Unattainable666
Enlightened
- Mar 31, 2023
- 1,346
2023 has been a shitty year for a lot of people here. I read about the pain and suffering of the members and it quite literally breaks my heart. The people on here (most) are loving, kind, considerate and in so much pain they don't want to live. I am one of them. What a horrible year. I'm so glad it's over. I attempted ctb 3x this year and well obviously I fucked up every time. I quite honestly don't want 2024 to come around for me, but I don't want to die where I live. I had hope for a while, that hope is gone. Too many bad things have happened to me here. I just want to close my eyes and not wake up. It's so unfair that we have to find ways that are painful, scary and horrible to ctb. We should be able to ctb peacefully. Just closing our eyes and not waking up. So, with the new year coming up and being another year older, I do believe this will be my last year. It would be so nice to just close my eyes and not wake up ......