Get scared while trying hanging

[Ryukil]

I don't know if anyone can really help me with this. But I have an extension cord, and I one end over the door, shut the door, and then tie the end on the outside into a slip knot. I then get on my knees and pull down.

What happens is I'll get immense head pressure and feel dizzy. I imagine that means I'm doing it right? The knot is supposed to be behind the right side of your neck, correct?

Anyway. I get scared and pull myself back up. I suppose I would only have to keep holding for like a minute or so and then gravity takes over?

I've tried this a couple times, sometimes it feels kind of painful but other times it's felt peaceful and euphoric (I now get why autoerotic asphyxiation is a thing, lol).

It seems like I don't even need that much pressure around my neck to start to feel like I'm passing out.

Anyway...this isn't my ideal method - I'd like to try with N, but I don't have the money atm, so.

As for the getting scared thing, I guess the only solution is to be sure I want to do this, think about all the reasons why I want to die as I'm doing it, and then just hold until I pass out.

I keep procrastinating. :/

 

[OkTotti]

We're all a little scared or we wouldn't all be here. When you make your decision, i hope you find piece

 

[Finallyhere]

You're more likely to pass out after feeling peaceful/euphoric. But even then, your survival instinct can kick in and you'll find yourself naturally waking up and coming to your feet.

I think the only solution is probably drugs and/or a strong willpower.

 

[worldexploder]

Very normal. I tried to hang myslef with an extension cord in 2016. Last time I attempted. The NNM may be easier. At least I am hoping! I prob did the cord all wrong to begin with.

If the NNM works I'll be dead in a month or so. The waiting makes me antsy because I want to go ASAP. Gotta but the tools first.

 

[Couchking]

I don't know if anyone can really help me with this. But I have an extension cord, and I one end over the door, shut the door, and then tie the end on the outside into a slip knot. I then get on my knees and pull down.

What happens is I'll get immense head pressure and feel dizzy. I imagine that means I'm doing it right? The knot is supposed to be behind the right side of your neck, correct?

Anyway. I get scared and pull myself back up. I suppose I would only have to keep holding for like a minute or so and then gravity takes over?

I've tried this a couple times, sometimes it feels kind of painful but other times it's felt peaceful and euphoric (I now get why autoerotic asphyxiation is a thing, lol).

It seems like I don't even need that much pressure around my neck to start to feel like I'm passing out.

Anyway...this isn't my ideal method - I'd like to try with N, but I don't have the money atm, so.

As for the getting scared thing, I guess the only solution is to be sure I want to do this, think about all the reasons why I want to die as I'm doing it, and then just hold until I pass out.

I keep procrastinating. :/

How do you manage to get everything wrong?
Is this a troll post???

Did you even do any research at all? This site has answers to all your questions on hanging.

Do you even care at all?
May I suggest jumping over hanging?

It doesn't require thinking.

Goodbye.

 

[ForestLove]

I tried taking 2mg of Clonazapam and I slept like a baby for 4hrs.

Maybe you could try taking some benzo/sedatives before trying partial to reduce your survival instinct.

Everyone wants a piece of N. Buy sadly, my country is under the list of banned countries which will nv allow such solutions to be imported from other countries..

Sometimes doesn't mean u have the money, you can get what you want. Vice versa.

 

[Ryukil]

How do you manage to get everything wrong?
Is this a troll post???

Did you even do any research at all? This site has answers to all your questions on hanging.

Do you even care at all?
May I suggest jumping over hanging?

It doesn't require thinking.

Goodbye.

It's not a troll post lol.

No, I just have to try using the materials I have. I know that people have died while kneeling, so. I don't actually have money to get a rope. I have an extension cord and a door. Shutting the door on a cord definitely feels pretty secure. Tying a slip knot and then putting pressure on it definitely makes me feel like I'm passing out.

To do it the way described on this site would mean I have to wait until I have more money - right now the thing keeping me from making money is my severe OCD, and I'm on a waitlist for a hospital to get treated for it. Basically, I would have to wait, say, 6 months to attempt to do it the "right way" with a rope and all. I don't really want to, dude.

So...

 

[TiredHorse]

As for the getting scared thing, I guess the only solution is to be sure I want to do this, think about all the reasons why I want to die as I'm doing it, and then just hold until I pass out.

For whatever it's worth, I think many --most?-- of us here have flinched while attempting to ctb, with pretty much every method available. I've flinched with both eb/N2 and a gun. It's a big step --a frightening step, bluntly-- and the human survival instinct is damnably strong. There are threads here discussing putting yourself in the right mindset to ctb, but in the end it'll come down to overcoming your instinctive drive to exist. If you can do that, when you can do that, you'll succeed. Until then, be kind to yourself. You're obviously in enough misery to be preparing yourself to die; don't make your remaining life worse by beating yourself up over fear we all have.