I'm new here so hello everyone. It's nice to have a place where i can talk to people who know what's it like to feel suicidal too. I'm getting really bad again. Nearly 5 years ago I made a serious attempt on my life with the N I got from J. I don't know if it's because I threw some of it up or my mum found me in time but I ended up on a ventilator in an intensive care unit. I was devastated it hadn't worked and kept ordering more N but my mum was more vigilant and kept finding it. Now I did get a lot better but life hasn't much changed since then. I'm still stuck in a dump of a town with only the prospect of doing dead end jobs. I'm getting just the same again and wish I had more N and get it right this time. It's a shame that J is no longer around cos every time I ordered from him it got through to me.
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