Discussion for those who has attempted ctb, how long did it take to go from thinking about ctb to actually attempting ctb

[Donk]

im thinking about ctb but im too scare. just wondering how long before i cant take the suffering no more and the urge of ctb overrides the fear?

 

[SurDeath]

When your content with death and have method ( mine is partial suspension) that's when you'll start trying your method of choice and when your comfortable with it you'll know your ready. But SI will kick in and you'll have to overcome it. I'm at the stage of working over SI a little more each try matter of time to success.

 

[HereToday]

Everyone is different. For me it was 2 weeks. Sadly still here though. But there's no set time limit on how long you'll be suicidal before ctb

 

[MysticPerception]

Depends on you really. It took me about 6 years to finally make a real attempt instead of just thinking about it all the time. But that's because I was in denial and thought I could turn things around or was just too afraid. When I finally did it it was because I was worn out and angry and at my wit's end it was very impulsive. 3 years later and I'm finally planning my next attempt and it will not be impulsive at all.

 

[SurDeath]

Depends on you really. It took me about 6 years to finally make a real attempt instead of just thinking about it all the time. But that's because I was in denial and thought I could turn things around or was just too afraid. When I finally did it it was because I was worn out and angry and at my wit's end it was very impulsive. 3 years later and I'm finally planning my next attempt and it will not be impulsive at all.

That's where I'm at. Not impulse move but ready. Working though SI a little more each try

 

[TheEndof]

I've been thinking about it for years and years. However, for the most part I had always been able to keep myself from any real attempts. It took something very soul crushing to happen to me for me to make an attempt. It wasn't very thought out because I was in such desperation. That was at least a decade in. I am planning to try again and I have what I need. So, I guess it depends on you and how long you can take the suffering or you can convince yourself things will improve. Maybe how many glimpses of hope life gives you, how much you feel you can keep trying. I'm at the point where no glimpse of hope can override all the awfulness of this life. It's become too much and I know there's nothing left for me in the long term.

 

[Mizzmini45]

It just happened idk. One day you just wake up and it's that day

 

[hatelife]

for me it was impulsive both times, had been suicidal since about 18, and 2-3 years ago attempted but that wasnt planned and with medicine that did not kill, I had no idea about how to kill myself back then but felt as much pain as some months ago and whole last year, anyways my thing is I dont like to plan too much because it gets the anxiety to go way up, I plan but a bit like buy the things to have just in case and I wrote suicide note and stuff like that, then when im impulsive and cant take it anymore I get this motivation in my mind to "lets try if this will work this time" like SN as example my next thing, last thing was Amitriptyline.

 

[revenge88]

If someone makes me mad enough

 

[FogFilledLife]

Few days.

 

[eve2004]

I may have used up too much of the "stuff" I plan to use, and not have enough left to do the job... But I'm at the point of welcoming any trigger that will make me impulsive enough to attempt.

 

[Glowarm]

I'm not sure how long I thought about it before I tried. Just one day I couldn't think of any reasons not to.

 

[missingpeace]

It's dependent on the situation whether you have reasons to make it better or if it will get worse. I know my life is going downhill like a snowball so I have made the rational decision to go out asap. I don't want to wait for more time.

 

[Lifeless mindset]

It took me months of research, planning, and procrastinating to finally make an attempt. Most of it was just me laying here being depressed and scrolling through SS wishing I was dead. First attempt was tourniquet method. Second attempt was suffocation. Third was jumping but something happened and I couldn't go through with my attempt. I have SN but that's a last resort kind of thing.

 

[BasqueClown]

Seven years.
I have the first serious suicidal thoughts at 16 years old and attempting at 23.