Discussion for those that will depart soon: how have you been spending time?

[ecmnesia]

specially if your schedule day is within this and next week.

i can't really distract myself with anything and my preparations are almost complete (just finishing the letter).

i am really anxious to depart, tbh.

anyway. if that's your case and you want to chat, please message me :)

 

[Hyperbunny]

when are u due to ctb

 

[ecmnesia]

when are u due to ctb

this saturday i hope

 

[Wayfaerer]

I've been in this state since may of last year. I've been self-medicating and playing games or watching movies. Drug tolerance has been inhibiting me from fully enjoying those things sadly. Plan is either in december if I'm unlucky or if I'm lucky possibly until April. I'm definitely sure that it won't go on beyond that, no f'ing way.

 

[Gromit-CTB]

Suppose it's worse knowing a day and waiting. I'm waiting on supplies once it arrives will be gone asap.

 

[yive]

i listened to my favorite music and thought about the abomination of life as a phenomenon. and also dreaming about the scenarios of events in the afterlife ×_×

 

[Nyxtus]

I've been trying to keep myself occupied with video games and alcohol, movies and even anime. I've also hit the gym since it re-opened (used to be my largest pleasure in life). Unfortunately thanks to the way my anxiety works, every hour feels like forever and I can't enjoy anything I do at all. I wish there was a way to turn your brain off besides CTB

 

[mattf72]

I've been so depressed all I can do it watch Netflix and play on my phone. I'm so messed up from a chronic illness I can't get intoxicated by weed or alcohol or anything but benzos, and those are expensive at the doses I need to get intoxicated, so I've just been existing. I'm trying to find the most full proof painless way to go, but I want to go as soon as possible. If I could go now I would, I'm just too much of a baby to endure any pain before hand, and am so depressed I'm having trouble putting effort into putting together an effective method.'I've considered SN but that takes so long. I've been looking into the "nighty night" method for sure. But recently I've just been watching "better call saul" because I just finished breaking bad . Netflix and my phone is all I have the energy to do.

 

[OopsIdidntwanttodie]

Spending time with my little sister and dogs, working so I have money to leave behind, finishing up the semester for school, reading and watching youtube videos. It's tough. I'm dying and life goes on. When I really am dead, it continues like this. There's a sense of peace as well as a sense of saddness, but to me it won't matter when i'm gone. Everything that I do now and have done means nothing.

 

[sadworld]

Having an exact date planned, several week in advance is really stressful for me and I don't have any privacy right now so I couldn't even ctb if I wanted to...

 

[Gsz1982]

I decided to put my impossible problems and trauma to one side. They are irrelevant now and I'm going to be kind to myself for a few weeks then CTB.

 

[Pookie]

I've been so depressed all I can do it watch Netflix and play on my phone. I'm so messed up from a chronic illness I can't get intoxicated by weed or alcohol or anything but benzos, and those are expensive at the doses I need to get intoxicated, so I've just been existing. I'm trying to find the most full proof painless way to go, but I want to go as soon as possible. If I could go now I would, I'm just too much of a baby to endure any pain before hand, and am so depressed I'm having trouble putting effort into putting together an effective method.'I've considered SN but that takes so long. I've been looking into the "nighty night" method for sure. But recently I've just been watching "better call saul" because I just finished breaking bad . Netflix and my phone is all I have the energy to do.

Sorry to hear. How long have you been dealing with your chronic illness? Is there no chance of recovery?

 

[NodusTollens]

i listened to my favorite music and thought about the abomination of life as a phenomenon. and also dreaming about the scenarios of events in the afterlife ×_×

I started doing this recently, kind of reminiscing about how I'll feel on d I'm gone.

 

[mattf72]

My whole life but

Sorry to hear. How long have you been dealing with your chronic illness? Is there no chance of recovery?

My whole life but it got significantly worse the last 3 years. It has to be treated be a special non conventional doctor that knows what their doing and unfortunately I can't afford one right now.
One of the main reasons I'm considering leaving this world is financial problems . I'm under water bad .