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marudekinoumitai
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- Mar 28, 2023
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So I want to CTB. I don't have many responsibilities, and maybe I'm a horrible person, but I'm not too worried about hurting my irl family and the few acquaintances I have. They'll be upset, but I don't feel like I matter all that much, and I'm sure they'll move on.
I'm a lot more worried about my closest friend, who I've never actually met irl. He had a close friend CTB about five years ago and it seems like the experience was very traumatic for him. I can't bring up anything about CTB or my feelings without making him extremely upset, and I think if I actually went through with it, it'd ruin him. I want to end my life, but I don't want to cause so much harm on my way out. Idk what to do I guess.
I'm a lot more worried about my closest friend, who I've never actually met irl. He had a close friend CTB about five years ago and it seems like the experience was very traumatic for him. I can't bring up anything about CTB or my feelings without making him extremely upset, and I think if I actually went through with it, it'd ruin him. I want to end my life, but I don't want to cause so much harm on my way out. Idk what to do I guess.