Fucking struggling so badly right now.

[JustSomeWeirdo]

Let me explain what's been going on.

I told all my friends that I'm gonna hang myself in the 24th. Soon. I get banned from the account where I said those things, and I end up chickening out of suicide. Soon. I realize I got mass-reported. And had rumors spread that I'm faking all of this for attention. I couldn't speak back since I got banned. Try to make another account. Got banned AGAIN for making an alt account to avoid being banned. And now my friends lives are ruined due to my supposed "death" and 1 person ACTUALLY KILL THEMSELVES because of it. And many others ashamed and horrified of me because of a stupid reason, "there's no news cases!" No shit that's what they actually said. And said I have no proof EVEN THOUGH I SENT THEM A PHOTO OF THE NOOSE I WAS GONNA USE! WHAT THE FUCK!?!? I've even been told to go to hell multiple times.

And if I somehow come back from the dead to them and say that im alive. They're just gonna say "HA! WE KNEW IT! YOU FUCKING FAKED IT!" and its all MY FAULT! I ruined the lives of so much people. then got mass-report so I couldnt respond! and until a "new case" shows up. They're gonna keep on blaming me!

So it seems I gotta kill myself. Not because I want too. Its because I have too.

help me.

Drew something. I'm terrifed. I have no one to talk to but yall.


Remember me.
It's all I ask if I ever go.
But hey. This is my decision.

 

[lacustra]

What account?

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

What account?

Too scared to even mention it. Just.. Help me find a way to solve this.
Or not, your choice.

 

[alltoomuch2]

Too scared to even mention it. Just.. Help me find a way to solve this.
Or not, your choice.

Can you contact the admin of that site, explain, and ask them to help you let people know,? Or ask someone in rl to announce it on the site

 

[blackbeauty]

Hey,

Sorry you are going through this and that your friends didn't take you seriously. I'm glad you are still here and glad you opened up to us.

Some say you are attention seeking when you mention you are planning to kill yourself and when you do end up taking your life they pretend they didn't see it coming.

Honestly, I don't want you to end your life trying to prove their point. You don't have to do it for them, they don't sound like real friends anyway.

I think you should take a break from whatever platform you set the account up on or stop engaging with those people on that platform.

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

What account?

Can you contact the admin of that site, explain, and ask them to help you let people know,? Or ask someone in rl to announce it on the site

Never tried that. Those admin don't give a flying fuck about their people. Grieving a loss? WHAM! WARNING! gonna kill ya self? (Well honestly I can see that one) WHAM! IP BAN!

 

[alltoomuch2]

Never tried that. Those admin don't give a flying fuck about their people. Grieving a loss? WHAM! WARNING! gonna kill ya self? (Well honestly I can see that one) WHAM! IP BAN!

Even so, won't do any harm maybe?

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

Hey,

Sorry you are going through this and that your friends didn't take you seriously. I'm glad you are still here and glad you opened up to us.

Some say you are attention seeking when you mention you are planning to kill yourself and when you do end up taking your life they pretend they didn't see it coming.

Honestly, I don't want you to end your life trying to prove their point. You don't have to do it for them, they don't sound like real friends anyway.

I think you should take a break from whatever platform you set the account up on or stop engaging with those people on that platform.

Here's another one of their lies, someone said I tried to kill myself *ahem* 6 WHOLE FUCKING TIMES. in reality it's about 2-3. Still ain't good. And said "its getting pretty old now." And OTHERS AGREED! WHAT THE ABSOLUTE SHIT!

Even so, won't do any harm maybe?

Na man that site fucking banned me for good.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

You never have to kill yourself if you don't want to or cannot do it. It's one of the most difficult tasks to achieve. You're banned there you probably don't have contact with your "friends" there - they're not friends anyway imo.

You don't have to kys if you cannot do it just to "please" others or to fulfill their expectations. Yeah, you may have said sth extreme - sometimes we do that. But forget about your friends now - they aren't you're friends.

Why do you "seek attention"? Why are you suicidal? Why do you wanna die?

You'll never be pushed to suicide here bc this is only your personal decision.

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

You never have to kill yourself if you don#t want to or cannot do it. It's one of the most difficult tasks to achieve. You're banned there you probably don't have contact with your "friends" there - they're not friends anyway imo.

You don't have to kys if you're cannot doit just to "please" others or to fullfil their expectations. Yeah, you may have said sth extreme - sometimes we do that. But forget about your friends now - they aren't you're friends.

Why do you "seek attention"? Why are you suicidal? Why do you wanna die?

You'll never be pushed to suicide here bc this is only your personal decision.

Got traumatized multiple times. A friend of mine faked his death on me and blamed me. And the suicidal thoughts just came one day. And stayed.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Got traumatized multiple times. A friend of mine faked his death on me and blamed me. And the suicidal thoughts just came one day. And stayed.

That's really awful and very questionable what your "friend" did. But imo it's not a reason to kys rn. Any impulsive actions often lead to failures and that's certainly not what you want. You can vent here as much as u want and I hope that helps but don't do anything on impulse and especially just to please others or to "fulfill" what you said while you were angry or your were pushed to or whatever. I'm so sorry you have to go through this.

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

That's really awful and very questionable what your "friend" did. But imo it's not a reason to kys rn. Any impulsive actions often lead to failures and that's certainly not what you want. You can vent here as much as u want and I hope that helps but don't do anything on impulse and especially just to please others or to "fulfill" what you said while you were angry or your were pushed to or whatever. I'm so sorry you have to go through this.

Well, could I really say too late? I've tried to kill myself before. Back in September. Tried stabbing myself to death. Before I did. I realized how dumb of a plan that. With this constant fear I'm feeling. And a tendency to get suicidal here and there. Might as well see if I have enough courage to do such an act.