anhedonicNfoggy
i don’t know
- Aug 7, 2023
- 97
My state doesn't allow firearms but I can travel
Q1) The issue is if I'll be able to give closure to family.
If my head is blown off and I'm in a different state, then they'll think I'm missing for a long while. I want to write a suicide note but if I leave it in a visible place with the address and everything, I wouldn't want flesh bits on it because that would be traumatic. I wouldn't want to leave the note in my room given the risk they find out before I succeed. Idk if my parents for sure plan to see my body or fine with accepting the news I'm dead. I just don't want it to look terrifying to them if they do intend to see it.
Q2) Another thing is - what place to shoot?
I feel like it would be difficult to shoot without anyone noticing the loud noise. Cars and people are always somehow around in areas. Forests are still close to roads bc there's mostly urban cities nearly everywhere. If not, maybe someone's hiking or camping. It isn't guaranteed that no one is going to somehow spot me after the noise to seek medical attention.
This is just future plans. I understand gunshots are painful but the reliability and speed makes for a successful attempt. Still figuring out what's the best option tho.
Q1) The issue is if I'll be able to give closure to family.
If my head is blown off and I'm in a different state, then they'll think I'm missing for a long while. I want to write a suicide note but if I leave it in a visible place with the address and everything, I wouldn't want flesh bits on it because that would be traumatic. I wouldn't want to leave the note in my room given the risk they find out before I succeed. Idk if my parents for sure plan to see my body or fine with accepting the news I'm dead. I just don't want it to look terrifying to them if they do intend to see it.
Q2) Another thing is - what place to shoot?
I feel like it would be difficult to shoot without anyone noticing the loud noise. Cars and people are always somehow around in areas. Forests are still close to roads bc there's mostly urban cities nearly everywhere. If not, maybe someone's hiking or camping. It isn't guaranteed that no one is going to somehow spot me after the noise to seek medical attention.
This is just future plans. I understand gunshots are painful but the reliability and speed makes for a successful attempt. Still figuring out what's the best option tho.