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Darkdreamer001

Darkdreamer001

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Jul 17, 2018
192
Sometimes I think I would like to been born a psychopath. I hate having empathy. People see that I'm compassionate and they crap all over it. I see the injustice in the world and in my life also and I stopped believing in karma and some other spiritual things. I've become more of a nihilist.
 
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shipwreck

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May 7, 2020
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Sometimes I think I would like to been born a psychopath. I hate having empathy. People see that I'm compassionate and they crap all over it. I see the injustice in the world and in my life also and I stopped believing in karma and some other spiritual things. I've become more of a nihilist.

Suggest you delete this post and start a new thread with it. It doesn't really belong here and few will see it.
 
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Throwawaysoul

Wizard
May 14, 2018
606
I really hate that A makes you sign for it. That goes against everything they teach you about buying sketchy things online and makes you a sitting duck.
 
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Darkdreamer001

Student
Jul 17, 2018
192
Suggest you delete this post and start a new thread with it. It doesn't really belong here and few will see it.
I'm trying to but having trouble. Not sure how that ended up...sorry!
 
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Living sucks

Forced out of life before I wanted to leave
Mar 27, 2020
3,143
Did A really just vanish? Anyone knows anything?
Has anyone been in contact with A or had any product delivered since the email switch ?
 
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Mud.

Arcanist
Oct 27, 2018
403
Has anyone been in contact with A or had any product delivered since the email switch ?

Nope. I'm in contact with a member here who's been trying to reach him for almost a week now.
First through protonmail, then through T mail.
No response whatsoever.
 
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AlreadyGone

Taking it day by day
Jan 11, 2020
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At this point, I have pretty much given up on A. Too much hassle to get in contact with.
 
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Eusoul

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May 13, 2020
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Everybody that would like to, please pm me the new A mail to confirm. I already have it from two users but would like more.
 
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EGR92

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Jul 4, 2020
186
Im wondering if anyone can help me or have had this experience.

I have been communicating with A for the past week. I am certain this is the real A aa i have checked the email address with multiple members.
I decided to pay via bitcoin, A sent me the address that i would need to send the money to. Which i did. However the next day A has emailed me asking for a screenshot of the transaction because he has not recieved the payment. Obviously i am very panicked as this is alot of money that has disappeared into nowhere. I know i have sent it to the correct address as i have double checked it and i know i sent payment correctly as i contacted bitcoin to check.
I have sent A a screenshot of the payment and a link to transaction on block explorer. All the proof is there that the payment has been sent.
Has anyone else had this problem? i am so stressed as i know i wont recieve another email from A until tomorrow evening which is a long time to wait. I am desperate for my N as i cannot bare to suffer any longer. Any help would be appreciated
Hey guys,

Herewith I want to share my experience with this forum and ordering from A. I came in contact with this forum back in summer 2018 and read as many sections as I could. After the whole hysteria with getting N from A, I was a little bit concerned with order. On more than one occasion, I thought. That specific individuals in this forum were just here to scam people. In December of. Last year I finally decided to order from A. I looked up the PPH and asked several others. If they can confirm the email address. I made a proton mail account, contacted A, and discussed the purchase. As a matter of fact, he asked me for my phone number. Of course, I didn't give my real name, as I still wasn't sure if it was a trap. In the. Following days I transferred the bitcoin to the required address. Then the bizarre thing happened. A insisted that he didn't receive the bitcoin on his wallet and wrongfully explained that it would be impossible to trace the bitcoins. However, I proved with a screenshot and the help of BLOCKCHAIN EXPLORER that indeed I send the bitcoin to the desired address. As a result, he agreed to send the package regardless of the payment. At first, I was skeptical and started to read in this thread that people were not getting the product with the quality they desired/wanted. 20 days past through, and indeed I received my package today. It was 2 bottles with a metal sealing. However, the labels were scratched off. Although there were some problems with ordering from A, he kept his promise and didn't try to scam out of further money.



Sincerely,
Atticus


Hi i am having the same issue, i sent my payment via bitcoin but A claims he has not received it. I've done exactly the same as you, sent a screenshot and a link to block explorer. I am 100% i have sent it to the correct address so I've no idea what could have gone wrong here. I hope A does the same and sends me my N
 
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Living sucks

Forced out of life before I wanted to leave
Mar 27, 2020
3,143
Im wondering if anyone can help me or have had this experience.

I have been communicating with A for the past week. I am certain this is the real A aa i have checked the email address with multiple members.
I decided to pay via bitcoin, A sent me the address that i would need to send the money to. Which i did. However the next day A has emailed me asking for a screenshot of the transaction because he has not recieved the payment. Obviously i am very panicked as this is alot of money that has disappeared into nowhere. I know i have sent it to the correct address as i have double checked it and i know i sent payment correctly as i contacted bitcoin to check.
I have sent A a screenshot of the payment and a link to transaction on block explorer. All the proof is there that the payment has been sent.
Has anyone else had this problem? i am so stressed as i know i wont recieve another email from A until tomorrow evening which is a long time to wait. I am desperate for my N as i cannot bare to suffer any longer. Any help would be appreciated



Hi i am having the same issue, i sent my payment via bitcoin but A claims he has not received it. I've done exactly the same as you, sent a screenshot and a link to block explorer. I am 100% i have sent it to the correct address so I've no idea what could have gone wrong here. I hope A does the same and sends me my N
Yes this has been reported by others.

I'm glad you're taking precautions like a screen shot bcuz when you first joined you said money is no object and that you didn't care if you got scammed cuz you were desperate and would just keep trying, so you were the perfect target on this site.
 
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EGR92

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Jul 4, 2020
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Yes this has been reported by others.

I'm glad you're taking precautions like a screen shot bcuz when you first joined you said money is no object and that you didn't care if you got scammed cuz you were desperate and would just keep trying, so you were the perfect target on this site.

Yes i did say that but i found the correct address from A, also confirmed by yourself and other members.
Has he still sent N to other members after this mix up? I still am desperate... I'm in such a state of anxiety here
I'm glad you're taking precautions like a screen shot bcuz when you first joined you said money is no object and that you didn't care if you got scammed cuz you were desperate and would just keep trying, so you were the perfect target on this site.

Im also not sure what any of that has to do with this when i am talking to the real A?
 
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SheUsed2Glow

New Member
Jun 19, 2019
2
The price for N from A is just absolutely crazy right now...I'm getting ready to shell out about 900 dollars in cash to convert it to BTC, to send it to A, and I get two bottles of N in return. I really wish this stuff could be much easily synthesized at home with the proper equipment, information, and chemicals by someone with basic chemistry knowledge to create. I don't think that it would become another epidemic such as people buying Sudafed just to shove strips of metal from a battery, some acid, and powdered pseudoephedrine into a gatorade bottle for an hour just to get methamphetamine to last for 36 minutes of smoking their brain cells away. If I could buy the equipment and find reliable instructions this would have been something that I would have attempted to create on my own.

I have a question from those who have ordered from A...how "stealthy" are their packages and do we have a guess as to the seizure rate at which these packages are being discovered by the mail police? I'm praying that I'm not just taking a lighter to my 900 dollars in cash but because we know it as the easiest way to CTB I don't see another option besides N. I do have in my possession 180 tablets of 2mg clonazepam and have really considered taking all of that combined with several grams of SN but it still doesn't sound as elegant to me as N does. My plans include a park view late at night, a lot of clonazepam to calm my nerves, and then bottoms up to the N assuming that it arrives. I'm just hoping that the parcels A sends out don't look like the type of packaging that they would use to ship such items and that some postal worker doesn't catch on to what's inside and send in our ever-loving law enforcement to attempt to figure out how we ordered it. I can think of extremely creative ways of sneaking packages like this across country borderlines that could be an excellent way of hiding the contents of the package, and that is my biggest worry about investing so much money in this vet-grade N. Don't get me wrong, I understand the costs and why things are like they are but what A has to pay for the bottles I'm sure is less than a tenth of what they have to pay for them from their distributor. In the grand scheme of things I do hope that this person is doing it out of kindness and not for feeding into their retirement fund.

EDIT: I only realized this evening just how much metoclopramide I have in my possession since it was prescribed to me regularly right before I had my nissen fundoplication surgery (it's for GERD and it tightens your esophagus so that stomach acid can't back up into your throat and cause terrible heartburn). I counted at least 5x 90 count bottles of metoclopramide that are still within the 1 year expiration date that I have no use for, and if I could send say packs of 9/10 tablets to everyone that needed the anti-emetic without getting caught I would but with the law breathing down my neck already there is no reliable way that I could accomplish this without getting caught by someone. It would be so easy to just slip in ten tablets into an envelope inside of a very small container and just for the cost of shipping (it would end up being about $3 for First Class in the USA) I could dole out so much of this stupid crap that it would probably be gone within a day or two at the most.
Ordered from A in December 2018. Never received my package. He stopped returning my emails. When I emailed him from a different email address pretending to be a new customer he answered. When I asked him where my order was he again stopped replying.
 
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Carilinefrims

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May 17, 2020
22
I have been talking to several other members here and on another CTB forum about current experiences with A. This is a collection of everything that we have experienced dealing with A currently.

I have talked to 7 other people here who have ordered from A.

First, when ordering from A The expectation is to receive sealed 100ml glass bottles of N. A also gives a timeline of 20 to 25 days. A randomly asks some people for their phone numbers also. Can't seem to find a rhyme or reason as to who he requests it from.

My order was for two bottles. My order took 19 days. What was immediately odd though was A had told me my order was shipped 17 days before I received it. And when I got the package I realized it was sent 3 days ago. When I opened the package instead of the two sealed 100ml glass N bottles I was expecting, I had two 60ml unsealed plastic bottles. One of which I could immediately smell the chemical smell of the product. I contacted A with these concerns and A replied that the product was good and I had his word. He did not respond to the amount questions, the unsealed questions, or anything else. He has since stopped responding to any of my emails.

Member 2 also ordered two bottles, and received the same as I did. That member also reached out to A with questions and also is not being responded to. This member decided to have the product tested.

Member 3 ordered two bottles. Received one bottle but at least it is the proper 100ml glass bottle. A has promised to send this member another bottle. Will update if it is received.

Member 4 never received their order. A claims it was probably intercepted. There is no way to confirm or deny this of course.

Member 5 ordered one bottle, received one large ( larger than 100ml ) bottle that was partially used, and not properly sealed.

Member 6 is still waiting for delivery. They ordered two bottles and are now at 27 days.

Member 7 ordered two 100ml bottles and received the two 60ml unsealed bottles yet again. One bottle actually leaked in the package due to not being sealed, and was not clear, with particulates in it.

What I have learned that might be key here is that this is not how A operated before October. Since October however many people are very concerned with how A is operating. On the other forum the talks are similar. People getting the unsealed plastic bottles, getting the wrong orders and so forth.

As soon as the member here gets the test results they will be posted by me or them if they want to post it. Several members involved do not want their names used so please do not ask here or in PM as I will not give them out.

My personal advice right now would be to be very cautious, obviously something is very wrong right now. The product could still very well be N, one of the members actually tasted it and said it tasted similar to what would be expected. But, until the test results come back we do not know for sure. Also, be aware that there is no way of knowing what you might receive right now as in quantity, quality, anything. From people I have spoken to from here and the other forum no one has received 2 100ml sealed glass bottles since around the beginning of November.

I do have to say though that if the test comes back positive for N with at least 60mg/ml that would mean that all of us who got the two 60ml bottles would have about 8gm of N. Which is more than enough to peacefully CTB. So we are of course hoping that is the case.

Now, with all the transferred and unsealed product we also have to worry about shelf life. A few of us are researching that and I will update as we learn more.

Another concern is the product being tainted. One member had one bottle that was not clear and appeared to have particulates in it. This is extremely concerning for obvious reasons. I believe that member is having it tested also.

A also stops responding it seems once one gets the product and starts asking questions about their concerns. I have been told by several previous customers that A before November never acted that way. There is a ton of speculation as to why that is, but I will not speculate. I am trying to find the real answers. As I get answers I will update here.

This is all very concerning. This is incredibly serious. I spent every penny I had saved up to get this from A and expected 2 100 ml sealed bottles of N. And I am not alone. We are talking about people counting on A to deliver as promised for people that have gone to him as their means for their final act in life. To find our peace, the way we want to.

I am reporting my experience and findings to EI, as are others.

I promise to update all findings until I CTB myself. Please just use caution for now, I hate that A is the only source that is recommended to us and these things are happening. So I don't want to tell people not to order because our options are limited, and the product might still be N. We should know soon. But there is a lot wrong right now. So use your own discretion. I just want everyone to have all the information available.

Also, if anyone wants to talk to me about any of this, or their own experience, you can respond here of course or you can PM me if you want. As crazy as it may sound to some, all I want is to help others get to any conclusions we can for others while I am still here.
Are there any conclusions ? Long time ago I think this was written , any update ? ( we should know soon ) if you are still here?
Ordered from A in December 2018. Never received my package. He stopped returning my emails. When I emailed him from a different email address pretending to be a new customer he answered. When I asked him where my order was he again stopped replying.
Total scam then ....
Yes i did say that but i found the correct address from A, also confirmed by yourself and other members.
Has he still sent N to other members after this mix up? I still am desperate... I'm in such a state of anxiety here


Im also not sure what any of that has to do with this when i am talking to the real A?
Hello, I'm confused, are people here helping one another or are people not willing to help each other . Did you manage to be successful atall?
 
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MariV

Arcanist
Sep 13, 2020
487
I ordered from AV last month and they took the packet at the customs, which i could see thanks to the tracking number he gave me.
I ordedered again this month and the same happened, poor me :/ So i am either very unlucky or its impossible to take N to europe. But from AVs part, everything has been correct and transparent.
 
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Carilinefrims

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May 17, 2020
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I ordered from AV last month and they took the packet at the customs, which i could see thanks to the tracking number he gave me.
I ordedered again this month and the same happened, poor me :/ So i am either very unlucky or its impossible to take N to europe. But from AVs part, everything has been correct and transparent.
AV? I don't think there are any lucky purchases do you ? Honestly ... I don't understand what you mean how on earth would you know anything was correct and transparent ? Can u enlighten me ? Delivery address? Customs, jail? Doesn't make sense to me.
Ordered from A in December 2018. Never received my package. He stopped returning my emails. When I emailed him from a different email address pretending to be a new customer he answered. When I asked him where my order was he again stopped replying.
I have been talking to several other members here and on another CTB forum about current experiences with A. This is a collection of everything that we have experienced dealing with A currently.

I have talked to 7 other people here who have ordered from A.

First, when ordering from A The expectation is to receive sealed 100ml glass bottles of N. A also gives a timeline of 20 to 25 days. A randomly asks some people for their phone numbers also. Can't seem to find a rhyme or reason as to who he requests it from.

My order was for two bottles. My order took 19 days. What was immediately odd though was A had told me my order was shipped 17 days before I received it. And when I got the package I realized it was sent 3 days ago. When I opened the package instead of the two sealed 100ml glass N bottles I was expecting, I had two 60ml unsealed plastic bottles. One of which I could immediately smell the chemical smell of the product. I contacted A with these concerns and A replied that the product was good and I had his word. He did not respond to the amount questions, the unsealed questions, or anything else. He has since stopped responding to any of my emails.

Member 2 also ordered two bottles, and received the same as I did. That member also reached out to A with questions and also is not being responded to. This member decided to have the product tested.

Member 3 ordered two bottles. Received one bottle but at least it is the proper 100ml glass bottle. A has promised to send this member another bottle. Will update if it is received.

Member 4 never received their order. A claims it was probably intercepted. There is no way to confirm or deny this of course.

Member 5 ordered one bottle, received one large ( larger than 100ml ) bottle that was partially used, and not properly sealed.

Member 6 is still waiting for delivery. They ordered two bottles and are now at 27 days.

Member 7 ordered two 100ml bottles and received the two 60ml unsealed bottles yet again. One bottle actually leaked in the package due to not being sealed, and was not clear, with particulates in it.

What I have learned that might be key here is that this is not how A operated before October. Since October however many people are very concerned with how A is operating. On the other forum the talks are similar. People getting the unsealed plastic bottles, getting the wrong orders and so forth.

As soon as the member here gets the test results they will be posted by me or them if they want to post it. Several members involved do not want their names used so please do not ask here or in PM as I will not give them out.

My personal advice right now would be to be very cautious, obviously something is very wrong right now. The product could still very well be N, one of the members actually tasted it and said it tasted similar to what would be expected. But, until the test results come back we do not know for sure. Also, be aware that there is no way of knowing what you might receive right now as in quantity, quality, anything. From people I have spoken to from here and the other forum no one has received 2 100ml sealed glass bottles since around the beginning of November.

I do have to say though that if the test comes back positive for N with at least 60mg/ml that would mean that all of us who got the two 60ml bottles would have about 8gm of N. Which is more than enough to peacefully CTB. So we are of course hoping that is the case.

Now, with all the transferred and unsealed product we also have to worry about shelf life. A few of us are researching that and I will update as we learn more.

Another concern is the product being tainted. One member had one bottle that was not clear and appeared to have particulates in it. This is extremely concerning for obvious reasons. I believe that member is having it tested also.

A also stops responding it seems once one gets the product and starts asking questions about their concerns. I have been told by several previous customers that A before November never acted that way. There is a ton of speculation as to why that is, but I will not speculate. I am trying to find the real answers. As I get answers I will update here.

This is all very concerning. This is incredibly serious. I spent every penny I had saved up to get this from A and expected 2 100 ml sealed bottles of N. And I am not alone. We are talking about people counting on A to deliver as promised for people that have gone to him as their means for their final act in life. To find our peace, the way we want to.

I am reporting my experience and findings to EI, as are others.

I promise to update all findings until I CTB myself. Please just use caution for now, I hate that A is the only source that is recommended to us and these things are happening. So I don't want to tell people not to order because our options are limited, and the product might still be N. We should know soon. But there is a lot wrong right now. So use your own discretion. I just want everyone to have all the information available.

Also, if anyone wants to talk to me about any of this, or their own experience, you can respond here of course or you can PM me if you want. As crazy as it may sound to some, all I want is to help others get to any conclusions we can for others while I am still here.
Since making this thread I have been contacted by several members. First I want to say I am not ignoring anyone or their situation, I promise. I need to research and verify some things before I add them to this thread. I hope everyone understands that.

Secondly, and anyone considering N ( or buying anything else in the same lines for that matter ) PLEASE READ THIS NEXT PART!

If anyone on this site, or anywhere online recommends you to an email address to buy N please, please, please do your research! On here, in the resources, in the PPH, everything! I have talked to a few people who have been scammed now and it infuriated me to an extent that's I can not describe. Read the rules here, no one is allowed to sell or offer to sell ANYTHING! 2 people now have sent me emails that they were told by others belonged to A that DO NOT. You have to protect yourself. Don't just trust someone because they have a lot of posts or something. Do the research to find the info. Please.
I have been scammed , are you free to talk
 
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@Carilinefrims the member @Ark is no longer. He died of N from A, even if the bottles were decanted
 
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MariV

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AV? I don't think there are any lucky purchases do you ? Honestly ... I don't understand what you mean how on earth would you know anything was correct and transparent ? Can u enlighten me ? Delivery address? Customs, jail? Doesn't make sense to me
[/QUOTEtracking...i know where the delivery has been and when and where it was stopped
 
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TracieB

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Sep 1, 2018
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I'm a relative newbie but the amount of money involved to purchase N means I would have to be triple dipple sure of the source. I got nowhere fast in the UK and then found SN which is much easier to get hold of and not so expensive. Ultimately you will never know if u can trust the source if u r buying an illegal substance; end of.
 
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Tutanota really doesnt't like privacy. I registered with Tor, to just get this after the initial 48 hours flagging on hold

 
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Also, they had issues recently and the mailbox couldn't be accessed whatever the client and the notifications were spamming with doubles like loco

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Darkdreamer001

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Jul 17, 2018
192
Everybody that would like to, please pm me the new A mail to confirm. I already have it from two users but would like more.
Can you pm me A email addresse especially the real one? I didn't know he's got another one?
 
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it's_all_a_game

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Nov 7, 2020
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Could someone please PM me his email; thanks.
 
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Darkdreamer001

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I ordered from AV last month and they took the packet at the customs, which i could see thanks to the tracking number he gave me.
I ordedered again this month and the same happened, poor me :/ So i am either very unlucky or its impossible to take N to europe. But from AVs part, everything has been correct and transparent.
Can you pm me the email address?
 
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Viro_Major

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Yes, with decanted N since some weeks and only a single bottle if I remember correctly. So pretty much a nailed success versus unfavourable odds (moderately: the theory is respected)
 
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