Discussion For people who believe in God, how are you dealing with all of this?

[ChildrensITV]

1. What do you think will happen to you after you CTB? Hell or nothingness?

2. Have you accepted that God isn't going to stop you from CTB, and isn't going to fix your problems?

3. How do you feel about God. How is your relationship with him?

I'll go:

1. Nothingness, but I am sure there will be some kind of letting me know that I did wrong, e.g. maybe i wake up on Judgment Day to hear how I should have done better, then back to nothingness.

2. About 20 years a go, yes.

3. I used to be religious. Now I try not to think about God so much cuz it would either result in asking "Why me?" flutily, or blaspheming, which I try not to do. Funny huh? I don't want to offend God with words but I am willing to CTB.

 

[Xiaomi]

1. I DONT MEAN TO SOUND LIKE ENTITILED BUT... I feel we deserve some quality rest after all this shit we been through. Either a reincarnation in a good body OR NOTHINGNESS DEPENDS
2. Three ways I see it: either we go through it or we recover or god already has this planned. IF GOD REALLY IS GOD (KNOWING END AND BEGINNING), then we got fucked over because he knew form the beginning we were going to suicide
3. Im not aetheist I believe in something, just think its unfair how we were put here to suffer

 

[tiredangelgirl]

I want to start off that I no longer believe in a CHRISTIAN god but I do believe in some type of source energy. I grew up really strict catholic, and religion still interests me a lot to this day.

1) part of me thinks nothingness. even when I believed in god, I didn't believe in heaven or hell. now sometimes I think our soul becomes kinda like a blob of energy and it goes on to do something else. after I ctb, I think my energy blob might float around for a while in some other realm and then maybe come back to earth reincarnated as something else. I do 1000% believe in reincarnation but I know that's an uncommon belief! just theories here. I don't think we have any recollections of past lives until we're that energy orb again and it all comes back to us temporarily until we start a new life and it's a never ending cycle etc. I can go on and on about my thoughts towards this, but regardless, nothing I believe affects my choice to ctb. it's out of my control and we won't know until it happens anyways.

2) this question is a main reason I stopped believing in a catholic god when I was younger. I got super strong empathy pains not just for people around me but people starving and dying in other places. like I was a little kid staying awake at night thinking about this and thinking how there's absolutely no god who would do these horrible things and then dictate and try to boss people around how to live. the world is too unfair and hard to live any certain type of way.

3) sometimes I still think about him how I did when I was a kid. I felt so close to him, almost like he was a real person. I could talk to him about whatever and he would constantly show me signs he was real. now i'm past rhat, I feel like too much bad shit has happened. I feel like things are still connected, and there's something bigger going on than any of us realize. but I don't believe it is an all powerful man who is watching us from above. I have had amazing small miracles happen right after i've asked the past few years, but it doesn't feel like "god." more so a reaction of good karma or love.

sorry this was so long, I can't sleep and these were good questions

 

[SentimentalTrip]

1. I no longer believe in the afterlife, but I still believe in God.
2. I have accepted God is not going to help me and that's why I no longer pray.
3. I completely agree with you, I am willing to CTB but I am not willing to blaspheme. Honestly. I have grown very resentful and angry at God. I have begged for years for him to make the pain stop. He is all-powerful, yet he refuses to put an end to my depression.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

1. I have no idea what's going to happen, but I hope it will be nothingness. If it it's necessary to continue existing, then I agree with Abigail - reincarnation in a better body would be great.

2. I've accepted that if there is a god, it's up to me to either end my life or try fixing whatever problems I have. I wouldn't want them to stop me or try to help anyway, because there would be a catch to it.

3. God and I went no contact a long time ago. I kept in touch far longer than he did (which was never), so now I don't even bother calling.

 

[LastLook]

If God is good and compassionate. He will lovingly accept all those people even if they kill themsevles.

If God doesnt exists. We just become another form of matter. Nothingness or no memory of past life. IE: the atoms from your body will be integrated in a cell of a bacteria or tree.

If God is just. People who died from suicide will be judge accordingly by all of their actions, not just their suicide. Its unjust to damn a good soul who's major sin is to commit suicide.

If God is vengeful. We are all sinners and we will be punished.

If God is evil. We are all damned.

1. I believe in a compassionate and just God.

2. Almost all religion values the afterlife more than this earthly life. The promise of salvation is for the soul, not for the body. But personally, Id rather see God save others than me. For example, suicidal kids or kids with terminal disease.

3. I dont pray, i usually dont ask for anything. But i dont hate God. My problems didnt came from Him.

 

[RichardFirst]

I believe in God, but I have no idea what happens when we expire. The scientific side of me would simply say that it's oblivion, and if that's the case, then there's nothing to worry about.

I rather hope that death is like an endless lucid dream.

 

[MrShino]

1) We go to a better place. Heaven/The Spiritual Word/Our Home. For me this is almost completely certain. CTB or not, does not matter.
2) Kind of. Sometimes. But I will never abandon hope, and I know that there is always a chance of a miraculous event that changes everything. Do I expect it? Not really. But it could happen.
3) I believe and think I always will. I mean, why wouldn't I? Why give up hope that no matter what has happened, there is One who can make everything good? What's the alternative? Existential nihilism? That would be meaningless.

 

[apple2myeye!]

because the God i "believe in" can only be found inward and is the only "god" i've known that actually loves its babies and doesn't murder and crush them every day like something out of this raging hell cubicle universe! I was so stupid for believing any semblance of truth about God could be found in the dimensional plane created by satan

1. Ddepends on if i make the right set of steps after i leave

2. i know God cannot interact with satan shitfukc farm at all due to it not being God's creation so i dont mind that much

3. I love God so much my "relationship" with God is very very good and nice if im using the right definition. God is always there for me i think. But i would not necessarily call God a man or anythignh of the sort.

Sorry

 

[MoonlitNight]

1. What do you think will happen to you after you CTB? Hell or nothingness?

2. Have you accepted that God isn't going to stop you from CTB, and isn't going to fix your problems?

3. How do you feel about God. How is your relationship with him?

I'll go:

1. Nothingness, but I am sure there will be some kind of letting me know that I did wrong, e.g. maybe i wake up on Judgment Day to hear how I should have done better, then back to nothingness.

2. About 20 years a go, yes.

3. I used to be religious. Now I try not to think about God so much cuz it would either result in asking "Why me?" flutily, or blaspheming, which I try not to do. Funny huh? I don't want to offend God with words but I am willing to CTB.

1. Hell or heaven. It's the only thought keeping me from CTB currently.

2. I've done a lot in life. I don't think God wants to help me with the path i chose. But yes the thought of hell is very effective from keeping me from ctb.

3. I know that God has mercy a majority of the time. But according to my very 'dedicated' Christian parents. I've done everything wrong. So i feel like God will dislike me which is why i often don't have faith in my prayers. Just a tiny ray of hope.

 

[MrShino]

1. Hell or heaven. It's the only thought keeping me from CTB currently.

2. I've done a lot in life. I don't think God wants to help me with the path i chose. But yes the thought of hell is very effective from keeping me from ctb.

3. I know that God has mercy a majority of the time. But according to my very 'dedicated' Christian parents. I've done everything wrong. So i feel like God will dislike me which is why i often don't have faith in my prayers. Just a tiny ray of hope.

I'm just constantly surprised by this. If your parents really were Christians, they would know the Scripture that states that we are all sinners and being justified by the sacrifice of Jesus alone. It is what it says. Done everything wrong or not, if you turn to God, He will forgive you. Just remember the story about the thief on the cross, he had nothing to show for, but was still invited to Paradise for believing in Jesus. If the Scripture is not true, then neither is the traditional belief in the church about the afterlife, so - in other words, no problem. There could still be an afterlife, though. Just not in a Christian sense.

 

[Challu]

1. When I die, I will sleep until I am resurrected or I get to go into the presence of God immediately. Either sounds nice.

2. Yes. It's become clearer, even. All I want is to know my purpose while I'm on Earth and I'm seeing now that people don't have a specific purpose.. they just do what they want. So.. if my choices are ctb or live here for another 50 years... well.. ya know.

3. I love God and believe in the work his death accomplished for all mankind. It is; however, extremely difficult to reconcile the idea of eternal conscious torment as a punishment. I no longer believe that, as I am now a Christian Universalist, but it definitely gave me a bad picture of God for many years.

 

[ChildrensITV]

1. I no longer believe in the afterlife, but I still believe in God.
2. I have accepted God is not going to help me and that's why I no longer pray.
3. I completely agree with you, I am willing to CTB but I am not willing to blaspheme. Honestly. I have grown very resentful and angry at God. I have begged for years for him to make the pain stop. He is all-powerful, yet he refuses to put an end to my depression.

Re: 3. I feel you there. Today it dawned on me: God sees that you are suffering so much that you are willing to kill yourself. And for killing yourself, he will punish you (possibly). It seems rather unfair when you think that your nextdoor neighbour (for example) or facebook friend from school got a great job, bought his house, has a wife and well-behaved smart kids, visit the in-laws every month, goes on holiday regularly, enough money in the bank account, good relationships allround, well-respected, goodlooking, etc, and suicide hasn't gone thrrough his mind ONCE, yet BOTH OF YOU are judged on suicidality. It seems really unfair.

 

[sorrow_sparrow]

Born and raised in religious community and religious family

1. I believe there is the afterlife, but is it heaven or hell concept ? I don't know, I don't want to believe the concept, but how the worst evil person will be punished if there is no hell or heaven? do we still have to do something good? since there is no heaven... still big question on my head, but I do believe that god have their own perspective about sin, and their own concept for my question...... but I don't believe in religion at all :)

2. God doesn't care a shit, there is so much unfairness and misery in this world but God just there to judge, they gave me my shitty life and they just watch... but mother earth is good, she gave me my cat to company me get trough this

3. He definitely hates me, and I hate him so, its not our healthy relation lol, they and I are just in bad relationship right now, its just transactional between us

just my opinion, be kind :D
PS : I use adj God=them (nonbinary)

 

[LookAway]

Peace be with you my friend.

 

[Pancake]

1. I don't know. I think about it a lot but I can't come to a conclusion on what to believe. I keep hoping after I die I'll be reincarnated into a peaceful life. I think it would also be fine if there was nothing, simply ceasing to exist. If I CTB and have to face his judgement, I hope he'll punish me. Maybe he'll punish me for ending my own life or things I did in my lifetime.

2. Yes. I constantly wish he would assist me in my death, but I realize that would be cruel. It doesn't feel right, asking him for death.

3. I fear him. I'm not scared of him, I fear him. I think the word I'm looking for is 'respect' but it doesn't fit as well as fear. I don't want to offend him. I want to be good in his eyes and have his acceptance. That is, if he exists. I don't hate him. I don't blame him for anything. I've done nothing to deserve everything he's given me in this life. I'm utterly grateful. But I have nothing to give in return.

 

[hellispink]

1- i dont think hell even exists. God knows our suffering if anything and he will forgive those who left in pain .
2- i never expected him to save me. I am helpless.
3- i am pretty sure he is disappointed with this creation called humans. I think he just abandoned us because we are rotten and evil and he is all his right to do so.

 

[treasurehunt]

1. What do you think will happen to you after you CTB? Hell or nothingness?

2. Have you accepted that God isn't going to stop you from CTB, and isn't going to fix your problems?

3. How do you feel about God. How is your relationship with him?

I'll go:

1. Nothingness, but I am sure there will be some kind of letting me know that I did wrong, e.g. maybe i wake up on Judgment Day to hear how I should have done better, then back to nothingness.

2. About 20 years a go, yes.

3. I used to be religious. Now I try not to think about God so much cuz it would either result in asking "Why me?" flutily, or blaspheming, which I try not to do. Funny huh? I don't want to offend God with words but I am willing to CTB.

I believe in God.
1. Definitely hell. I am not a good person and ctb is definitely a big sin. It's literally the only reason why i haven't ctb yet. Hell freak the fuck outta me
2. Yep. And it's literally no one's fault, not even God's. Only I can stop this.
3. I am not religious but I believe God and his power over me. I don't really ask Him much, I don't pray because i feel like an embarrassment lol.

 

[roygbiv]

1. I believe I will go to heaven if I CTB. I'm not necessarily trying to get into heaven faster if I ctb, but I still believe that I will go to heaven. It is not by my deeds or really anything that I think I'll go into heaven. It is the fact that I truly believe in my God. (Christian God). If I do not go to heaven I will go to hell, and I am okay with that, because it is what I deserve if I do.
2. Not quite, I've had a couple "near death" experiences, but I haven't been able to actually get close. I feel invincible and therefore have not fully accepted that God isn't going to stop me. I do think that God won't fix my problems in a miracle type of way. Yet, I firmly believe if I wanted to live God would help solve my problems. I feel like I'm more in a position where I don't need any fixes to my problems.
3. I love God, with my whole heart. I'm not the best Christian, but I believe in him. My relationship is similar to a young teen with their parent. A little rocky, but there is still a lot of love.

I hope this helps. If you want to further discuss this let me know :)