FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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In my case I see suicide as rational as it's the way to prevent and escape from unnecessary suffering in an existence that was always undesirable in the first place. Ceasing to exist solves everything for me as it removes the ultimate cause of all problems which is existence itself but in fact I see existence itself as the true problem as it's the source of all suffering. Existence truly is just a horrifying abomination that causes nothing but harm, I see it as tragic how something so dreadful and harmful as life even exists at all.

For me suicide is rational as it's the way to take control over the inevitable, it's suffering prevention, the way to find safety from suffering and peace from the burden of existing as a human with nobody being able to suffer from not existing yet in existence there is unlimited potential for pain, torment and harm.

I see all suffering as unnecessary, unacceptable and best avoided no matter what, I don't have any interest in suffering for decades just to be tormented by old age and die anyway which is why it makes no sense to me when people repeat the words that suicidal people need "help". It especially makes no sense as there is nothing irrational about preferring the peace of non-existence to having the ability to suffer in this meaningless existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

Allowing peaceful suicide methods is all that would "help", I honestly could never understand why anyone would wish for something so repulsive and pointless as existence, the more time spent here just means more opportunities to suffer yet ceasing to exist means freedom from all future suffering, to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing much worse suffering at any moment.
I personally see so much beauty in the thought of an eternal, dreamless sleep, I'd always prefer to not exist and see it as better that this existence permanently disappears into nothingness but of course only never existing is true perfection.
 
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The Schizoid

The Schizoid

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Oct 24, 2023
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I hope you one day find the freedom from your suffering that you're searching for....
 
Cherry_BB

Cherry_BB

I need someone to push me over the edge
Jul 6, 2023
32
I really wish we could experience life in the way that healthy people do. Maybe if we were able to "see the good in life" we wouldn't feel this way. As I see it, I agree 100% with you. I don't see any worth in living just to continue the cycle of pain. I hope you can find happiness in life. If not, I wish you peace in death.
 
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FutureHanger

FutureHanger

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Dec 9, 2023
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I really wish we could experience life in the way that healthy people do. Maybe if we were able to "see the good in life" we wouldn't feel this way.
As weird as this sounds I'm actually glad I've been pushed to the point of suicide, the world is shit and I've always been aware of this so I wouldn't want to be happy if that meant being ignorant of the sad reality we all live in.

It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society
 
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PrisonPlanetBreak

PrisonPlanetBreak

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Oct 22, 2023
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As weird as this sounds I'm actually glad I've been pushed to the point of suicide, the world is shit and I've always been aware of this so I wouldn't want to be happy if that meant being ignorant of the sad reality we all live in.

It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society
It doesn't sound weird, I have a similar view on things. I wouldn't go back to my old self. I actually used to be happy in 2018. I think I was at my highest back then (graduated, got the job I wanted, started to socialize some more), and before that, my lows were simply days of sadness/stress, not depression. I got acquainted with depression in 2020, and I feel like it opened my eyes to what reality really is. I cannot comprehend how I was fine before with turning a blind eye to the shithole the world really is, and focus on a future where the prospect of death may be the result of old age only. And f*ck if I am going to shove pills down my throat to believe that illusion again, no thanks...​
 
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FutureHanger

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It doesn't sound weird, I have a similar view on things. I wouldn't go back to my old self. I actually used to be happy in 2018. I think I was at my highest back then (graduated, got the job I wanted, started to socialize some more), and before that, my lows were simply days of sadness/stress, not depression. I got acquainted with depression in 2020, and I feel like it opened my eyes to what reality really is. I cannot comprehend how I was fine before with turning a blind eye to the shithole the world really is, and focus on a future where the prospect of death may be the result of old age only. And f*ck if I am going to shove pills down my throat to believe that illusion again, no thanks...​
Yeah the deeper I get into being suicidal the more I realise it just makes more sense. It won't matter if I'm dead how or when I die and under what circumstances so what's the point slaving under capitalism, getting fucked over by climate change before retirement and then dying in such a chaotic circumstance? Even if my depression gets a little bit better over time I feel like dying of suicide is still better, at least with suicide I control how and when I die rather than starving in the climate apocalypse
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,202
It's the same for me too. In my case, living is irrational. There's nothing about living that I enjoy. I never wanted to live to begin with and I still don't. With how my personality is, I'm perfect for death as I never wanted to think or feel or experience or be a human being. I want to be non existent in where the human condition cannot hurt me ever again for all eternity
 
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