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K_K

K_K

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Jan 9, 2024
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i actually cant stand it i genuinely think i cant take it anymore. as if the societal pressures women have to face + the misogyny and sexism and various other obstacles dont already make me want to die i just cant take this anymore. this body disgusts me and i envy absolutely everything about men. i can't see a guy and not feel fucking jealous. i wish i had that body. i wish i had that body. i wish i had that body. its so hard to explain but all i want to do right now is just plunge a knife into my chest, die and hope to reincarnate as a guy somewhere. anywhere. today it was hard just to look at PEOPLE online and in real life because i would constantly get reminded of gender. if i see a woman, i'd remember my own gender. if i see a man, i'd get so unbelievably envious. things like differences in reproductive systems it just feels RIGHT i wasn't meant for this. i dont want to transition because i know i'd just see myself as a woman no matter how many people say i'm a man. i'd face more discrimination and i will never, ever, ever be accepted in this country if i were to transition. ever. i'm sick of this, it was like i was made to suffer. suicide is actually the only solution. no, 'i can't accept myself for who i am' and i cant 'just transition'. i am actually stuck in hell where there are absolutely no painless and easy methods available to me and i'm left here to rot. i cant find it within me to live and i cant find it within me to die. everytime i hold the knife up to my chest because i have no other option i put it back down. i know its SI but i just wish a home invader comes through my window and shoots me or something. i cant handle this any longer.
 
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I'm sorry to hear about that, K_K~ :( It's truly awful to be born the opposite gender of what you wish to be~ >_< I have struggles with jealousy of others like that too, and I absolutely hate it! >:( idk about you, but it's the absolute worst is when I'm clothes shopping~ >_< It's just so painful! >_< having to choose between things one doesn't even want! >_<
and transitioning is definitely hard, yes~ :( just as is the constant pretending of not doing so~ :(

oooo~ Same~ xDDD I want to get murdered~ >w<
 
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