Discussion for those who have attempted and failed what did you do that day?

[thronesick]

im curious to know what people did or would do on their final day.

my first and only attempt was in sixth grade i took a shit load of migraine pills throughout the school day it was literally falling out my pocket i just had hoped to go to sleep forever. it was more so impulsive i didn't think it through make a note or anything compared to now. id probably linger longer with loved ones when talking to them and leave a note in their drawer. that day would probably feel so surreal (only 2 weeks from now) where i'm just hyper focusing on the world before i cease to exist. honestly i feel like i'd listen to music as i ctb. gotta take it with me haha

 

[ropeburns&migranes]

A few hours before my attempt I went out to eat at a new Thai restaurant with my mom. A few minutes before my attempt I went out to buy a small pack of chips to eat with my pills (my method of choice at the time unfortunately). The day was overall just uneventful. The only reason I remember going to that restaurant with my mom was because after I woke up in the hospital my mom told me she thought she did something while we were eating there to warrant my attempt and if there was anything she could have done to prevent it. I remember feeling really bad after that. Like she thought a singular action could have caused or prevented my attempt.

 

[requiemforadream]

I woke up, went to an escort, eat an kebab, went to mental facility for seeking help, they rejected me, I went for a bridge, smoked a cigarette and jumped.

 

[soapgoat]

I called my mom and made sure to say I love a lot at the end of the call and wrote notes to all my familly and text messages to my friends. I think I played soccer that day but can't remember too well. I read part of my Bible and then I left my notes and my journals on my bed and made my bed. I snuck out to a hiking trail and took a bunch of aleve which is a blood thinner so I could cut easier. The knives were dull and I couldn't get deep so I gave up and went around town at like 4 am. The next night I snuck out again and tried to jump but I couldn't do it. I was really wet from rain and looked disheveled so I skipped school and tried again at like 6 pm but a cop saw me right before I would jump so I ran home. I went with my day normally after that but my parents were upset I skipped.

I woke up, went to an escort, eat an kebab, went to mental facility for seeking help, they rejected me, I went for a bridge, smoked a cigarette and jumped.

what happened after you jumped? Did someone find you or did you have to calm an ambulance and how bad were your injuries.

 

[Namelesa]

Nothing particular special with any of my attempts as I don't plan to ctb on certain dates. My day goes normally but either built up mental pain gets too much or something triggers me to want to attempt it.

 

[requiemforadream]

I called my mom and made sure to say I love a lot at the end of the call and wrote notes to all my familly and text messages to my friends. I think I played soccer that day but can't remember too well. I read part of my Bible and then I left my notes and my journals on my bed and made my bed. I snuck out to a hiking trail and took a bunch of aleve which is a blood thinner so I could cut easier. The knives were dull and I couldn't get deep so I gave up and went around town at like 4 am. The next night I snuck out again and tried to jump but I couldn't do it. I was really wet from rain and looked disheveled so I skipped school and tried again at like 6 pm but a cop saw me right before I would jump so I ran home. I went with my day normally after that but my parents were upset I skipped.

what happened after you jumped? Did someone find you or did you have to calm an ambulance and how bad were your injuries.

The coast guard, police and ambulance arrived. I broke my spine, lumbar vertebrae, ribs and pelvis. I spent two days in the hospital undergoing procedures that saved my life and then a week in a psychiatric hospital. For the next few months I couldn't walk and had to wear a brace.

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

I was fat and too scared and I didn't have enough materials to gather in time and was vomitting because I ate that day when I shouldn't have for my last meal some acidic pineapple. also, melontonin in the past. Wasn't the best but thought it was smart then... Honestly, maybe the method just wasn't the right one for me... Oh, and lack of money and lack of resources and a car to slam myself to a bridge and not survive or to a wall, gun to kms and ctb, and too much stress and worrying everyday... and yeah, just need to know what properly works I guess

 

[StarCaller'sStaff]

The coast guard, police and ambulance arrived. I broke my spine, lumbar vertebrae, ribs and pelvis. I spent two days in the hospital undergoing procedures that saved my life and then a week in a psychiatric hospital. For the next few months I couldn't walk and had to wear a brace.View attachment 157976

I'm so sorry that your attempt did not go the way you planned, but at the same time I am very grateful that you survived. The location you chose is beautiful. I wish you the best

 

[diy-event]

im curious to know what people did or would do on their final day.

my first and only attempt was in sixth grade i took a shit load of migraine pills throughout the school day it was literally falling out my pocket i just had hoped to go to sleep forever. it was more so impulsive i didn't think it through make a note or anything compared to now. id probably linger longer with loved ones when talking to them and leave a note in their drawer. that day would probably feel so surreal (only 2 weeks from now) where i'm just hyper focusing on the world before i cease to exist. honestly i feel like i'd listen to music as i ctb. gotta take it with me haha

I just lay in bed getting up the nerve to hang myself. I moved from my bed to the noose in less than 5 minutes and I was hanging. If the anchor did give way I wouldn't be here

 

[BriocheAlien]

Failed overdose. Thought i was doing better mentally but now I'm back here on this forum.