Story For a moment there, I accepted my faith

[Mustkeyknow]

I tried to CTB last December by cutting my wrists, it was a huge mistake and I didn't know better, I wasn't aware of SS back then. Anyway, it was an awful day as you can imagine, and the cherry on stop was my attempt, but I remember that before doing it, for a moment there, I accepted my destiny, I felt this calmness, like everything just stood still. I cut my arms pretty bad but didn't hit a single vein. The memory haunts me to this day, and I can't believe it happened. And ever since then I tried other methods but never felt that calm until now, where life is shit again (it never truly was anything else other than that) and I want to CTB again and I felt it, the peace. I truly wonder if I'll ever be able to attempt again. Maybe one day I'll be successful. With another method of course.

Has anyone ever felt this calmness before?

 

[faust]

I am very calm about my CTB.
It will save me from sufferings and a lot of troubles.
Life is not so stressful now as it was before. All the problems and mental health were casting a shadow on me. Now there is no point in stressing about future anymore.