It's crossed my mind, although it's not a frequent thought. Not too long ago I was watching a Netflix crime docuseries and there was an episode where a woman, she was an ex-marine corp, alcoholic and used drugs, anyway, she admitted to putting her suicidal male friend in a headlock and squeezing his neck until he stopped moving, until he was dead.. later she admitted that she just wanted to know what it was like to kill someone with her bare hands, but when I saw that, as disturbing as it is to give someone else that responsibility which would essentially make them a murderer, I wished that I could give someone that responsibility too so I would stop walking away from doing it myself
Yeah, she's a psychopath. Saying that, if I was close to someone and they asked me to do that I would.
Sure but it's pretty pathetic. I was staying at a hotel after becoming homeless after my failed attempt at jumping. I went round a few stores and eventually found a rope that used to tow cars. I also brought a dog lead from pets at home but it was useless too elastic I think. Anyway I jammed the rope between the door and made a noose. I then knelt down but I couldn't pass out. At one stage I think I was quite close but I ended up automatically standing up. It was far from painless. Just felt like my head was going to implode, I got a bad headache, my ears wouldn't stop ringing and I ended up going purple with red marks on my neck. After repeated attempts to pass out I just flopped to the floor and gave up.
Every single failed partial I've heard of (that wasn't aborted due to SI, rope, knot, anchor, found, etc) involved kneeling rather than squatting down and extending the legs like the "just do it" guy.
This is fairly similar to how I felt and I think it may be because we didn't find the sweet spot to compress the carotids.. so if we continued and succeeded I imagine the cause of death would be asphyxia from a crushed trachea rather than hypoxia due to carotid compression.. I'm gonna spend some time later this evening to try and find the right spot on my neck
That's interesting to know. I might just being stupid here but I wonder why kneeling would be less effective. I don't really know a lot about hanging. Jumping was always my preferred method.
That's exactly what it felt like just like trachea was going to collapse. I can'try seem to find the right spot at all.
The idea is to place around 70% of the bodyweight on the noose, in my mind this HAS to compress the carotids (if the weight is average or above, at least), no matter where the noose is placed on the neck (exception maybe if it's too low or of course on one side (
)). Sure, this would compress the trachea as well and will fucking suck as hard as full suspension, I reckon.
Same. I guess it's easier for some and harder for others. If I can't find it, I'm just going to have to try and continue with asphyxia or go ahead with charcoal burning
That would make sense. I wasn't totally kneeling but I still probably didn't put enough weight on it. It was quite a rushed attempt.The idea is to place around 70% of the bodyweight on the noose, in my mind this HAS to compress the carotids (if the weight is average or above, at least), no matter where the noose is placed on the neck (exception maybe if it's too low or of course on one side (
This is why I asked if you touched the ground when kneeling. Since then you'd obviously not be putting a majority of your weight on that noose. And apparently the body can stand up from this position whilst hanging, if the feet are kicked out and the legs extended I can't see this
I just really want some SN but it's proving very hard if not impossible to get.
SN is one of those ideal but not very realistic methods for me so I don't spend too much time thinking about it. I wish you luck getting hold of it if you're trying
I have tried partial and I can't seem to pass that feeling of my head feeling like it's about to explode is there something I am not doing right? The rope is under my jaw line
It's so hard! I am so desperate but I wish I was able to get N instead
I know this sounds terrible but when I see on the news someone was stabbed or even that terrible murder of Sarah, I wish i had taken their place
Do you plan on an certain date?
Do you have to keep pushing even if your head feels like its going to explode?
No I meant when I have tried partial, i have pushed my head towards the floor becuase I was using my bed railing and it's not that high so I have to kneel down
I'm not sure why you are taking this personally? I was just saying How I was trying and the exploding head buisness
Nothing personal about it, wdym? The exploding head comes from getting enough pressure to close jugulars but not enough 4 carotids.
The strength and force on your neck should come from your limp body weight, that means you can't carry any of your weight in your feet or legs because you're taking away the pressure from your neck.. with partial suspension you essentially still need to hang. The only difference is there's no lift, no drop and your body is touching the floor in some form, but not holding, carrying or balancing your weight.
No not yet. I'm too dissociated from a lot of very overwhelming things that are happening atm. I need to get my head straight (well as straight as it can be for me ) first before I attempt again. I failed at hanging because I was being overemotional and frantic. I will also need to book a hotel or find a good tree as I live with other people now I can't die at home. I'm undecided on hanging it's painful and unpleasant.
To be honest, I am not even sure how to do it
Does your family know anything? Do you mind me asking how you failed your hanging attempt
My 'family' know I tried to jump off a cliff as the police informed them and I was sectioned. Hospital kicked me out after a day even tho they knew I was homeless and had nowhere to go. I then stayed at a hotel. I was literally left alone with no support or concern from anyone apart from the odd text from an acquaintance or two. After a week I tried to hang myself. No one knows I tried to hang myself. It doesn't even occur to anyone that I'm still very suicidal. I've been left alone completely. No one sees me, I can't wait to be dead.
