Discussion for those not consciously/overtly suicidal: do you sometimes feel like you might be subconsciously?

[Wizard32]

Like sometimes I engage in behaviors I know not to be healthy or safe, such as drinking too much caffeine or walking in dark places at night.

Is it possible that some part of my psyche is wanting me to be harmed or even die?

 

[TheRaul95]

Similiarly ye, like things that we enjoy have good and bad side...