you can probably distract yourself fairly well. Obviously, sometimes when you're trying to distract yourself, you can't get into the groove; my advice if that happens is to try looking at something entirely different. Like videos of monster trucks doing backflips or something.

Thank you; I appreciate you taking the time to respond with ideas. It's very kind. I tried calling the suicide hotline just to talk to someone and kill some time. The wait time is ABSURD, haha! I feel like their strategy is to frustrate suicidal people into missing their opportunity

 

[ixkitty]

Omg I called them once and they were like... do we need to send someone your way and I"m like ... No thank you........... I don't want any help and hung up haha !

EDIT: ALSO! a good random ass audiobook on youtube! especially if you like reading ... or like listening to someone read

 

[GarageKarate07]

I'm getting ready to ctb tonight; I'm in good spirits and just trying to keep my nerves calm. I had breakfast this morning and I have been fasting the rest of the day. I am having some sleepytime tea right now and will stop drinking fluids in one hour.

I am not looking for anything here aside from a distraction for the next couple hours to go by quicker. I am looking forward to no longer living in a state of constant mental agony.

Does anyone have any tips or advice for overcoming survival instinct if/when it kicks in? I've been here and messed up the timing with my fasting, then survival instinct ruined the whole thing. How about ways to keep calm and relax for the next couple hours?

Thank you and.. I don't know, I don't have anything profound to say. I just empathize and feel for everyone here. I hope we all can find relief one way or another.

Take a shower and that will get some toxins out, take up some time, help you breathe, and keep you relaxed-ish.

Thank you; I appreciate you taking the time to respond with ideas. It's very kind. I tried calling the suicide hotline just to talk to someone and kill some time. The wait time is ABSURD, haha! I feel like their strategy is to frustrate suicidal people into missing their opportunity

I bet the lines are very very busy this time per current events. Nobody wants to stay in this rust bucket (Chum Bucket LOL) any longer probly includes F-ing normies!

 

[ixkitty]

So... I was looking through SS and came across a post that someone linked to Outter Body Experiences or Near Death Experiences.. Some of them on there mention people who attempted suicide and it actually makes me feel a bit better overall.. Less anxious I suppose... Figured you might get some relief out of it..

https://www.nderf.org/Archives/exceptional.html

If I find the Original post I'll also link it because my brain is betraying me ... Literally Just saw it 3 minutes ago and I forgot where!

EDIT: Found it!!!! https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/after-death-fears.61850/post-1146292

 

[RealHumanBean]

So... I was looking through SS and came across a post that someone linked to Outter Body Experiences or Near Death Experiences.. Some of them on there mention people who attempted suicide and it actually makes me feel a bit better overall.. Less anxious I suppose... Figured you might get some relief out of it..

https://www.nderf.org/Archives/exceptional.html

If I find the Original post I'll also link it because my brain is betraying me ... Literally Just saw it 3 minutes ago and I forgot where!

Well hey, if I manage to survive this it basically means I'm immortal right? That ought to be neat

 

[ixkitty]

Well hey, if I manage to survive this it basically means I'm immortal right? That ought to be neat

You're night wrong! I'm gonna read through it because it's comforting to know not everyone see hell fire and the such when they almost die, especially those who decided they wanted to take their own life!

 

[watchingthewheels]

Does anyone have any tips or advice for overcoming survival instinct if/when it kicks in? I've been here and messed up the timing with my fasting, then survival instinct ruined the whole thing. How about ways to keep calm and relax for the next couple hours?

Personally, I like ASMR for relaxation to get me to relax and sleep...something like this, with slow, calm, talking, guided breathing techniques to relax, and a calming voice that starts to trail off as I get sleepier and sleepier...

 

[RealHumanBean]

Personally, I like ASMR for relaxation to get me to relax and sleep...something like this, with slow, calm, talking, guided breathing techniques to relax, and a calming voice that starts to trail off as I get sleepier and sleepier...

Thank you! I currently have some calming music on; I will try this out if/when it stops being effective. :)
20 minutes til I can get this fucking show on the road. I'm pumped! Fuck you survival instinct!

 

[enjoy]

wishing you peace. i also may be going tonight, its scary and survival instinct is a bitch.

 

[LiesAndLigatures]

Good luck. Sad it has to end this way, but you can make your own choices. I won't be long either. I hope it is peaceful.

 

[RealHumanBean]

wishing you peace. i also may be going tonight, its scary and survival instinct is a bitch.

It really is. Doing my best to stay on track here. I am sorry that you're suffering as well. Hope we both achieve relief.

 

[GarageKarate07]

So... I was looking through SS and came across a post that someone linked to Outter Body Experiences or Near Death Experiences.. Some of them on there mention people who attempted suicide and it actually makes me feel a bit better overall.. Less anxious I suppose... Figured you might get some relief out of it..

https://www.nderf.org/Archives/exceptional.html

If I find the Original post I'll also link it because my brain is betraying me ... Literally Just saw it 3 minutes ago and I forgot where!

EDIT: Found it!!!! https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/after-death-fears.61850/post-1146292

Yup! Thats me! Learn what you can about this world and the next while you are still here. Those NDERFs really help! Not all are religious and some are from suicides, gays, childbirth, bad surgeries, and self proclaimed "sinners". They all say the same things. "It's like a dream where I am actually happy and do not feel punished or judged for any reason."

 

[ixkitty]

Yup! Thats me! Learn what you can about this world and the next while you are still here. Those NDERFs really help! Not all are religious and some are from suicides, gays, childbirth, bad surgeries, and self proclaimed "sinners". They all say the same things. "It's like a dream where I am actually happy and do not feel punished or judged for any reason."

Exactly! It gives some comfort !

 

[RealHumanBean]

Thank you everyone who took the time to provide comfort! I'm going to go get started. Wish me luck.

 

[Sea Turtle]

Don't have much advice other then music, wish you a smooth and peaceful journey

 

[AN IDIOT'S END]

Good luck. Will you keep us updated? If you're using a slower method, that is.

 

[reticen]

Godspeed

 

[valleyofdeath]

it is,i must admit,scarey to rezd this. i hope for the bestfor you,i am sorry you have suffered--i know what thats like. sending a prayer your way.

 

[enjoy]

you still with us buddy? wishing you well.

 

[Biggie]

Wishing you a safe passing and everlasting peace my friend.

 

[Meditation guide]

I'm hoping all is well for you whatever happened.

 

[fred farkle]

what happened? has he gone. May he be at peace.

 

[reticen]

Last seen at exactly the time of his last post. Quite prompt of him. I would say he is gone.

 

[Gaybonez]

Adios