Fuck work

[EmotionlessWanderer]

I dumbly abandoned my previous job at the receiving apartment at Lowe's which is basically a small warehouse. I already stated why in previous posts and I'm not going to explain this stupid long story for the 10th billionth time.

I'm hoping the grocery store nearby I applied as a bagger will hire me. That type of work is just more relaxed and worth it to me. I can do everything on my own and only rely on myself. The managers are less personal and more robotic which makes them way more comfortable to be around.

The supervisor at Lowe's is not a bad dude but way too happy go lucky, social and at times tried to nose in on your personal life like some uncle.

 

[Ashpac]

In order to avoid homelessness, I soon have to work in a nursery home, wiping asses of old people who had a more fulfilling life than I will ever have.

Yep my mother does that job. I did home care for a short period so I know what its like. The shit people do to stay alive and pay bills

 

[EmotionlessWanderer]

Yep my mother does that job. I did home care for a short period so I know what its like. The shit people do to stay alive and pay bills

I haven't worked at any nursing home but what pisses me off the most about them is the fact a lot of the old people are either in a vegetable state or have a condition that makes living worse than death and they are only being kept there alive so family members can feel comfy and emotionally leech off of them as long as possible without having to put any effort themselves into him/her.

 

[Imgonnadie]

Working is the single largest reason I think of ctb. All I can think of is how much I dont want to be there and how much I'm dreading it the day before. Random body itches for no reason (mainly arms), always having the sniffles, and headaches from the heat make it worse. I'm going back to school but I doubt I have the willpower for that

 

[ExitTheDay]

I do oppose to being a wage slave 100% but sometimes I don't even go to work just to make money, I go to escape the everlasting negative thoughts that flood my memory and it really does help out, but again if it gets bad enough for me I just say fuck it and not even go to work

 

[dandan]

I know, I just learned that twenty years ago.... a mate from school went to Cancun and grew rich doing some illegal stuff.... he has now dozens o f car, and a rental agency.....
and me working like a slave,,, im fucked unlesss I do something about it....

 

[LaBrava]

Work has been the source of almost all of my depression and anxiety over the years. I really hate it and the thought that I can probably never retire and would have to go on forever is the primary reason I'm thinking about CTB. Work in the 21st century is especially awful. Working conditions are the worst they've ever been in my lifetime.

 

[Ruffian]

I just failed 2X recently to ctb due to work.

 

[dandan]

yeah, im at the office now, have a meeting in half an hour,
and friend of mine is living the good life, in Cancun
damm it I have to build my own shady business to succeed in "work"

 

[TAW122]

After my temporary job ended a month ago, I felt free, but also at the same time worried about my future because I have to make do with what little savings I have. It sucks to work because you feel drained and your time is already gone, but without work, you don't have the income needed to exist (at least most of us in this world, barring the super rich).

 

[dandan]

fuck, I was going to be a super rich!! and I blew my chance..... damm it.... fucking hating it..... and today my mom comes visit me,,, damm I wish I had millions for her
I'd had couple chances, I fucked up.....
I am alive because I feel I can still work out something, if I couldnt I'd be totally depressed... damm...
but im feeling to much hate and anger, because what I need to be done, I need to do it myself, and acting, getting it together and doing it , its such a task for a guy like me

 

[Imgonnadie]

Work has been the source of almost all of my depression and anxiety over the years. I really hate it and the thought that I can probably never retire and would have to go on forever is the primary reason I'm thinking about CTB. Work in the 21st century is especially awful. Working conditions are the worst they've ever been in my lifetime.

Manual labor?

 

[LaBrava]

Manual labor?

No, never done that.

 

[Xaphous]

I give up job searching now, it's a fucking joke. Not a single response from any of the now over 500 applications since January. Been for one interview in my entire life. What's the fucking point trying anymore?????

Also I was told to go to a CV advisor for her to check my CV, I went there, she told me to email her once I had done what she said and she would look over my CV and see what it was like then. Emailed her over a month ago and she hasn't even bothered to reply. Stupid cunt just adds to my depression and she is employed to help people in my position???

I saw on the programme 'this morning' a guy in his 20's had been for 60 interviews and no one would employ him. Why? because he had no previous experience. FUCK IT I give up now

 

[Alec]

fuck, I was going to be a super rich!! and I blew my chance..... damm it.... fucking hating it..... and today my mom comes visit me,,, damm I wish I had millions for her
I'd had couple chances, I fucked up.....
I am alive because I feel I can still work out something, if I couldnt I'd be totally depressed... damm...
but im feeling to much hate and anger, because what I need to be done, I need to do it myself, and acting, getting it together and doing it , its such a task for a guy like me

You want to do acting? did I read your last post right? That's what I want too

I give up job searching now, it's a fucking joke. Not a single response from any of the now over 500 applications since January. Been for one interview in my entire life. What's the fucking point trying anymore?????

I saw on the programme 'this morning' a guy in his 20's had been for 60 interviews and no one would employ him. Why? because he had no previous experience.

I totally understand you even though it doesn't really help. I'm an immigrant and almost don't have any education and while I can speak the new language I still struggle with it and I'm 22 and because of the immigration process being a real pain in the ass I wasn't able to even be employed before and now that I am I started looking for a job but since I have never worked before I have no experience. And it's HORRIBLE everybody wants people with experience and since I can even speak the language very well my chances are even smaller, and most of my applications get rejected but I have been to some interviews I was hired on any of them. And I'm so desperate now for a job even though I know working will be hell that will make me want to die even more, but I don't want to be a burden on my family's finances (they almost don't have any money, living from paycheck to paycheck and working back braking jobs) and I don't know maybe I could find a job that would absolutely destroy my body because of how physically hard it is but then I would suffer so much more and I don't think I can take it anymore. Every time I just try to think about this all I want to do is close my eyes curl up and die, I don't want anything anymore. I hope it gets better and works out for you though, you deserve it!!!

 

[Alan James]

I live only on the money of my mother and grandmother. I am NEET. I wanted to be an engineer like my grandfather and develop computers and electronics, it would be interesting and enjoyable for me, not do it just for the sake of making money. But my cognitive abilities are dead - I can no longer remember what happened yesterday, my mind is destroyed, very fragmented. I'm useless and cann't do anything, even go to the supermarket has become a problem. I feel like a parasite worm, I literally no longer consider myself as a human being.

 

[Xaphous]

You want to do acting? did I read your last post right? That's what I want too

I totally understand you even though it doesn't really help. I'm an immigrant and almost don't have any education and while I can speak the new language I still struggle with it and I'm 22 and because of the immigration process being a real pain in the ass I wasn't able to even be employed before and now that I am I started looking for a job but since I have never worked before I have no experience. And it's HORRIBLE everybody wants people with experience and since I can even speak the language very well my chances are even smaller, and most of my applications get rejected but I have been to some interviews I was hired on any of them. And I'm so desperate now for a job even though I know working will be hell that will make me want to die even more, but I don't want to be a burden on my family's finances (they almost don't have any money, living from paycheck to paycheck and working back braking jobs) and I don't know maybe I could find a job that would absolutely destroy my body because of how physically hard it is but then I would suffer so much more and I don't think I can take it anymore. Every time I just try to think about this all I want to do is close my eyes curl up and die, I don't want anything anymore. I hope it gets better and works out for you though, you deserve it!!!

I'm a british citizen and lived here all my life, no one is willing to give a chance at all. Even the CV advisor couldn't be bothered to do her OWN JOB and respond to my email. I wish you luck too if you haven't given up like me now.

 

[omoidarui]

I give up job searching now, it's a fucking joke. Not a single response from any of the now over 500 applications since January. Been for one interview in my entire life. What's the fucking point trying anymore?????

Also I was told to go to a CV advisor for her to check my CV, I went there, she told me to email her once I had done what she said and she would look over my CV and see what it was like then. Emailed her over a month ago and she hasn't even bothered to reply. Stupid cunt just adds to my depression and she is employed to help people in my position??

You can get CV advice on forums. If you haven't hadn't a response of 500 it could be that, not just experience.

Yeah it's horrible when nobody replies though

 

[Broken]

I liked my job, but a work place relationship has ruined me. Feel like I've destroyed my career and wasted the last seven years where I work because I'm so miserable now

Quit my job two weeks ago! I wasn't going in anymore. My work were supportive but there was nothing they could do to make me happy at work and I'd finally got to the point where I was going to have to have meetings to discuss what I'd need to do to keep my job. Going to be homeless after tommorow but that don't really matter anymore!

 

[Severen]

I live only on the money of my mother and grandmother. I am NEET. I wanted to be an engineer like my grandfather and develop computers and electronics, it would be interesting and enjoyable for me, not do it just for the sake of making money. But my cognitive abilities are dead - I can no longer remember what happened yesterday, my mind is destroyed, very fragmented. I'm useless and cann't do anything, even go to the supermarket has become a problem. I feel like a parasite worm, I literally no longer consider myself as a human being.

Oh and some zombie automaton who just makes money all his or her life is a human being? Children and teens are parasites. And a lot of them are humans... Rich and wealthy people are parasites as well... I'd say, a small percentage of them are humans...

 

[Weems]

Not tryna brag but I scored in the 99th percentile on a bunch of standardized tests growing up. Including the PSAT (Nat'l Merit Semifinalist) and the verbal side of the GRE.

But I never studied hard. In high school I actually found it funny to scrape by with barely-passing grades. I finally got the urge to learn in college, but I came up with a stupid scheme to do way too much and had a breakdown.

Now I'm 30 and I move people's furniture. The boredom and humiliation never end.

 

[Severen]

Not tryna brag but I scored in the 99th percentile on a bunch of standardized tests growing up. Including the PSAT (Nat'l Merit Semifinalist) and the verbal side of the GRE.

But I never studied hard. In high school I actually found it funny to scrape by with barely-passing grades. I finally got the urge to learn in college, but I came up with a stupid scheme to do way too much and had a breakdown.

Now I'm 30 and I move people's furniture. The boredom and humiliation never end.

Yep, one day you could be King of the world. Then one day, life takes a giant shit on you...and the King has lost his crown.

 

[Username786]

Hypercapitalism is shit for everyone except those at the top. Nobody needs that much money, or deserves it. Let's eat the world's billionaires and divide up their cash so everyone has a roof over their head, food in their belly, and half decent healthcare.

 

[Severen]

Hypercapitalism is shit for everyone except those at the top. Nobody needs that much money, or deserves it. Let's eat the world's billionaires and divide up their cash so everyone has a roof over their head, food in their belly, and half decent healthcare.

The truth is, chasing money beyond a certain point is idiotic. Because money is just the foundation for happiness... Not happiness... And it's not like, the people in power will let you make billions so you actually have power to make a difference in this world... Because they don't want people they don't know, gaining that much power. They aren't going to let some peasant, rise up the ranks, like that.

Hypercapitalism is shit for everyone except those at the top. Nobody needs that much money, or deserves it. Let's eat the world's billionaires and divide up their cash so everyone has a roof over their head, food in their belly, and half decent healthcare.

All they have to do is pay their fair share of taxes and actually start being a team player and a lot of issues would go away...

 

[LMFAO FOCKERS]

Not tryna brag but I scored in the 99th percentile on a bunch of standardized tests growing up. Including the PSAT (Nat'l Merit Semifinalist) and the verbal side of the GRE.

But I never studied hard. In high school I actually found it funny to scrape by with barely-passing grades. I finally got the urge to learn in college, but I came up with a stupid scheme to do way too much and had a breakdown.

Now I'm 30 and I move people's furniture. The boredom and humiliation never end.

You sound like you may be twice exceptional?

 

[Weems]

You sound like you may be twice exceptional?

Aren't we all...

Was a D1 athlete too, but like with everything, I quit. Jesus. I cannot believe what a waste I've made of my life. There weren't even disasters from without. Those would be easier to deal with because they wouldn't come with guilt. I did it all to myself. The option to be weak was there, so I took it. I threw away things of such worth. I threw away the opportunity for beautiful, happy young manhood. My only chance at it for all time.

The emotion is horror, and it is constant.

 

[kolski]

Same. I work 45hrs a week.. and it's legitimately killing me, physically and mentally. Ctb feels like the only way to escape.

 

[PatKat]

I wish I was able to work I have been waiting for a year for SSDI and still havent even received an initial decision. I think they are waiting for me to die so they dont have to help me. It's extremely sad :(

I read an article the other day that over 11k people in the USA alone die each year waiting on disability.

 

[Rex2019]

Aren't we all...

Was a D1 athlete too, but like with everything, I quit. Jesus. I cannot believe what a waste I've made of my life. There weren't even disasters from without. Those would be easier to deal with because they wouldn't come with guilt. I did it all to myself. The option to be weak was there, so I took it. I threw away things of such worth. I threw away the opportunity for beautiful, happy young manhood. My only chance at it for all time.

The emotion is horror, and it is constant.

Isn't this the worst? If you have some sort of disability or if genetics screwed you over, then at least you have something else to blame. But when you had all the right cards but screwed up your life yourself, It's like a hell that never ends. The regret, self-hate and guilt never ends. How do you forgive yourself when you deliberately ruined your life beyond all repair? That is a question for which I am still searching for an answer....

 

[LMFAO FOCKERS]

I wish I was able to work I have been waiting for a year for SSDI and still havent even received an initial decision. I think they are waiting for me to die so they dont have to help me. It's extremely sad :(

I read an article the other day that over 11k people in the USA alone die each year waiting on disability.

You should definitely contact a lawyer. Initial decision should not take more than 5-6 months. Something is awry.

use this to find one in your area with good ratings then check google search to confirm ratings. https://www.avvo.com

It can go alot faster if you gather all your Dr. records and send them in yourself. Not sure of your situation but you may also want to consider starting from scratch and submitting everything as a package.

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