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lionetta12
Just a random person
- Aug 5, 2022
- 1,201
Hi everyone,
I was close to the Grand Canyon a few days ago again, one of the only places I want to CTB at in this world. It was frustrating because I had flown there internationally and so I did not bring my SN. I was not suicidal at the time of flying there but when I got there I just thought of CTB the entire time. It was very warm so I didn't want to climb around trying to find a good spot for jumping and I didn't want to traumatize others by renting a gun and CTB in a gun range. I didn't have enough time there to order more SN.
I live in Europe. I'm traveling again this or next week to my hometown, not internationally, just normal regional flight from a small airport to another small airport and I want to bring my SN with me as something to comfort me and in case I end up being suicidal there too as I can see myself being okey with suiciding there. I see that while I was gone IC has gone down and it makes me even more worried of losing my SN since I can't really replace it anymore but I honestly don't want to die in this horrible town I currently live in for many complicated reasons and I obviously don't want airport security to take the SN from me or do something bad.
Any advice?
I was close to the Grand Canyon a few days ago again, one of the only places I want to CTB at in this world. It was frustrating because I had flown there internationally and so I did not bring my SN. I was not suicidal at the time of flying there but when I got there I just thought of CTB the entire time. It was very warm so I didn't want to climb around trying to find a good spot for jumping and I didn't want to traumatize others by renting a gun and CTB in a gun range. I didn't have enough time there to order more SN.
I live in Europe. I'm traveling again this or next week to my hometown, not internationally, just normal regional flight from a small airport to another small airport and I want to bring my SN with me as something to comfort me and in case I end up being suicidal there too as I can see myself being okey with suiciding there. I see that while I was gone IC has gone down and it makes me even more worried of losing my SN since I can't really replace it anymore but I honestly don't want to die in this horrible town I currently live in for many complicated reasons and I obviously don't want airport security to take the SN from me or do something bad.
Any advice?