gabapentin/ suicidal ideation

[realname]

hey all...

i know a lot of other ppl on here have threads about gabapentin but i didn't find what i was looking for anywhere.

so pretty recently i joined ss with an intention of ctb via sn.

i responded to a few ppls post and one of them caughtthebus a couple days after.
we had similar stories & they messaged me back right after drinking the sn so it felt weird and potent...
in a way that made me want to live again (for a few weeks)
now here again in the present I've been on gabapentin for about a week.

i feel it is makin me suicidal again...
i felt like I was headed towards recovery....
Now not so sure.
im reading that is a common side effect but wondered if ppl on here have experienced anything similar?

Also like I just wanna stop taking them for a few reasons but wanted to at least give it a chance& will but it's freaking me out.
Dr prescribed it for nerve pain bc they're a naturopath but all the stuff they're recommending (herbs/supplements) are not covered by insurance... but hey! Free Gabapentin..
but it maketh me groggy & is fucking with my sleep schedule ....
i feel also that ill probably save what's left when I stop in case i do decide again to ctb & will take some to calm nerves before drinking the sn.

anyways...

 

[Heavenbound]

Hello
I take gabapentin off-label for anxiety as needed during the day, and it works really well for me. Benzodiazepines have no effect whatsoever.
I've been having more suicidal thoughts lately, but I don't attribute them to the gabapentin. I've got some other issues going on right now. Certainly it could possibly play a part, but I don't take it on a regular basis.
If it's safe for you to do so, maybe stop taking it for a few days and assess how you feel?
Good luck to you

 

[Little_Suzy]

That is the point at which we arrive! After a while, I'm not sure whether it's me or the meds that are making me want to kill myself.

I impulsively OD'd because I hadn't slept for four days. I suspected the Wellbutrin, and I was also taking Gabapentin. (There is your answer.)

Afterwards, I stopped taking all of my psychiatric medications because they made me OD, and I requested acupuncture.

Acupuncture is really effective. I'm down to three medications now.

 

[realname]

Hello
I take gabapentin off-label for anxiety as needed during the day, and it works really well for me. Benzodiazepines have no effect whatsoever.
I've been having more suicidal thoughts lately, but I don't attribute them to the gabapentin. I've got some other issues going on right now. Certainly it could possibly play a part, but I don't take it on a regular basis.
If it's safe for you to do so, maybe stop taking it for a few days and assess how you feel?
Good luck to you

Thanks for ur response... My Dr said I'm on such a low dose it's safe for me to come off immediately..
Also I wasn't aware u can take it as an as needed thing I mean I figured u could but online says not to..

That is the point at which we arrive! After a while, I'm not sure whether it's me or the meds that are making me want to kill myself.

I impulsively OD'd because I hadn't slept for four days. I suspected the Wellbutrin, and I was also taking Gabapentin. (There is your answer.)

Afterwards, I stopped taking all of my psychiatric medications because they made me OD, and I requested acupuncture.

Acupuncture is really effective. I'm down to three medications now.

And here we are..
That's crazy about the OD. I have heard some ppl talk about the impulsiveness piece and like I personally do not need more of that.
It's so interesting I'm literally sitting here about to get acupuncture for the first time rn...
Congrats on being down to 3 meds.
I hope you're doin alright out there and I appreciate you resonating...

As for me I'll probably stop but I guess I was scared stopping would = more suicidal thoughts but we'll see I guess.

The gabapentin also made me fall a couple times and my body did a weird convulsing thing after that's what freaks me out. Also don't like not being able to wake up out of sleep... I'm so sensitive to meds tho and have some trauma stuff with being medicated as a kid so let me just smoke the herbs....