Venting Friends

[eleanorhere]

Anyone else see people with friends and enjoying life? I feel like such an invisible ghost, I have no one, :( made friends online but now even we don't talk much anymore. Have no one in real life. I just spend hours in my room. Sometimes walks with my parents that's about it. I've always had awful anxiety and problems connecting with others. I just feel very disconnected from life and people all the time. And it makes me sad to know I'll always be alone and never be able to enjoy life like others do

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not have any friends, but the way I see it, people can let you down and can cause you pain so it is better to stay away. I cannot relate to or connect to others. I do not understand people who enjoy life, it makes me feel empty seeing them. Overly happy people are so annoying. I am unable to enjoy anything. I have absolutely no life and I stay in the same room all day. I'm sorry you are suffering. I understand that loneliness can be painful.

 

[Darkmoon Queen]

I do but I just.. sort of feel nothing, y'know?

I have a boyfriend and I sit with his friend group. And occasionally it stings that no one is really talking to me (including him) and I'm getting left out of all the jokes and laughs. But then I see how they all REALLY fuck eachother over and realise that their camaraderie is, in practice, meaningless.

Then I had another friend (haven't heard from her for three months so whatever) and her main friend group all lie to each other and one of the couples in that group even started stealing from the others.

They'll all pose together on Instagram for Christmas and birthdays, they'll all take candids of each other and all the other stuff we're meant to want and feel validated by. But beyond that, it's empty.

I'm not saying that's everyone but it makes 'friendship' hard to envy.

 

[mousebot]

Anyone else see people with friends and enjoying life? I feel like such an invisible ghost, I have no one, :( made friends online but now even we don't talk much anymore. Have no one in real life. I just spend hours in my room. Sometimes walks with my parents that's about it. I've always had awful anxiety and problems connecting with others. I just feel very disconnected from life and people all the time. And it makes me sad to know I'll always be alone and never be able to enjoy life like others do

Outside i see people walking and skating and biking with family and friends, laughing and chattering, all the time. Its alien to me. I feel like a ghost in a haunted building staring out onto the living and wondering what its like. I also used to have friends online but they dropped like flies one by one and now that feels like a different reality entirely