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dust-in-the-wind

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unluckysadness

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Thanks for sharing. RIP to this young lady.
 
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watching some of her vents (?) posted on youtube and its crazy how much i relate to the stuff shes saying. people really dont notice until its too late. hope shes resting in peace ❤️
 
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Dejected 55

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I'm sure there is a line around the corner of people who "knew" her who jump right to "she's too pretty to die like that." As if it would be okay for an "ugly" girl to kill herself.

Rant engaged... I hate all of these "pageants" and "scholarship competitions" or whatever euphemism they use to parade or encourage parading of young women and young girls around for their looks. Sure, they have "talent" competitions and "questions" and "interviews" and put that lipstick on the pig to make it seem like it isn't about parading women around for the benefit, almost entirely, of men to ogle and fantasize about them.

Yes, I'm a man... but I have always found these things completely distasteful. Young girls and women used and abused, and worse, gaslit into thinking she is in power and is wielding her "strength" to take back control... through parading in a slinky evening dress or prancing in a skimpy bathing suit or performing for men... And you know, these things famously have all manner of men leering and sneaking access to the changing rooms and everyone knows and just accepts it as part of the deal. Why, our current President used to own a pageant and routinely bragged about the access he had to dressing rooms of young girls whenever he wanted. Look that shit up.

Even if a woman thinks she is choosing to participate in this... that she is in charge... she really isn't. What comes of previous "winners" of these things? You almost never hear of any of them again, unless something bad happens... or something tragic like this.

And you know... she probably tried to talk to people around her... family, people she thought were friends, maybe she had a manager or an agent... and those people would almost certainly sat with her, feigned concern, and "prepared" her for whatever next event she was supposed to do... propped her up, medicated her if necessary, and pointed her at the next thing.

She sounds very much like a person who was in pain for a while, tried hard to communicate that with people around her that she thought cared, and one day realized nobody cared, they only cared when she performed... and that day she couldn't take it anymore. That's a person who could have been saved if anyone cared to listen and think of her rather than the performance.
 
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tercermundista

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When I see this kind of news, I wonder if my suicidal thoughts would really go away if I got everything I wanted, and at the same time, I feel jealous and angry at myself for being such a coward. These people have so much more to leave behind and they achieve CTB, while a coward like me continues to fight the survival instinct.
 
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Xiaojiu

Xiaojiu

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RIP to her :( This apparently was her last video ^
 
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dust-in-the-wind

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When I see this kind of news, I wonder if my suicidal thoughts would really go away if I got everything I wanted, and at the same time, I feel jealous and angry at myself for being such a coward. These people have so much more to leave behind and they achieve CTB, while a coward like me continues to fight the survival instinct.
I want for nothing and yet here I am on this website wanting to die every day.. Life has so much pain suffering. I don't know how people cope. I am also a coward and jealous of anyone who CTB.
When I see this kind of news, I wonder if my suicidal thoughts would really go away if I got everything I wanted, and at the same time, I feel jealous and angry at myself for being such a coward. These people have so much more to leave behind and they achieve CTB, while a coward like me continues to fight the survival instinct.
 
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Xiaojiu

Xiaojiu

cease to exist 不复存在
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678
Miss USA Chelsie Kryst also committed suicide by jumping from a tall building

I remember this one when it happened. :( RIP to her.

These suicides shows that no matter how beautiful people can be and what kind of life they have, we don't know what they're going through. I hope they finally find their peace 💜
 
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dust-in-the-wind

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I'm sure there is a line around the corner of people who "knew" her who jump right to "she's too pretty to die like that." As if it would be okay for an "ugly" girl to kill herself.

Rant engaged... I hate all of these "pageants" and "scholarship competitions" or whatever euphemism they use to parade or encourage parading of young women and young girls around for their looks. Sure, they have "talent" competitions and "questions" and "interviews" and put that lipstick on the pig to make it seem like it isn't about parading women around for the benefit, almost entirely, of men to ogle and fantasize about them.

Yes, I'm a man... but I have always found these things completely distasteful. Young girls and women used and abused, and worse, gaslit into thinking she is in power and is wielding her "strength" to take back control... through parading in a slinky evening dress or prancing in a skimpy bathing suit or performing for men... And you know, these things famously have all manner of men leering and sneaking access to the changing rooms and everyone knows and just accepts it as part of the deal. Why, our current President used to own a pageant and routinely bragged about the access he had to dressing rooms of young girls whenever he wanted. Look that shit up.

Even if a woman thinks she is choosing to participate in this... that she is in charge... she really isn't. What comes of previous "winners" of these things? You almost never hear of any of them again, unless something bad happens... or something tragic like this.

And you know... she probably tried to talk to people around her... family, people she thought were friends, maybe she had a manager or an agent... and those people would almost certainly sat with her, feigned concern, and "prepared" her for whatever next event she was supposed to do... propped her up, medicated her if necessary, and pointed her at the next thing.

She sounds very much like a person who was in pain for a while, tried hard to communicate that with people around her that she thought cared, and one day realized nobody cared, they only cared when she performed... and that day she couldn't take it anymore. That's a person who could have been saved if anyone cared to listen and think of her rather than the performance.
You can check out her you tube page for some further insight as to where her head was at. Mostly she thought the world was evil and wicked.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

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rest in peace 🕊️
 
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Dejected 55

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You can check out her you tube page for some further insight as to where her head was at. Mostly she thought the world was evil and wicked.
I'll have to spend some time there when I'm in the right frame of mind. I think when you see the world as it is, and not how you wish it were or how people try to gaslight you into thinking it is... it's hard to unsee it... and if you're a sensitive soul, like it seems she was, it is really tough to deal with that reality.
 
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timeoutdoll

timeoutdoll

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Sep 26, 2025
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You can check out her you tube page for some further insight as to where her head was at. Mostly she thought the world was evil and wicked.
Sounds like she was right.
 
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It really takes a lot of courage. I'm sorry.
 
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dudebl

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I'm sorry for the loss, but I hope she's at peace. I get really envious of the courage she had to go through with it, I can't find that courage she had.
 
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FadingSnowFake

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Such a beautiful girl, she made this video just four days prior. UNPOPULAR OPINION, BUT HEAR ME OUT
She says a lot of what we do here, like:

The world is evil
Life is pointless
We get to choose our death date
Reproduction is selfish
We were born to die
 
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starboy2k

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May 21, 2025
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Such a beautiful girl, she made this video just four days prior. UNPOPULAR OPINION, BUT HEAR ME OUT
She says a lot of what we do here, like:

The world is evil
Life is pointless
We get to choose our death date
Reproduction is selfish
We were born to die
Absolutely. Its annoying how her sentiments would be viewed as "crazy", or "far removed from reality" until you see a dead body behind those same words. No one takes what we on this site or even what she said seriously until they're the ones having to plan our funerals. This world fucking sucks and you can only lie to yourself for so long.
 
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StrawberryBlood

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Jul 17, 2023
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Just because a woman is pretty doesn't mean her life is perfect. Not at all. It's such a tiring misconception. I'm not accusing anyone here of this, just a thought.
Conventionally attractive women, especially in that sort of career, often have a depressing amount of SA experiences throughout their lives.
I hope her soul is resting well.
 
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Xiaojiu

Xiaojiu

cease to exist 不复存在
Mar 28, 2025
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Absolutely. It's annoying how her sentiments would be viewed as "crazy", or "far removed from reality" until you see a dead body behind those same words. No one takes what we on this site or even what she said seriously until they're the ones having to plan our funerals. This world fucking sucks and you can only lie to yourself for so long.
I was saying the other day how life is just all filler until we die lol.
 
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Fresh Soju

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Oct 11, 2020
453
Such a beautiful girl, she made this video just four days prior. UNPOPULAR OPINION, BUT HEAR ME OUT
She says a lot of what we do here, like:

The world is evil
Life is pointless
We get to choose our death date
Reproduction is selfish
We were born to die
Wish I could've given a hug and spoken with her for a long time about life in general.
 
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FadingSnowFake

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Wish I could've given a hug and spoken with her for a long time about life in general.
I was kind of thinking that if she'd found us, maybe she would've stayed a bit to chat, to find that she's not alone.
 
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Left the forum to pursue recovery
Aug 27, 2025
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I'm sure there is a line around the corner of people who "knew" her who jump right to "she's too pretty to die like that." As if it would be okay for an "ugly" girl to kill herself.

Rant engaged... I hate all of these "pageants" and "scholarship competitions" or whatever euphemism they use to parade or encourage parading of young women and young girls around for their looks. Sure, they have "talent" competitions and "questions" and "interviews" and put that lipstick on the pig to make it seem like it isn't about parading women around for the benefit, almost entirely, of men to ogle and fantasize about them.

Yes, I'm a man... but I have always found these things completely distasteful. Young girls and women used and abused, and worse, gaslit into thinking she is in power and is wielding her "strength" to take back control... through parading in a slinky evening dress or prancing in a skimpy bathing suit or performing for men... And you know, these things famously have all manner of men leering and sneaking access to the changing rooms and everyone knows and just accepts it as part of the deal. Why, our current President used to own a pageant and routinely bragged about the access he had to dressing rooms of young girls whenever he wanted. Look that shit up.

Even if a woman thinks she is choosing to participate in this... that she is in charge... she really isn't. What comes of previous "winners" of these things? You almost never hear of any of them again, unless something bad happens... or something tragic like this.

And you know... she probably tried to talk to people around her... family, people she thought were friends, maybe she had a manager or an agent... and those people would almost certainly sat with her, feigned concern, and "prepared" her for whatever next event she was supposed to do... propped her up, medicated her if necessary, and pointed her at the next thing.

She sounds very much like a person who was in pain for a while, tried hard to communicate that with people around her that she thought cared, and one day realized nobody cared, they only cared when she performed... and that day she couldn't take it anymore. That's a person who could have been saved if anyone cared to listen and think of her rather than the performance.
We share a lot of similar philosophies on life.
Beauty pageants, especially ones that involve young children, really sicken me. There's more to a person that how they look.
Then watching them get exploited then discarded by commercialism is even worse.
 
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fallingbehind

Passed down like folk songs
Mar 22, 2025
152
Being a Caribbean person who suffers mentally whatsoever is seen as "demonic". This girl has CTBd yet all the comments (specifically from Caribbean people) are from dumbfuck MORONIC bible-thumpers hooting and hollering about how she fell for Lucifers lies and all the other religious garbage they can spew from their high horse. I can guarantee you everytime she tried to speak about any issues she was having she was brushed off by her peers and told to toughen up.
 
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undo445

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Apr 20, 2025
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When I see this kind of news, I wonder if my suicidal thoughts would really go away if I got everything I wanted, and at the same time, I feel jealous and angry at myself for being such a coward. These people have so much more to leave behind and they achieve CTB, while a coward like me continues to fight the survival instinct.
^^^^^^^
 

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