Here in the UK theres no access to SN or N, so I've tried ligature strangulation and partial hanging and only get the exploding head feeling. cutting is horrible, jumping is even more horrible. There's really no options for a peaceful death. its like I have no choice but to drown myself or cut an artery or jump off a cliff. But finding it in myself to do those things is basically impossible. so I'm stuck in endless suffering. I just don't know how to bring myself to do these things. I know drowning and jumping would only be a few minutes of absolute unimaginable suffering and terror. Compared to months of the suffering I already have
Trisolaris
Arcanist
- Dec 11, 2018
- 447
I know how you feel, in the same boat.
CO is very available, and fairly peaceful.
GenesAndEnvironment
Autistic loser
- Jan 26, 2021
- 5,739
Don't forget about the tried and true full suspension!
Agree, but that is still at least somewhat violent. Breathing in co from a charcoal grill - you just get dizzy and eventually pass out. Hopefully you don't wake up with co poisoning and brain damage.
I can't even do that because I live with my parents and theres no suspension points. (I'm 29 yo btw)
Co is doable in a car or tent. Are you not allowed to leave the house by yourself?
Im also on the same boat , I'm also suffering in all directions and there's nothing i can do about it , if I continue living I'll be suffering , and I'm too scared to die as well , and the only option I have are also scary methods like jumping or hanging, whatever I do I'll be suffering, I feel like even if I manage to ctb still I'll be suffering, because I believe in rebirth , and they have put thoughts in my head that if I commit suicide I'll get a bad rebirth , as in I will be born in a worst place than this life but I dunno what could be worse than the life I'm living right now , I cant imagine anything worse than what I'm going through right now
GenesAndEnvironment
Autistic loser
- Jan 26, 2021
- 5,739
siray
the crucified
- Dec 28, 2018
- 181
@Benjamin collyer
Who says jumping is painful for minutes? If one chooses a building over 15 stories and lands on concrete, it's almost immediate unconsciousness.
I love this method because of the certainty of death. I can deal with extreme agitation when I'm about to make the jump, what I absolutely cannot deal with is the possibility of me surviving the attempt.
Who says jumping is painful for minutes? If one chooses a building over 15 stories and lands on concrete, it's almost immediate unconsciousness.
I love this method because of the certainty of death. I can deal with extreme agitation when I'm about to make the jump, what I absolutely cannot deal with is the possibility of me surviving the attempt.
I can leave the house yeah. The trouble is finding somewhere to pitch my tent where I won't be found. As any extended stay out of the house would attract the attention of my loved ones and therefore the police. And I've spent 12 weeks in psych ward since September so I'm not looking to go back there. the CO method sounds to good to be true to me but also very promising
Same happens to me here in Argentina!
Leaving this world is extremely hard! :(
Leaving this world is extremely hard! :(
profoundexperience
You can feel the punishment but you cant commit ts
- Jun 29, 2020
- 436
This happens because veins compress much more readily than arteries = blood keeps going in, but can't get back out.
The solution is one must get things tight enough to also compress the arteries... as rapidly as possible.
Hey, sorry if that came across as disrespectful. I was asking because some ss members are in situations where they can't get out of the house, or be alone for any amount of time.
Sounds like you do have the freedom and ability to get out on your own. Just be careful, as I'm sure you are under close scrutiny. It wouldn't take much to raise your parents' suspicions.
People who live in Europe have much easier access to suicide boutiques in Switzerland, the Netherlands and Belgium. the one in Switzerland costs a lot of money. not sure about the others.
Thegoldenapples
Specialist
- Aug 12, 2020
- 349
Maybe you could tell your parents you're going on a weekend trip, rent a place with a fireplace for a day and do it there?
I'm living in europe in a biggish city and I slept in forests in and around the town and never encountered people at night, so I guess it would still be weird to do it there, but possible without meeting people.
How would one actually do it in a tent? fire up a grill? how would one make sure that one doesn't set the tent on fire or when becoming uncouncious falling onto the grill? tents are usually small :D
I'm living in europe in a biggish city and I slept in forests in and around the town and never encountered people at night, so I guess it would still be weird to do it there, but possible without meeting people.
How would one actually do it in a tent? fire up a grill? how would one make sure that one doesn't set the tent on fire or when becoming uncouncious falling onto the grill? tents are usually small :D
siray
the crucified
- Dec 28, 2018
- 181
You slept in forests? Amazing! Can you give me advice? It will save me hotel cost. In my country there are hundreds of lush green forests and mountains (south asia).
I myself have decided to roam alone in the northern areas of my country, I have been feeling so miserably suicidal that I don't care anymore if I enrage my parents at this decision of mine, I'm abandoning everything one way or the other.
On the bright side, doing CTB hundreds of kilometres away from home feels soothing, it will spare my parents the sight of gruesome corpse of their firstborn.
To the OP, one has to allow oneself the fear of death and the extreme agitation of survival instinct, and weigh all this against the hurt one might cause one's family. For instance, I often go to the rooftop of a 25 story building right besides my residence, and I contemplate the final jump, it will be certain death as there is hard concrete below. I keep the sight of my dead body clear in my mind and think about every person in my life who will be affected by the sight of this corpse.
And then I think about a roundabout way of CTB, that of abandoning my family and living in the cold climate of mountains for a while, just to plan my CTB.
Now, unless I've actually reached that place, I cannot predict my state of mind there as compared to here with my family (my family depresses me extremely).
I hope I have been able to explain myself, sorry for the long paragraph.
Tl;DR : Death promises eternal non existence, neverending deep sleep without dreams, it's promised. Forever will you be unharmed in the void. Might as well give yourself some peaceful solitude away from parents for a while. Who knows, you might even figure out a palliative to your problem (I hate to sound like an optimist).
Charcoal doesn't produce a flame once it's lit. I would set up the grill outside of the tent, light it and let the charcoal smoulder, then bring it inside the tent.
To be clear, you're supposed to wait until the charcoal has completely burned and turned white before bringing it into the enclosed space.
sure what do you want to know? :D
Still one has to be careful. If the coal is near enough to the actual tent, the tent might melt or catch fire. If one passes out one might fall into the coal. If you sit and pass out one might lean against the tent wall, bringing the whole tent around: coal is on the floor and starts fire or might land on you.
Solution:
-securing tent properly
-putting coal away from walls/insulate (say put coal in sturdy pot on top of a wooden board)
-lay down before passing out so you won't fall accidentelly
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