Fuck Suicide is hard

[JamieJambo]

I thought it would be a doddle, but actually I am still here weeks after deciding to go, researching methods... WTF

 

[Jred]

Lol, and people call it the easy way out.

 

[JamieJambo]

Lol, and people call it the easy way out.

I suppose thats what we hope for

 

[°Celsuis_Caesar]

2 words, newbie… Survival Instinct (SI)

But yeah, it sucks

 

[Pencil+Ink]

Yeah, and when you fail you hear of everyone else who was successful and wonder why you were the one who messed up or couldn't find the right method.

 

[lifecouldbedream]

This is why I hate morons who say "If you really wanted to do it, you would've already committed suicide." They don't realize how impossibily difficult it is to take your own life.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suicide really is so difficult, I have not wanted to live for such a long time, yet I am still here. We live in a society that does not respect our right to die and tries to force us to live, so therefore people have to resort to painful and/or risky methods. If it was easier to leave, I would already be gone.

I used to think that suicide was much easier until I started researching it. I envy those with the courage for hanging. We all deserve the option of euthanasia, life is so meaningless after all and we will all die eventually someday. Life is just a pointless experience that we go through for the sake of it, so to me it is wrong to try and force people to live.

 

[Alex6216]

Lol, and people call it the easy way out.

I assume the phrase started in the 60's or earlier so it kind of was the easy way out. Nembutal was easy to get and guns were super easy to get a hold of; These are the only methods you need, everything else is not needed if you have easy access to these two.

This is why I hate morons who say "If you really wanted to do it, you would've already committed suicide." They don't realize how impossibily difficult it is to take your own life.

I had one person say to me "If you really wanted to die you could just slit your wrists with a really sharp knife" Yea thanks genius, it's not like I feel pain or anything especially if sharp objects cut my veinss

 

[Pencil+Ink]

Suicide really is so difficult, I have not wanted to live for such a long time, yet I am still here. We live in a society that does not respect our right to die and tries to force us to live, so therefore people have to resort to painful and/or risky methods. If it was easier to leave, I would already be gone.

I used to think that suicide was much easier until I started researching it. I envy those with the courage for hanging. We all deserve the option of euthanasia, life is so meaningless after all and we will all die eventually someday. Life is just a pointless experience that we go through for the sake of it, so to me it is wrong to try and force people to live.

I've thought, from about age 12, that if there was a button that killed me, instantly, I'd have pressed it there and then.

 

[Painless_end]

Suicide is very difficult. I myself thought I would die from depression many years ago.

I would go to high places and feel like jumping, but the fear of pain held me back tightly.

I was never able to reach a point of pushing past the fear of pain.

I am truly cursed.

 

[JamieJambo]

Suicide is very difficult. I myself thought I would die from depression many years ago.

I would go to high places and feel like jumping, but the fear of pain held me back tightly.

I was never able to reach a point of pushing past the fear of pain.

I am truly cursed.

Im exactly the same... I think okay I am gonna do it... Then when push comes to shove, I'm like "Okay maybe tomorrow" Then I go back to looking for methods again for days

 

[locked*n*loaded]

It is difficult. You have to take steps, if you are serious, to mitigate the SI. That could be as simple as strapping your hands securely behind your back in a way that you can't possibly remove yourself from those straps (the ones like LE uses in place of handcuffs). If you don't think you can kick a chair out from underneath you for hanging, then rig something else to do it for you. I'd say, honestly, that 90% of SI can be dealt with through mitigation. The flip-side of this is if you are successful with good mitigation techniques, then your chance of survival drops to near zero. So, you better be sure before you take those extra steps because there may be no backing out then. This is what mitigation is.

 

[Slimetae]

I think if I had the money for the method I wanted to do it wouldn't be so difficult but my failed ctb wasn't thought out the first time just went in the woods with a rope and failed bc si kicked in will think it out this time

 

[M.i.245541]

The methods with high rate of success seem to be the more violent/painful : drowning, jumping, hanging. Sadly, I'm slowly accepting that I will go that way, in a scary painful way.

 

[its-about-time]

Amen. Shit's hard. And the longer I don't do it, the more of a giant pathetic piece of shit failure I feel like. At this point half my motivation to ctb is just to prove that I'm serious.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Yep. Those that think it's easy, have no idea what they are talking about. It is debatably easier than going on meds and "coping", but what kind of life is that to live?

 

[waitingforrest]

I am also still here despite many reasons why life is getting worse. F**k survival instinct, it is literal programing in my mind to not ctb.

 

[heavilyfatigued]

Yep. Those that think it's easy, have no idea what they are talking about. It is debatably easier than going on meds and "coping", but what kind of life is that to live?

i've been tossed on med after med. right now i'm on 1200 of lithium (along with some others) which people hail as a drug that helps suicidal ideation but here we are - still feel like ass and soon to take the SN train out of this shitsville. you're so correct in what you said.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

i've been tossed on med after med. right now i'm on 1200 of lithium (along with some others) which people hail as a drug that helps suicidal ideation but here we are - still feel like ass and soon to take the SN train out of this shitsville. you're so correct in what you said.

I'm just a very cynical and negative person as people would tell you. Too bad for them that doesn't mean I am wrong.

 

[its-about-time]

i've been tossed on med after med. right now i'm on 1200 of lithium (along with some others) which people hail as a drug that helps suicidal ideation but here we are - still feel like ass and soon to take the SN train out of this shitsville. you're so correct in what you said.

I was on a very heavy lithium dose a couple years back, worked for awhile. After some time they reduced how frequently they were testing my blood. Ended up damn near jumping, back into the hospital I went, turned out I was in the toxic range of lithium which is known to cause suicide instead of reduce the thoughts. People are fucking reckless handing out drugs like candy and not following up closely.

Not that I'm not suicidal anyways, but I blamed the lithium for that one lol.

 

[motel rooms]

The methods with high rate of success seem to be the more violent/painful : drowning, jumping, hanging. Sadly, I'm slowly accepting that I will go that way, in a scary painful way.

Jumping is scary, but it isn't painful at all if you do it from a sufficient height & those who claim otherwise are full of it. Ordinary drowning is just plain dumb.

 

[heavilyfatigued]

I was on a very heavy lithium dose a couple years back, worked for awhile. After some time they reduced how frequently they were testing my blood. Ended up damn near jumping, back into the hospital I went, turned out I was in the toxic range of lithium which is known to cause suicide instead of reduce the thoughts. People are fucking reckless handing out drugs like candy and not following up closely.

Not that I'm not suicidal anyways, but I blamed the lithium for that one lol.

that's an interesting fact I didn't know! i wonder if my new dose is making things worse??? like you said tho, i'm suicidal anyways lol. but it would be pretty funny if it turned out my medication was making things worse again

 

[its-about-time]

that's an interesting fact I didn't know! i wonder if my new dose is making things worse??? like you said tho, i'm suicidal anyways lol. but it would be pretty funny if it turned out my medication was making things worse again

Ask for a blood test. They're supposed to do them pretty regularly anyways. If you're on a new dose they should be testing soon anyways. But like I said, prescribers are reckless and hand out pills without thought of the consequences, so when they don't follow up it's not surprising…

 

[suicidoll]

The human body is truly remarkable in how resistible it is. It seems ironic that people act as if CTB is the easy way out when it's so complex and hard to get right, especially with the stigma and lack of resources.

 

[JamieJambo]

The human body is truly remarkable in how resistible it is. It seems ironic that people act as if CTB is the easy way out when it's so complex and hard to get right, especially with the stigma and lack of resources.

I personally think that if we truly wanted to do it we could. I think we just want to end the pain as opposed to die

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I personally think that if we truly wanted to do it we could. I think we just want to end the pain as opposed to die

I would argue that we want to die by default because it is the lesser of the two evils between that and our current existence, and dying (in most of our cases?) correlates to the pain being stopped.

Also, I think that we don't try (yet), not because we don't want to die. But because we want to die so we want to make sure we get the attempt right.

 

[JamieJambo]

I would argue that we want to die by default because it is the lesser of the two evils between that and our current existence, and dying (in most of our cases?) correlates to the pain being stopped.

Also, I think that we don't try (yet), not because we don't want to die. But because we want to die so we want to make sure we get the attempt right.

Idk I can only speak for myself. I personally don't want to have to be the one to harm myself so bad I die. But there are people who do it, so there must be some who really do want to

 

[suicidoll]

I personally think that if we truly wanted to do it we could. I think we just want to end the pain as opposed to die

That's true. I'm not sure if anybody truly wants to die, but if it ends all of our problems then it seems like the best solution

 

[JamieJambo]

That's true. I'm not sure if anybody truly wants to die, but if it ends all of our problems then it seems like the best solution

Thats it!

 

[WorthlessTrash]

That's true. I'm not sure if anybody truly wants to die, but if it ends all of our problems then it seems like the best solution

Yeah, lesser of the two evils.