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ornitier199

Arcanist
Mar 26, 2022
413
I just realed how there is literally no other site like this out there
everywhere i look and nothing.
i never been so alone in my endeavor before its gonna be a long painful 40 years of slow dying and crying lets face im too much of a SLUG to even kill myself im in too much agony to even do that

im too old for the partners thread anyways i really wish i had a gun right now ive woukdve shot nyself before even so much as thinking to write this. somebody kill me help me die please((
 
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wilted_biography

Member
Jun 11, 2022
30
I hear and feel your pure agony…
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,397
I wish that suicide is easier. It is so unfair how it is difficult to leave this world. Living really is so painful, and I know that it can be awful feeling trapped in such a horrible life. To me it is terrifying the thought of suffering until old age. I'm sorry that you are in such an unbearable situation.
 
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Tmbass

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Jun 5, 2022
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i never been so alone in my endeavor before its gonna be a long painful 40 years of slow dying and crying lets face im too much of a SLUG to even kill myself im in too much agony to even do that
I know that feeling. I browse this site often and have looked at every big suicide method there is, but of all the times i've half assed and failed, I just know i'll never be able to do it. Not being able to buy a gun just sucks. Knowing i'll be here pissing around for another 50 years is just as depressing as what caused it in the first place.
 
Judy Garland

Judy Garland

HoHum
Mar 23, 2022
826
I too am in 38 years of agony and pain. I don't know why I'm waiting to use my SN. I'm afraid, because I know it's not an easy "switch off" button for my body. My body has to go through a process once I take the SN which I have to feel. I'm afraid that I'm going to be in more pain. I'm afraid of what comes after though I shouldn't be, but I am. I'm afraid that I am going to give those dark things more of my pain...and I can't handle it. I've given them enough. I gave them too much. I hope I didn't give them my death too.
 
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ornitier199

Arcanist
Mar 26, 2022
413
I don't know why I mentioned partners, another mistake. one for me anyway, but that is not here.
It's a thing needed done alone, so much for this current method, I just feel physical pain but not actually dying from it, or at least it hasn't happened yet, and that is killing me without killing me.
 

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