Fall.and.Shatter
Member
- Aug 11, 2022
- 26
So, I'm in a bit of a complicated situation..
How do you ctb?
(I'm really sorry, I know a lot of people must have asked this before… I just don't have the time to search the posts below because my parents, they only allow me about 5 min a day on the web and even then they watch what I'm doing behind me… I don't have my own phone or know the passwords to the computers, so it's impossible to search this website thoroughly.. It actually took me a week just to write this damn thing)
So.. How do you ctb fast and with minimal pain??
From the few chances I've had to look, I know SN is what people recommend the most, but it's illegal in my country. I can't hang myself because there is no place to do it, and anyway I don't have a rope and can't buy one. Shotgun's out too and gas is not even possible(I can't buy anything off the internet..)
So is there any way..??? Just something that works in about 10hrs and doesn't really hurt that much.
I've thought about jumping..but because I am such a worthless coward, I'm too scared to jump. So that is a last resort.
Also, what is amitriptyline? Can you get it at a local pharmacy..? If not I could maybe trick my parents into buying me some by telling them it's for a science experiment, so can anyone tell me how to do it? Like, do I need antiemetics?
The best way I've thought of is caffeine powder.. But I have no idea what I should take with it. Somebody please tell me what the recommended 'formula' is... I'm getting really desperate...
How do you ctb?
(I'm really sorry, I know a lot of people must have asked this before… I just don't have the time to search the posts below because my parents, they only allow me about 5 min a day on the web and even then they watch what I'm doing behind me… I don't have my own phone or know the passwords to the computers, so it's impossible to search this website thoroughly.. It actually took me a week just to write this damn thing)
So.. How do you ctb fast and with minimal pain??
From the few chances I've had to look, I know SN is what people recommend the most, but it's illegal in my country. I can't hang myself because there is no place to do it, and anyway I don't have a rope and can't buy one. Shotgun's out too and gas is not even possible(I can't buy anything off the internet..)
So is there any way..??? Just something that works in about 10hrs and doesn't really hurt that much.
I've thought about jumping..but because I am such a worthless coward, I'm too scared to jump. So that is a last resort.
Also, what is amitriptyline? Can you get it at a local pharmacy..? If not I could maybe trick my parents into buying me some by telling them it's for a science experiment, so can anyone tell me how to do it? Like, do I need antiemetics?
The best way I've thought of is caffeine powder.. But I have no idea what I should take with it. Somebody please tell me what the recommended 'formula' is... I'm getting really desperate...