drownll
Student
- Jul 7, 2023
- 134
Fuck this really, haven't eaten for like 3 days, no money, forced to live in a shithole shelter with family members that i hate, the place is infested with roaches...
Unlike my family i'm a cleanliness freak, i really hate it to live in a cluttered, dirty, old, decrepitating, roach infested place, and when i clean they mess it up back in one day. I really miss my appartment. It's driving me crazy. We really have a completely different mentality and way to live but i'm forced to live with them in this shitty place i hate, otherwise it's the streets.
I really want to gtfo, i plan on going to the marine, but I feel weak and i'm scared to fail the tests, if i fail i will have to wait 1 year to reattempt and i can't live 1 more year in this situation, i will ctb for sure if that happens. Also my mom is pressuring me to do attempt the test quick otherwise she kicks me out.
I can't even train properly, i can't eat properly sometimes there is no food at home i'm starving for days.
I really feel miserable and ashamed, being that vulnerable as a 22yo man, having no freedom can't even feed myself... If only it existed a reliable cheap method of ctb.
Unlike my family i'm a cleanliness freak, i really hate it to live in a cluttered, dirty, old, decrepitating, roach infested place, and when i clean they mess it up back in one day. I really miss my appartment. It's driving me crazy. We really have a completely different mentality and way to live but i'm forced to live with them in this shitty place i hate, otherwise it's the streets.
I really want to gtfo, i plan on going to the marine, but I feel weak and i'm scared to fail the tests, if i fail i will have to wait 1 year to reattempt and i can't live 1 more year in this situation, i will ctb for sure if that happens. Also my mom is pressuring me to do attempt the test quick otherwise she kicks me out.
I can't even train properly, i can't eat properly sometimes there is no food at home i'm starving for days.
I really feel miserable and ashamed, being that vulnerable as a 22yo man, having no freedom can't even feed myself... If only it existed a reliable cheap method of ctb.
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